What I've always wanted..

I dreamed, I stressed, I never achieve.

Anyways, I'm still trying. Movies like this, Glory Road, Gridiron Gang. These 2 really boost up my feelings once again. I know, its my journal so its for me to type whatever I want.

All I've always wanted, is to become somebody, from a nobody. Such movies really makes me super inspirated. A bunch of useless fools, going all the way to the top. Yes, such things comes like 1 in a million, but, who knows, you might be the next crew. I hate to do things just for the fun outta it. Competitive games really brings you to the limit, makes one the extraordinary.

I just wanna get out of the life that i'm stucked in. I wanna join the national team for dragonboating. I wanna make a name for myself, just once, not a notorious one, but one that brings fame and am proud of.

Recently, many things flashed through my mind. Valencia said im philosophical. Such thoughts really make me toss throughout the night. I know, im the sort that things alot , like what will happen and such and make myself uneasy. Can't even protect my own future atm, and im caring bout how others feel and such. Bah, ignore this paragraph haha.

Yes, that hall of fame, the one who upsets the community/association with the shocking triumph outta no where.

That's just what I want..

Maybe then, I'll settle down and set new goals.... [ To training, time to work doubly hard today, to break or faint or whichever, is expected ]

The golden rules is that there're no golden rules.


OMG
Yes I know, its sashimi fiesta!

Went out with nick's poly mates and..
feast on japanese buffet!

18bucks and I can order as many sashimi and many others.
Really, its the best deal you can find. 5 pieces for 5.90.
But see how many pieces are there. theres 25! LAH!!
Crazy, totally!

Okay, so i skipped the 2.4 training after the meal.
I don't wanna vomit out my sashimis ;P

Okay so the next week pictures are..
Me and the cwdb went for the olympic annoucement.
The annoucement that will finalise whether if mexico
or singapore wins the ground for the 2010 olympics.

And yes, singapore won! Okay, it will matter to me during 2010.
From today, REALLY today onwards,

Dragonboat will be priority, I wanna go in the National team.
I was really fired up and filled with ... " I want to win a medal for myself " mood.
Okay, maybe it was abit exaggerated.
Yeah, we're jumping on the chairs and dancing with the beat.
Oh , to yusoffians, JJC was the like leaders for the thing. Then
have to make you dance and such. And yes, apple was the leader of the leaders.

Okay, I was crazy, scream and jumped on the chairs
It felt like singfest. HAHA!

then spraying water and such. Oh! And we took photos with 2 angmoh ladies! HAHA!!! Really hilarious, but if I didn't go initiate,
doubt we will get to take the photos with em. Its in the straits time, I am not inside :( Like only 20cm away nia lor!!

Outta voice, smelly, tired, jaded, went for dinner and headed home.

It was a great day. Its over tho..

Now its time to pia again ;)

We're not lost, we're locationally challenged~

Happy belated VALENTINES to all. I know im 2 days late but please endure with it. Training kills e whole day as I get burnt out so badly.

I don't really have the time to play my computer games as often anymore.

I try to play abit of bball when I have the time.

Jogging is out of the question.

Now what I'm interested is piano!!
I'll master this piece - Ballades pour adeline. Give me a month.


Once poly accepts me, I'll go into grade-learning.
I'll make piano-ing a passion :D

Should be able to do cope well!
Okay, to what happened on VDAY!

Yes, its shaw's hoshigaoka.
If it wasn't because of the lack of cash, I would've ordered page
2 and 3 liao lah! :X haha!
Yea, that tub over there with sashimi, cost us 18.80.
8 dollars of sashimi, 10 dollars of ice. DAMN NICE OR~

I feel cheated, anyway, the sashimi is super fresh, damn damn nice lah!!!!

Then comes our... err
GOMOKU BENTO![ I think i spell i right ] 22bucks only. I mean, I wasn't full :\

HAHA okok, yes, then they say, we should take a photo.

Why?

To spite jo, I think its zh say one. So anything, jo, you go find problem with him, thanks :)

My dish was good, got potato, chicken, eel, fish, mushroom.
Bah, wth, its like a full package.

Just that, I drank their green tea till I felt full :X

Ya, you can't blame a guy who can have 5 plates of chicken rice..

For just dinner :P

Jo, this "fuck :)" is for you, return you the mayo-fuck you gave me 53253262364 years ago.

So after dinner, zh want to go arab street to smoke.

Yeah, he was saying its dope shit
Okay okay lies.

Yeah, he went to find ming and gab so..
We decided to hunt jo at kallang's PA.
HAHA, I damn persistent, the guard was saying..
cannot ah, inside alot of foreigners and only performers are allowed and stuffs.
So I made a story, like, wah lau, uncle we came down from damn far to see my friend perform.

My friend even said that we can just go in then now liddat!
Uncle, we just stay one corner dont make noise lah.

In the end, we got in as Vistors, traded the EZ-link card. haha!
Wah, damn heng lah I tell you, that joseph was.. in the bus! Gonna take off to somewhere alr, luckily I saw his mischevious face at the window and he alighted. Heng sai, if not we really come in vain.

Tada, ming was saying jo's very sexy in that outfit LOL!
Straight nuclear. I like.
hehe, okay im off to get my richard clayderman/pachelbel/leo sayer CDs. Woots. Here I go!

Labels : Vday, japanese food, chingay.

Tv, is chewing gum for the eyes~

Ah yes, totally wtf. I had 2 days of training, as usual, its tough like XGADSGADCAHAWEGA. Cannot take it or..

Then its kinda stressing to do projects, and keep going to the toilet to shit.
Same thing goes for projects. Really damn irritating. And its not those normal shit lah, its those, you know, soft soft one, or super watery one. Okay damn disgusting but I have to say it. Must be the food or water that I consume recently. Maybe its the 50cents mountain dew, the one i drank 5 cups during training and resulted in this.

So, the effect from ytd's training still haven't wore off and we have to do 100 pullups again, sprint jog sprint jog for 8 times. Then intensive weight training and lastly 300 pushups. Im not bragging that I've completed everyting, but its really great to stand up after the 300 pumpings and sweating like it just rained , on you.

So tmr's the same thing and lastly,

Just now, at like 9pm, i boarded the damn 74 bus that jerk till my stomachache, returned.
Okay, maybe its due to the freshmilk, but nvm, blame the bus.
Then I alighted at ngee ann waiting for the yellow number buses, and guess what, none of em came, for the pass 15mins. So the "tummyattack" came kinda frequently during the 15mins wait, I decided to hail a cab. You know, 0 cab came to me, the uncle merely looked at me and like drive off. $#^$@TGSEGHSY$@T@, frustraing i tell you. Felt like changing the wave to a handsign.

Then this girl tried to snatch my cab, I was like , oei, siam thanks. When the cab stopped.
She got frightened off, of course, grzz, my shit wanna come out alr still wanna snatch my cab.

After that, I called my bro to get me dinner and for the firsttime, he told me homework > buying dinner. Fed up ah!! No dinner fer me, I'm like tired and ya, tired, and he didn't want to help me. I'm munching on redbean buns, crap, I think today's training abit wasted if I don't eat more.

Oh and lastly, I ran to the master bedroom toilet to , shit, again. Guess what, my mom was hogging the kitchen's toilet and she came scolding me saying I have no brains. Cannot wait then go shit. Wah, the shit's like alr coming out and she say wait, you know after I shit, she took like 15mins to come out of the toilet, I would've SPLATTER my "everything" on the floor and force her to mop it lah. WAHHHHH, fedup ah. Sleep is my only choice right now man.

byebye!

Labels : stomachache, weak stomach, shit.

Late to bed and late to wake will keep you long on money and short on mistakes.

Okay, firstly, HAPPY CNY to everyone.
Secondly, I regretted supporting kenneth as banker for blackjack!

Cause he have to get duo As when I place my 10 bucks.

Haha "po cai", straight I lost 30bucks. Damn nice or..
It was like getting kissed by "cas" or staring at "mayxuen" or drinking a cup of "MILK"

[Thanks ah ming ROFL]

But oh wells, lets think on the positive way, maybe I'll gain something in other aspects of life.

And and

I wanna apologise to karma, please let me off this year, I promise i'll be the best kid in the country and stop being mean like viewing friendster :X

Yea, its a promise!

Thats right, I tonned at my friend's house for gambling madness, and going mahjong tonight~
Holy, just press 6 digits from a stuck up machine and I get cash for round 2! ;P

Besides, 12 13 14 15 16, these 5 numbers, i hate em LOL
Must be due to joseph's mayxuen lah~!!

Anyways, im in a rush, so im out for visiting and dinner, so...


HUAT HUAT HUAT HUAT AHHH!!!!

Labels : CNY, gambling, huat zai :).

Silly is you in a natural state, and serious is something you have to do until you can get silly again.

Okay, first of all, HURRAY to my 100' post.
Like finally or

Now to serious section. Training's now at e " endurance " level, again.
Due to my illness, of course, I pon-ed mon and tues training due to no other reason than that.

But of course, I can't just sit at home and talk to myself, so I went to bball ;P
Ah, yes, back to training. It's tough, its fun. Its heart-killing.

Okay, seriously, I was panting so hard like.. tsk.. like I gave birth to 10 babies.

Then maybe, due to my illness, I somehow couldn't take the training lor. But afterall, I completed it ;D

Comp was destroyed by my mom's awesome handiwork. I think she pour water into my monitor and now, I'm left with a usable CPU, like WOAH!?!

Really, I got so hot headed at the moment, she was like an armored knight, with shields on both hands, telling me. Eh boy ah, just now I dunno why, I use your comp awhile only then the monitor went blank and I replaced you old monitor but keep flickering.

You know, theres this sensitive thing bout my comp, whenever some other pple, uses it! Problems flow in like, ok singlish-fied, free one. My bro touched my comp and it kept hanging and hanging. Now my mum made the monitor defective. Nice or.

I was wrong, but that volcano inside me, yes, it's proven extinct, BUT, it erupted. Okay nice, I sweared infront of her like, it was just cursing, like... F*ck sia. Tell you all so much times to not mess with my comp, now what, Plasma tv cannot install PS3 due to your shows at this and that time. Then guoxin's laptop for him to use, you have 2 comps yet you wanna destroy mine then you happy lah!

Wah, damn direct, and I was slamming the components/wires/sockets like how kids used to throw their legoS. Damn frustrating to have such a scene at that time, all worn out, hungry, smelly, and the flickering monitor, ya flickering at me like its saying : you deserve it sucker. ARGH !@#$%^&*()

Pissed, then my bro's using his laptop and my mom, as usual, holding on to her 2 comps saying , " cannot use ah, my documents very important ". My comp not impt lah -.-..

This is my karma man, time to chant some scriptures and off to bed. Night!

Labels : karma.

That 40 year old man's story...

He said, delay obedience is being disobedient.
And he followed up with..

do it straight when your parents tell you so.
If not when they start attacking from the mouth..

One gets so pissed off and either start attacking back or have a negative thinking that..

Their parents never loved em.

But, we must always remember, your parents love 's unconditional. Theres nothing to fulfill in order to attain their care and concern.

Yesterday I went to e old folks home, visited my grandfather. Surviving on milk, not through the mouth, but the nose. Remember me telling you he was a basketballer that bleeds everytime he plays? Now, he can't even move. Whats more saddening is to see his legs, they're like skinwrapped bones, no fats nor muscles. He don't even wanna talk, sleep and opening his eyes looking left and right at the same old stuffs everyday.

My heart really ached when I saw that. But of course I didn't express anything. Really, it sucks to thing of it, but from his eyes, i see that he wants to walk, he only wants to regain mobility and have a body dependant on his own body organs, not some machines.

Fuck this cruel world, return him that freedom man.

My mom called this very morning, and I was damn shocked, I thought he passed away.
Mom said, we must visit ah gong, who knows, he may want to see something, say something, do something to someone, for a reason.
Then he can rest in peace and head to heaven after that.

My mom's dad passed away after i visited him. I was the last person, my guess was he perservered to see me.

Random : My dad and grandpapa loved roast pork, guess thats why I like it too. Haha, at least I remember him, whenever I munch on it.

To the docs, I spit brown phelgm with red stuffs, guessing blood, maybe I'm too heaty. hehe.

Zai jian~

Labels : Illness, death, roastpork?, love, proactive.

When your work speaks for itself, don't interrupt.

Wisdom is something, you can't attain easily.
Humility is another that keeps your life going.

From here, this short post..

I looked back to my primary school class's names.

They really are stuffs that you need to go on in life.
For me, I was in Peace. Guess thats what I need in my heart and mind for now.

Labels : life learnings.

wisdom, from a man's mouth..

it goes likes this..

When someone offends you, you forgive him.
When that particular someone offends you again, you still forgive him..

but..

you don't trust him much anymore.
This words are familiar to some and yes, it enlightens me to a point.

My uncle always have this phrases in his mind.

Going : Give me a fish, I eat for a day. Teach me to fish, I eat for a lifetime.
Simple meaning, very useful in life.

Anyways, I went to nick's house ytd to watch his gameplay, rated 9.5, anyhow kill pple to stay low profile,95 bucks, spoil at a certain saving point game called.. Assasin Creed.

hilarious shit, great gameplay tho.
Yea, nick was screaming and going beserk with the controller in his hands.
Killing pple who stared at him, pushing ladies to see their panties, killing president wannabes, what you want, you name it LOL!

Had supper, and we talked bout our future.
Ok, this part is serious stuffs. Cause all 3 of em, have a goal in their mind.
Whereas me, I've nothing in mind. Its only fun fun and fun.
I did think bout my future but, what else can I do .. I feel the lack of something, career wise that is.

So, I reached home at 2am, did the necessities and talked to mama bout my future.
From here, I highlight my second title.

A hero..

After hearing my mom's stories bout how my dad started his business.
I really believe that he reaped what he sowed.

No flaunting nor boasting of anything, but my dad really work so hard for the benefits of me and my family, his parents and their life.

For me, I've no direction in life. I like cooking, I like watersports, as long as theres anything thats gotta do with water/sea. It thrills me, really.

Board games wise, im a chinese chess fanatic, not knowing why but im actually quite good at it ;P
Gaming, im just an average player and so on.

So from here, what can I do in the future, I thought about it until today morning when I met up with the rowers for breakfast.

My dad, never had good grades, bought stuffs and prospect/investigate/learn.
From there, with his creativity, he mix and match and made out something out of the world. Ok, exaggerated, but he used his brains and worked out his business. Now, hes successful.

Hes, my hero.
[ I don't know what will happen when I take over his business but soon enough, I'll start learning the ropes and hopefully, no thunderstorms ;) ]

...... so...
I had food that cost me $9.40 and made me feel like puking at JEC.
The food kinda suck, people really need to learn how to cook.

Then off to boating, joined a team called " Kiyah-Splashh!"
Ok, regarding the name, it does sounds abit, cute?

But the rowers are kinda strong so, lets hope it works out good ;)
Went home sleep sleep and sleep and now, its 1:11am, time to sleep. night!

OH, and i saw some jackneo crew members filming at my voiddeck. Woots, im guessing "I'm not stupid 3"

Labels : wisdom,hero,dragonboat,"food",goals..

when they lie in the box..

I have a friend, his aunt just passed away and hes on the verge of crying when he told us what happened.
Another friend, whose grandma pass away and he kept crying.

Me, never cried for anyone whom died.

So far, my grandma died on my 9th birthday, I hated her cause of that, I never recieve a present anymore from mummy.

Grandpa, died and I was too stoned hearted to cry for him when doing the rounds ard his coffin.

Maybe I just ain't that close to em, but they somehow brought me up for e first 3 years of my life.

1) I cried, when my dad pinned me on the floor when we argue and fought for abit.
2) Cried again when trying to explain the right facts to my mum that I wasn't in wrong.
3) When I almost lost my finger during dragonboat training, it was stucked onto another boat and gonna break off from my hand.
4) Not resistable when I felt like a useless bum in life.
5) A low blood pressure friend had a positive record, I think. Yeah, it was a relief.

Now my other grandpapa 's depending on machines for his life.
Whether will he pass away is something which I do not know. I just hope, hes all good.

Not that im a selfish fella, but if he can play with me 1 last round of chinese chess. It would be .. really esctatic and .. will be the next thing I cried for, my grand pa's death.

Oh wells.. "GOLDEN PATH" TIME!

Labels : Emotions, death, life cycle.

some jokes or..

OEI OEI!! I wanna sign up for a 1 day training and learning of WIND SURFING!
( OMG THATS LIKE F*-ing AWESOME OR~? )

Please nudge me at fongkeemee@hotmail.com
I need 4 people so that course can start. 1 day course, yeap its a reminder.

You know why I wanna do such stuffs all of a sudden?
Cause..

I'm about to get damn mature, when I enter army. Ok , thats bullshit.
But yes, I wanna do the following..
Surfing, not porn surfing but real water surfing.
Wind surfing, " river rifting " <-- LOL AT JOSEPH. Yea, its water skiing!
Wake boarding, kite surfing.

Ok, im a watersports fanatic but yes, its really awesome.
My dream is to skydive, and not die.

Wah, I suddenly damn enthu lah! Prompt me for details man!

GOGO andy! go beyond the boundaries!

Labels : Watersports , dasical attitude.

extra post for da day..

aka, andy needs to use his brains at times.

HOW COULD HE JUST GO ACCORDING TO HIS FEEL ..
and say no no no no!

SHIT, very regrettable friday I had this week. HAHAHA!

oh wells, hopes for more and the better to come.

Labels : chances in life, regrets.

What if you die tmr..

1) I'll eat my favourite tofu dish!
2) do gymwork till i breakdown
3) drink 2 litres of fresh milk and shit out everything I have within
4) try to break my previous 5 plates chicken rice record
5) break my " cut down on expletives vow "
6) laugh at/with my friend's silly behaviours
7) cry? haven't cried for a long time
8) run home from westmall, as always, in slippers, at 3-5am!
9) booo at my stupid reactions... yea its regrettable, oh wells.
10) ask someone if I could be her other half!

Yea, totally perfect.

Anws, you guys watched "American Gangster"?!
Ok, it was awesome. Real life story, superb ending and, it gives me those kinda warm feeling at the ending. (EVEN THO THAT MOVIE WAS 2HOURS30MINS!!)

Same goes to "Gridiron Gang" and "Blood Diamond".
These movies have a great great impact on me, sometimes they're even 1st ranked while comparing to stephen chao's movies.
Chow rather.

Oh wells, its getting late.
Wan ans~

Labels : Real life stories, heart-warming stuffs, things to do before...

nightmares

I was sleeping so well fer this few days till like 2 days ago.
Think it was due to AVP2.

I've been having weird dreams like, what was the first one I had..
bah, I can't remember.

But this recent, I mean just 15mins ago before i woke up.

Don't laugh tho, it goes like this ...
There was an alien invasion and everyone was running away, I was scared too you know, but I closed the windows doors lights to save electricity?! LOL

Then before I jumped out of the window, some alien ran towards my face, slammed the window grill and I shouted, I need to save electricity lah!

Alien : NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ [ omg srsly, how did this scene comes about?! ]

And and! I stole a police's car and rode it to the airport, cause my mom decided to abandon me due to my "save electricity" habit.

HAHA, and last but not least, the biggest alien appeared, guess what? He had fetish for humans' hands only, and only eats the people in blue comfort cab.

Then ...!!!!!
THE MOST EXCITING PART CAME..!!!
The alarm woke me up telling me to stop dreaming, cause its nonsensical.

OKOK!! FINE, im off to school :D

Labels : jokes , nightmares.

Ah. the great outdoors~

OMG~
training, chalet, back to sch for proj, to chalet,back to sch for training, project,project, competition.

Thats wednesday thurs friday sat sun mon..

Bloody hell, want to buy freedom~

Labels : Freedom, chalet, work.

Watch the mess from above, and wish to go higher and reach something.

Below, is the stuffs I created, and made a mess out of it..
Above, I want to be a champ, just for once, I wanna carve out something in life.

Something beyond a group of friends' knowing..
something that would make the world roar in honour.

I want to be something that would make everyone be proud of.

Labels : ambition.

I feel malign yet sorry.

Trust me, if you ever read this page...
I only wanted to help, and thats that.

I didn't want to gain anything, maybe I wanted something, just to see you 2 have better relationships and stuffs.

I always told you her smile could keep me up all times, just that smile.

Why would I ever bother to backstab if... if i wanted to help. fuck this shit man.

Labels : maligned.

May Santa make your wish come true~

Howdy~
This post's bout how christmas eve was spent.

<-- That's beer-replaced-with-green tea cans as you can see.

You know what?! I bought 44 bucks of unneccessary items.

Damn pissed or?
Anyways, the day started off with basketball early morning.
Then I headed home and met zhenwei rod and joseph for gym.

I didn't take down jo's "reach for the star" pose.
Really amusing pose but anws, after that, home and off to beautyworld to spend unneccesary money.

At 530pm sharp, the truck came and, holy shit~ They don't accept nets, only cash!?!!


Luckily our saviours, zhenwei, zhihao and oh jiejie came down with a lump sum of cash and we started our BBQ.

Yes, I was swearing, cause they gave 3 packs of ice, 2 packs of charcoal, utensils plates and everything needed. What the hell, really, I wasted some cash, could've done better if I gave it to charity. "jiang zhen de" aka, seriously.

Joseph and I quarrelled bout how many fire castles we should..

build, yea, build and after 3254236742352 years, as you can see from the pictures, zhenwei is trying damn hard by placing alot of fire starters close together.

Yes, reminding me, zhihao was playing with his meteorites, the burnt fire starters all the while. Made us progress damn slow lah! haha!

Zh joy and zj were slackers, trust me :P

I was photographer, so you can't blame me for not doing much.

Oh ya, we filled the whole area with smoke as you can see zhenwei using the styrofoam board spamming his god strength and fanning the pit really hard. Touched right? Yea, he made the whole pit area really stuffy only haha!
Then ken nick and yx came, the NCC boys saved e day with their uber skills.


Yes, they're uber and some are still slacking and..

Joseph's jumping ard the area like some monkey and zhenwei savouring on his BBQ sauce.

He had a quote of the day, which is "in chinese" [ We can eat good food, go swimming, and oogle at hot babes ]

HAHA! In the end, human-lookalike people came down, disappointed eh?

Signature-park's the best condo I've seen till now.

It's bbq pit's in an enclose area and , can't really describe much.

Just feel very good when you're bbq-ing in such a place :)

Thy clock hit 1130, the guardman arrives and orders to leave.

We headed to rodney's house and caught the movie, Saw 4.

True enough, its still gore/horror and stuffs but not as disgusting.

..as before. This time I think the director focused more on technology on the traps instead of the gruesome parts. Kinda boring to be truthful.

They drank, and played the game of truth or dare.
I hate being allergy to liquor. Makes me look like some slug after drinking abit. Sigh?

Had breakfast, an hour sleep, visited my grand papa, and to work.

Oh, hes my only grandpapa left in the world. He was frail, weak, dependable on machines for survival. I felt a sharp..
I mean, really sharp pain when I saw him suffering so badly.

[I was fuming at first, cause I needed to sleep and my parents were scolding me unfilial for not going to see my grandpapa. Well, I planned the bbq and stuffs and if the host were to leave, some stuffs would obv go wrong, so I got pissed off and argued]
Thinking back, he used to be so nice to me, scooping food for me to feast on, playing my favourite chinese chess game with me.

Grandma told me that he loves basketball too and played really violent those days. He bled everytime he played. Now I see him on the verge of going away, I feel, sad yet Im happy, cause he completed his life somehow, it might be a good thing to die cause I don't wanna see him suffer though I wanna be with him through one more new year, just one more chinese new year celebration.

Oh ya, the last pic's bout me jo ming and zh. We took picture with a guy with ear pieces stuffed into his ears and blasting music out from the ear piece and his mouth. Yea, hes snoring and we decided to take photo with him!! HAHA!

Hilarious, much fun indeed.

Ok, I'm dead beat and I've to hibernate. Restoring energy for a better day tmr. Good bye folks ;)

Labels : death/life, christmas eve celebration, friends.

I blame people who invent gates/doors and etc.

why?
Because, after you gulp down 2 litres of fresh milk and a 300ml nutrisoy, the tummyache activates and it the "WASTE" forces its way out.

HAHA. Yes, I made it to the toilet bowl and you know, it felt like paradise.

3 days to christmas eve. and my planning somehow cropped up.
It sucks and now I'm so busy with stuffs and yea, stuffs.

Anyways, gym is so core atm that I'm like going to sleep right now, so, goodnight too all!

Will you still eat mai dang lao with me in the morning?!
Forever and ever, babe?

LOL, I completed a 6 months homework in 2days?!
I tested all my work infront of the teacher and everything was successful?!

Some pawnage or

Then then!! I saw the god damn SEA GAMES people earning the medals and
revealing their prowess and defeating their opponent. Woah, see them like
that,
makes me wanna pump harder during training.

The fire is like burning within me, I wanna fill myself with another level of
power and BURST, then grow long yellow hair like dragonball!

Had some dinner that made me feel like how you stuff an elephant into a hippopotamus<--[wrong spelling?]

And "touchwood"
I ate beef infront of my altar. HEHE, hope I'm still blessed with goodluck ^^.

Oh ya, and my poor and torn shoes have to soak in that water that was send from the cracked open sky. I thought I could go home high and dry. Hope none of you caught a cold, cause I didn't get one when I got soak in the rain for 10mins, I mean the 10mins no shelther walk home ;)

STRONG or?

and and!! baby mutton's phrase was hilarious : "eh vernon, the player below 23 play until so lousy, you go form a over 60 team and play lah! HHEHEHEHE "

almost made me fall of the chair laughing haha!!

OKOK, have the urge.. to rest! byebye!

when the flowers gaze at you..

Credits to kcmx, my masterpiece while waiting for gym work to start.

This is the symbol of honor, pride, justice, commitment of the cwdb!

and yes, its bullshit, its just my very own storyline! :D

haha, guess what?

While I was doing the counter yesterday, I made 6 tomatoes cost $91.00.

LOL, do you believe that? I got so shocked myself too. Cause the tomatoes are by weight and I left my lazy hand there while keying the numbers of the fruits/veggies.

Haha! the lady was shocked or

luckily she wasn't a petty sort and forgave me instantly.

Had a test today, not really a test cause I could go..

Andy : Aye sial lah, what is TFT?

someone : Thin film transmittor.

Andy : HUH?!

another someone : Thin film transmittor lah!

Andy : what what transmittor?!

teacher : Andy ah, aiyo don't ask people, do yourself!!!

ROFL!

I love my ITE life. This teacher, Mr. Pohm has been my form teacher for my entire ITE life.

He gave me 6 hours CIP cause I did a charitable thing by buying from him a correction tape and same goes for everyone in the class. Hilarious!!

Last year, we swept the floor for 5 mins and gained 6 hours CIP. HAHAHA!

Seriously, he even said, aiya andy, come back tmr, I can only give 4 person CIP hours today.

Totally, What the shit?!

Then he even give pple who wrote some characters/letters on their test paper, 60 marks.

Saying , in chinese [ got do can already ]

LOL, how corrupted can ITE get, seriously, im lovin' it.

Today, he opened the lab for us to play lan for 3 hours.

I holler in afew of my friends and we had CS/Dota matches.

Ok, what a day!

Then I had to get sting by the heavy rain omw home.

Kk, thats all, time to game.

[ hmms .. ]

I think I'm missing out on alot of other kinds of entertainment..

and.. losing touch with my once good buddies..

or..

I'm just thinking too much. hehe. ;D

Regrets, the one wrong move.. hurts alot.

This post is about a certain person..
whom forgave me even after my wrong doings.

Not mentioning how much each have done for the other..
today, I feel remorse yet happy, cause thick skin is for the win <-- joke only.

She climbed out of the well which I thrown her into. I fell into my own trap and now, she picked me out of it. I thank you, with all my heart.

Seriously, I want to say this a million times or even a trillion times to you, if I ever get the chance.

I'm sorry.

To my once dearest friend, and going to be again and forever...

Berenice Yip Lijun.

When you're smashed to pieces and still have to go on..thats the spirit

2 hours of sleep I had
Woke up at 3 plus and msn till the called-cab arrived
Had some cabonara and a bottle of green tea for breakfast. awesome.
I mean, i paid 16bucks for the cab fare. Yea, woah! awesome. ;D
Then there were morning conflicts cause pple were late and stuffs.
OK forget bout those stuffs.

THE 21.1KM RACE STARTED

WOAH, damn excited, was screaming like it was another millenium!

Had a nonsensical start, everyone was cramped up together and yea,

from 7 warriors,

we have 2men down due to stomachache and gastric pains issue.
Another 2 went down due to lagged behind?
Left me and another 2.
I then lagged behind at the 13k mark.

Bloody hell? I saw the 10k mark and ran abit faster and was stopping inbetweens alot due to awaiting and stuffs. Almost lost my chip but lucky someone prompt me to go back and get it
Yea, back to the 10k mark, it was only 5k when i ran 1k.

Ok bullshit! Want to buy more knowledge at times like this.

[extra : There was this husband and wife with tags behind em writing , " My wife made me do this --> " and " <--- LIAR " ] hehe!!

then lets fast forward abit, from 10km mark - 13km, I sprint stop and repeat, cause the momentum? the breathing were not consistent at start already, its the only way I believe.

Walking was the only stuff I did. At 15k, some runner encouraged me to run, so the motivated andy started jogging.

AND WOAH, my legs cramped like no tomorrow.

REALLY, SERIOUSLY, TOTALLY.. damn pain!!

I hopp-ed to one side almost immediately and stretched. Medics came and show me some funny looking ointment which i rejected HAHAHA.

Kk, so i completed almost 2/5 of the race by walking and trying to slow jog at times. It sucks when your shorts fibre are cutting ur thighs, ankle knee all hurting me and stuffs.

2 cups of 100plus and 1 cup of mineral water was what I had every kiosk, yesyes, water tank, but my body dehydrated, wasn't pespiring after an hour or so, guess I needed the water.

AND WHATS VERY PRO IS THAT, i wore sneakers to jog. ROFL.
Its for the win man, that pair of sneakers 's been with me for like 5 years, guess it should be in such a big event with me :D

haha, yea i know what you're thinking, andy have feelings for non-living things? lalala~ you happy can already.

Got the medal, dropped dead, pee-ed in smelly cubicles that have "waste" on it, really disgusting
Had 2 rounds of breakfast and off to bed from 1-9pm

My leg muscles are still cramping and to mr lim : " This run thrashes ur leg training 3523523423 times :X

[Actually, im quite satisfied with myself, being able to tahan such a long run, haha! I saw adeline,diana and dilis. Small world uh. 1 tuition friend, 1 primary sch mate and 1 working friend]

Had seafood fried rice that cost $6.60 for dinner O_O
Expensive or..
or flex like mAd? ;P

Kk, have training and sch tmr, need to try to sleep by using the method, counting rachels, she said its effective, well, we'll see ;D

Goodnight!!

Oh ya! I got a new phone again. Please remember to update me your number cause I lost all my contacts, again.

Conclusion for the week -
1) Exercises/trainings : Checked!
2) Eat good food : Checked!
3) Had fun : Checked!
4) Good week? - Yes, got a silver swimming medal and am a 21.1k medalist! Though it was like 2 hours 48mins when I completed it HEHE!!

Have you ever felt like the wind, i mean faster than the wind.

An interesting day to begin with..

it began with, no breakfast. What the fuck?

then followed up with no daily income O_O!!!

and then its 3 hours to work when I work up!

Its 1pm!!

Bathe, talk cock with msn friends, played a round of dota and... zzz its 3pm?
Time flies or..

Ok, had a great time at work, met few familiar faces, and yea, accomplished the " Art of closing a counter ".
Balance showed $0.00.
Sia lah, I think im damn pro lah O_O!

Then saw a dwarf at some lanshop in bukit timah after work, couldn't find her 6 friends and now im home, preparing for the race thats inc in 5 hours time.

Regeneration time~
-out-

P.S. I ran home, and it fucking feels good, when you feel that you've reached another level, in running. When you feel that you're pumped up and can run faster than usual and sustain longer.

holy shit~ ;)

I hate that feeling..

Bad and good news.
Figure it out yourself.

2 years ago, I felt that im a broken puzzle.
I fit the pieces back slowly, then I regained my self confidence and such.
Had a bump on my finger that reminds me of that cruel past.

Today, I feel like a vase thrown down from a 20th storey building.
Broken once again. Someone, something just repeat what happened.

I really didn't want to do it, but just had to pour kerosene onto that flame that was almost gone.
Seriously, they wont even give a fuck about you even if you cried so loud that the calm sea turns into a raging storm.

Once again, I let go off a friend I fucking cherished so much, for years.
To ms.G :
If you ever come to me blog , ever.
I wanna say..
yes, I have a reason, if you remembered the stories I told you before.

May time heal.

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Anyways, my 50m freestyle sprint improved!
by 2 seconds summore!!
Unbelievable! Really!

So for the relay swimming, we got second!
For solo swimming, ok I got 4th, but it was good, to me. 31 seconds!

Silver medal for the win~
beats last year's 2 bronze medals.

Gotta sleep, have to train hard tmr :D

And to part 2, currently 1045pm.

Home sweet home...
Time to lock and load, for gaming!

I tried being a solo cashier for 20mins max, today. :D

Yay on achievement.

Please don't laugh at me if I attend to you whenever you come by.

Rest well!

Wonder when will I meet a difficult customer, hmmmmm...

Alive and kicking .. still!

The week after this, I predict I will fall sick with fever/cough/cold and near the funeral state.

kk, choy!!!!!!!
Touchwood 20 times.

Its 1 hour before work!! Which means I've to go out soon.
Think there'll be a second part to this blog later on at night.

so, stay tuned alright?

*packs afew clothes and buns, tie it up with a piece of cloth, hook it with a stick*
Aye, I'm ready to work.

Enjoy ur day fellas.

Sweet Child O' Mine

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me
of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

~~~~~~~~~

Great song by guns n roses. Loved it again as my shuffle play brought me to it.
DL, buy the disc, get the song from friend.. just get it. Its a beautiful song.

First day of work was fun. Met many pple and some familiar faces.
Hot babes were seen everywhere. I just knew it, I chose the right place to work, feast to ma eyes and so near home. Accessibility to anywhere is so convenient :D

Oh ya, next sunday 21km standard chartered. Confirm mati, please keep me in your prayers that I won't collapse halfway hehehe :)

Off to bed, "sleep" is calling out fer me.

broken and pissed on

Imagine a traffic light, blinking..

16..
15..
14..
13..
12..
11..
10..
-GONE-

Andy was deadbeat after his favourite leg muscles workout, or should I say, hell training. The most avoided but satisfactory = 100% training.

His thigh muscles were cramping and can't even climb/alight stairs. The muscle ache's terrible x1000.

Then at 1/4 of the crossing, the above said happened.
Woah, He shouted/screamed,endure the pain and run as the rumbling of the motors start.

Then he made it, with severe aches as he hugs the post and catches his breathe.

TOTALLY, What the F~

Anyways, went to watch a game torney and headed home.
Tmr's gg my first work day!!
Fri's my swimming training!!
Coming Wed's my swimming compy!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL!? Coach just told me like yesterday?!
I haven't trained for months and.. compy?!?!?

I'm so gonna die.

Good Luck Have Fun man.
Crashing~

Wash my hands off you. I'm getting on with my life.

Advertorial:

Paging to all SAW fans.

Andy might get hold of the saw 4 DVD and will host a venue for pple to watch.
Anyone is invited, if rodney doesnt minds? :D

Saw is a horror/gore movie. Saw 4 is R21.
So if you hate gore stuffs, please you're obliged to not come.
But its something you musn't miss, YOU KNOW, its SAW V!!!!

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Okay, admits I'm a lil high over the movie. Well, I missed Saw III.
That sucks you know :(

Anyways, lan gaming till 5am yesterday. Had breakfast and went home to sleep.
Sorry for oversleeping, was sposed to meet my friends for bballing at 930am.

Lan gaming is so unhealthy, makes me so lethargic and thus.. i slept till 4pm today O_O?

Today's a rotting day for me. Feel like I've slacked too much. Tomorrow's gym will pump me up once again I guess.

I'm out~

Reminder:
Send me a text or something if you're interested in watching SAW. I'll give u e details. Ellis not included. :D

FUCKING FUCKED UP~

Do you believe that life will often be down and out and unlucky at certain periods.

I believe so.

Just yesterday, my brother set our port settings just to make his comp able to host his favourite DOTA game.

Ok, that affected my comp for abit. The net got abit laggy and shit and I got pissed off for abit.

He then say if dont want i reset back lor. After using the comp for so long, does he knows that after reverting back to a normal setting, the comp won't feel the same anymore. I mean thats after I used the comp for so many years, so I hate setting up unnecessary stuffs when my comp is perfectly fine and running smoothly.

Retard x 1.

THEN JUST ONLY, my mum wanted to use my comp just to print her documents cause her old pentium 3 died and her data can only be print out from my comp cause her latest one is in her vista.

OK, I lend her lah, nice guy mah.
Guess what? Now my comp auto hangs, restarts for no fucking reason and she have to spoil my mouse. Ok, maybe I'm just too sensitive, but after coming home , dread tired and bout to "die" from training, leg muscles training summore. I limped home, sweat and tired was how my body's feeling. She have to make me frustrated and fedup x1000!

She mops/sweep the house and have to knock onto my CPU while gaming when i tell her not to. Then now want to use my comp, let you use please use it with care, its very sensitive and she knows it. THEN, she have to throw out this stunt.

I really wanna swear you know, accidentally leaked afew of the 4 letter word out, infront of her and shes crying.

THAT F*CKING PISSED ME OFF.
I didn't even direct to her, its like cursing, just a remark.

And she said, I bought this comp/mouse for you. Ok, I quit the lanning life just because its unhealthy and its better to stay at home and play.

Now, she bought this comp with her/my dad's money. Then take it back lah, things want to ji jiao so much. TAKE IT BACK MAN. I DON'T USE THE COMP LAH, TOTALLY, FUCKED UP DAY to end with.

Sorry for the expletives and such.
I'm out of here, I wanna go run even with these "broken" legs.

I scream, hysterically... not

I'll swear on my first sentence in this blog.
Ok, maybe the second. SOOO~ Fucked up.

Gym IS the place that allows me release the fumes.
The place where I can really be myself.
An arena with warriors fighting to be the strongest.
The training ground where no one gives shit about ur attitude..
A place where I think freedom is and doesn't lets you roam ard freely thinking bout ur personal stuffs.

as long as you think you've achieved it when the final bout comes around.

Once you leave the battle realm
The outside world..

is filled with, people whom like their "face" so much.
pride and honor of giving other pple their very first impression..
So it cannot be ruined.

People whom fight to protect emself [ yea thats true, but one gets over selfish and.. ]
People whom only wants things their way [ never give a thought about others ]
People whom thinks everyone is under them [ too overconfident with their stuffs/looks/fame ]

and they tend to treat the weaker like piss.

I just wanna go to the gym now man. :\
Seriously that small room is considered paradise to me even if theres pain.

Fucked up, once again.

Left or right? or just sit here and settle?

Been a farming week and the benefits will come soon.
Partner the monsterous coach for training.
He's a pervert, yes he is.

why?

Because he does weights that're so heavy and he keep training the same muscle section and what did I get.

I got a sore body.
Skipped the monday exercise so I didn't get to train the upperbody chest nor biceps and shoulders.

But I did the legs, abdomen, back and tricep training.
This wednesday, after the leg exercises, I took a bus home and sat there not moving for 15mins.
Reached my stop, I press the bell, and my legs refused to stand up. I insisted and the cramps came. So 18 years old andy become 80 years old. He had to limp home and grab onto the poles as he walk/got out of the bus. I even spammed the bell so the bus uncle will wait for me. How pathetic >

Then yesterday, was the back and triceps. Now I can't fidget like I always do. It hurts to even stretch :(

Thus, now im handicap, kind of handicap from legs to shoulders.

Oh wells, I'll just pend for the benefits :D

Oh ya , yay I have saw 4 CD. uh oh, its R21 and I can watch! *winks*
Interested members please call my handphone and beg me, PLEASE~

Off to jog ;)

Did you ever wonder?

Everytime you see scenes or replays of people who're dying.
Normally that unlucky guy would just get mocked for his stupidity and say he deserved it.

But at the last moment, when he steps onto that chair and prepares to get hanged to death..

..he smiles..

why?

I started thinking bout this when I was day-dreaming.
IS it because he finally realises his mistake and thinks that death is the only way to atone for his mistakes.

OR, just that he shouldn't die, ugly-ly?

MMM, maybe he saw a illusion, aka a angel and the angel's hand reaching out to bring him to heaven as they always say if u repent, you're forgiven..

OR[again], He found out how corrupted the world can be, giving verdicts and forcing a death just to give the county/town/country a reply so everything can once be normal and people will still think the government is upholding justice as they always are. [as he smiles and wants to die earlier cause hes disgusted by the world's way of upholding justice]

I'm f*cking random I know. I just thought...

Aiya! I go watch t.v. lah.

Would you change, or stay the same?

Remember the times when you're a kid, you get anything and everything you want.
You're like the king and everyone have to bow and accomodate to your wishes.

Never did you know that as you grow, you lose that " power " you have within you.

Everytime you level up, you pick up more responsibility.
Instead of gaining new powers.

One then start to pick on new challenges, new courses that would eat up afew years of your life.
Whether you accomplish it or fail, its up to your hardwork and effort and of course, that bit of luck..
Setbacks then come as they block ur way to success. You never know when they arrive.

When they do, they entrap you and give you negative thoughts and such.

So, would u think positive and work hard once again after a failure.
Or decide to drown urself with liquor and let ur life waste away.

Do you wanna face the world as a loser..

or

One that people knows worldwide when one says a keyword that links to your profession?
You know you know, fame.

Today onwards, I aim to be a better man.
Just can't stay the same.

Do you prefer the light, or the dark and stuffy?

When was the lasttime I felt like winning so much that I have this great hatred for losing.
It's november the 3rd. A day when I lost again. My next big competition would be Inter-ITE/IVP swimming competition. I wanna be the champion for once. Not just a champion. A champion that would should that particular association, that I'm not just a sucker at that sport, I'm someone you have to put in all ur damn fighting spirit and cow strength to defeat me. How I wish that would come true. hmmmm... i wonder...

I ran, ard the whole dark and ulu and eerie ngee ann. [ard 8plus going 9, jogging btw]
K lah, at such moments , OFTEN-LY, my stupid brain starts imaginating. So you know what i'm thinking of.

Sprint for 5mins I think, could be lesser. All I could hear was my heavy breathing and hoping nothing's following behind me.

OK, stupid andy and his imaginations. Had dinner at al ameen at 1030pm. Zhihao was kinda on time this time. Congratulate?

Oh ya, why is my pathetic injuries acting up again. Keeps aching non stop. Wonder what will happen to my knee if I run the 21km. Lets pray nothing happens ok? hehe.

Hmm, thats about it at the moment.

I don't know how to end this blog man
Goodnight i guess!!

p.s. MCR concert for the win! :D

Want to buy more luck.

Why are there such people in the world?
Just to win, they give you that kinda attitude and spit at you.

Got fourth placing just now at the heats.
First was 1mins 39seconds.
2nd's the Assh*les that spit on us at 1min 40.93seconds i think
3rd's at ard 1min 41.22seconds.
4th's us at 1min 41.75seconds.

This is bullshit you know?!
We banged onto second placing , seahawk's boat.
This time wasn't like the previous rounds. We whacked em, we're so close yet. Zzzz

Thats my final dragonboat race. Its over though.

Was a great accomplishment, though I didn't accomplish much? haha.

Anyways, grats andy to freedom. Now its time to get a job and move on with another chapter of life.
Besides, I may continue dragonboat. Just to keep fit and maybe join competition as a club member. Hehe.

Life's unpredictable, ain't it? :D
Just hope things will come true the way I predict it!

Supper in 6 hours. gone~