WAH WAH WAH!! SUDDENLY GOT THIS SHOW AGAIN!! OMG OMG!!!!!!

I loved this show since I was young man. I like the 'xiao feng' ALSO. AND AND THE MONK!

This show started my taste for all the wad 'sect' lah, 'xiang long si ba zhang'. What wudang pai lah, shaolin temple lah. SIA LAH, I love this show!! O_O

AND AND, just only, my brother asked me about bleach. Cause today the manga come out mah.

The conversation went like this..

Andy - Inoue die.

Aaron - HUH then.

Andy - Ishida also die.

Aaron - the hollow ichigo kill one ah!?

Andy - Ya. Then mitsubishi come out. ( he bathing )

Aaron - HUH?

Andy - ya, mitsubishi come out.

Aaron - Orh.

( not convinced he tio busted enough )

Andy - ya then suzuki also come help

Aaron - ya, then rollsroyce also come right.

( I burst out into laughter after that LOLOLOLOL )

I couldn't think of any japanese name all of a sudden so I used japanese car brands name, hoping to fool him LOLOLOL! FAIL~~~~~~~

Hilarious, kk back to my drama, D.I.E !! Sonija kwok, is pretty pretty pretty hot hot hot! O_O!

... 8 9 10 .. PUNT ZEK AH! TIRED LIKE COCK AH!!!~

A movie made from a manga, detriot metal city. I'm not gonna spoil it so..

It's about a guy whom wants to be a trendy pop singer and ends up being the world's best death metal singer. The show's great. Nice storyline, good actors.

BUT THE SAD THING IS , to deathnote fans, ur damn cool 'L', ryuzaki or something, is this show's sissy O_O. With a cool side tho! HAHA.

Damn lucky ah, so sissy still got such a pretty girl like him at first sight O_O

HAHA ' show only lah '. Anws, ' NO MUSIC, NO DREAM ' \m/!

Sometimes, if my life's like that, full of laughter and stupidity, lame and crap, would really be much better off than worrying this and that. Worrying bout people I'll lose, people that really care for me, and people that say ' I'll treat u the same way u treat me ' and they end up treating u like a spare .. tyre.

And so heng, today i met teacher-sandy wong, sec sch friend-minhui, primary school head prefect/chiobu-diane. lucky or wad!

hmmmm.. oh wells, tmr sea training, 8 9 10 AH!!!!

PART 2 OF TODAY, KEKEKEKEKEKEX!!!

I DONT WANT GAMBLE ALREADY, NEHNEHPOK, LOSE LIKE COCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!

Haha guess I've to ltbc :D

I've always thought, to love one, is to give your all to her and then she'll be happy.

I have never thought bout the opposite party feelings.

I know its really stupid to not realise, actually, to love the other, just seeing her happy would be more than enough. To be with her, is a bonus.



Anyways, HEHE MAHJONG TIME KEKEKEKEKEEXXXX

FROM..

Leila Tong to..
Kate Tsui to..
Linda Chung to..
Bernice Liu to..
Fala Chen to..
Tavia Yeung to ..
Ella Koon to..
Niki Chow to..
Shirley Yeung to..
Sonija Kwok to..
Myolie Wu to..
Vivien Yeo.

ALL is hot x 325234236532623

Either one become my girlfriend also good sia~ LOL :X

lemme tell u a story young folks..

1) I'm suffering but getting better.
2) I like jaguars
3) I like eagles
4) I like thresher shark
5) I like blue
5) I like NUH hot nurses :X
6) I like to be random :D

operation means wad?
means take knife, cut cut my leg only, CUT CUT ONLY~~

I'm so not supposed to type this, but well, its for my own recollection afterall.

To my dear friend,

Remember once you told me,
'I think after dragonboat and ITE life we won't be friends anymore already'
Remember we 3 always gether eat sushi, play lan, dragonboating.
Remember my irritating ' nickelback - rockstar ' sms ringtone?
Remember your singing.
Remember the first day you told me bout ITE simei's dragonboat trainings,
And remember I came to you when you and him wanted to go join soccer, to pull you to stay in the team.

But after it appear, conflicts between us just appear and now, I think your sentence.. came true.

'I think after dragonboat and ITE life, we won't be friends anymore already'
well...

To me,
Romance means..
To go beyond the boundaries..
To do something for that special someone..
And make her happy.

ANY OBJECTIONS?! HAHA

when setbacks hit u real hard.
when the badluck rolls continuously in your everyday life.

either you stand up and fight back, find another route to achieve back your ' calm waves '.
or you withstand the 'attacks' and wait for things to change for the better.

okay, diahorrea.
-gone-

well done, 's better than well said

a clear heart and mind, allows a better vision and correct judgement.

Alright, to the hospital to get my appointment and get crippled temporary, gogogo!

/edit

Operation here i come!!

Poker is really damn fun. Especially when you use all ur emotions to trick the person.
And especially when MY emotions are so fake HEHE :X

okay, time for checklist :
1) Bathed, check.
2) Cool down already, check.
3) Tired, check.
4) Still craving for poker, check.
5) Tired??!?!? , double check.

K nights, I have night shift tmr, better rest well :D!

Today wasn't an attempt.
Today is referring to 11/2/09.
Today is referring to 930pm - 1030pm
Today I tried to fulfill my final wish.
Today that lil wish is fulfilled.
Today I should be contented.
Today I walk off with no hesitation, but alot of regrets.
Today I think I did the right thing.
Today might be the lasttime I get to see you.

cause..

After today, I don't know when will I be able to go to that mall, stand and wait, ride the same bus, walk till that usual spot with you anymore.

So today, I think, I am contented to a certain extent.
And may that contented feeling stay perm so I won't be so hardup like an addict without his drugs.

Today, is over. Face it, tomorrow's gonna be a harsh day and so will the rest of the days be, getting harder as it goes by, level difficulty increases as you grow and gain more experience. Obstacles harder to cross, setbacks harder to overcome.

Soldier, GOGOGO!

Yes, thats the ACL, the most important ligament in the knee.
And yes again, mine's torn..zzz



And so 's my meniscus, wasted already.
Fuck sia, I really felt damn depressed, why tear sia zzzzzz
Lasttime chiong so hard also never tear, must tear because of snatching one stupid rebound.

The doctor looked at the screen, and cancelled partially, and told me its completely torn.
Sigh, after my mom sign the papers next week, im going for operation. I still wanna chiong my life summore, and without the operation, in 5 years time my knee will become like a 50 year old man's knee.

The really sad thing is, I won't be able to walk for a period again, as in freely.
Wont be able to take driving cause leg no power to step? HAHA! Okay, im just trying to cheer myself up.
Can't row dragonboat again. FAT LIAO LAH NABEI!~
Cannot do evening jogs and I really wanted to plan night cycle with my clique one, now cannot again. Turban :/

Do you know how impt this pair of legs are to me!
Fuck!

I feel, that im like, stucked in this bloody tornado.
Don't know how to get out.
Don't know my next move.
Dont' know whether if i should choose this or that.
Don't know what is the right choice.
Don't know if I should know or don't know.

Bloody tornado.

start getting used to..

independence
solo lifestyle

because..

I've to be outta spore for 4yrs :) high chance atm.

For the mahjong lovers. You know what kinda 'win' is this yeah?

It's the damn hard, 13 yao

And I did it. holy shit, I zhi mo almost half of it at the early stage of the game.
Super high, until now 5am, I just come home, still high LOLOL!
damn lucky OR WAD

I swear to you, my heart beat like crazy everytime i pick a new tile.

Kk, must sleep, tmr got outing. Nights! :D

Engineering or Law

HCNY btw :)

[Edit]
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Even my dad says so, the CNY atmosphere just isn't there anymore.
it just seems so dull somehow.

hmmm

Final Fantasy VIII Squall Leonheart
Cool huh :D [ just being random ]

I need just a lil boost to my confidence to continue my route
because I am not giving up but im just too tired.
I have a mixture of..
1) I dont want to care anymore.
2) But I still am partially worried.
3) Still wanna show my concern.
4) And still gonna harden myself like metapod
5) But always fail to do so.
Save me yo. I'm drowning in this pool of, emotions.

Mest - Drawing Board

I can recall only this one time
This kind of control the girl had on my mind
I've fallen deep, I can't get out
I've never acted this way before

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but she won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before

Feeling alone, and she's on my mind
Try to erase all the pain from that time
She's breaking up, and I'm breakin down
Now I'm headed out of this fucked up town

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but the band won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before in your head

So love me, so I can be myself again
Now hate me, so things seem normal in my head
I'm trying to break away this ball and chain
So hate me, so things seem normal in my head
Things seem normal in my head

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but she won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before

In your head
I am dead

next chapter of life. gogogounder that shimmering light
that angelic look you have
melts my heart and weaken the legs
despite whatsoever movement you do
have a grace within somehow
I tried to reach out, but you were always drifting further
to something else
things are too early to say
you may turn back
or go and never come back

'like letting go my favourite golden arrowana into sungei buloh [ OKAY UNWANTED PHRASE ]'

I'm utterly cornered right now.
My career wise, I have no base and I need to work hard to get somewhere.
Money 's seriously very impt, but how.
I need to plan out my route, to carve out that success route of mine.
stress you know, with my colour deficency and my machine gun mouth which talks alot of logic, I have 2 routes to choose. HMM HMM!!

anws, i've passed out. hurray. hehe
and my flame for you still's burning, so too bad :P

like the sun moon and stars, watching over you unconditionally.

Life route's rather bumpy and rocky recently.
Guess I'd need to becareful bout the choices I make hmm.

Well I've to go for CNY shopping.
Just updating, Thursday's my POPO!!
Hahaha!! Hurray :) Finally out of camp!

And I am still here, pending and watching out, for you.

dishonesty

my x-ray eyes.
my interrogation techniques.
my own instincts.
my sense of security.

tells me that you're truthful.
doubting you, was the stupidest mistake ever.

UNWANTED POST

If I hadn't appear in your life, would you be much happier?
If I hadn't do stunts in your life, would you be better off living an easy life with none of my stupid suprises.
If I hadn't come and pick you up after whatever you have, will you 'breathe' easier?
If I hadn't told you I love you, would you treat me as a fool all the way.
If I didnt attend the blind dates, would you ask me out at all.
If I always give in to him, would you want it that way?
If I throw away my pride just for you, will you even care?

I wouldn't even give a f to try so hard, regardless on expletives, money expenditure, prioritise free time for you, if i didn't even cherish/treasure you.

All I get is, ' at least I met you for dinner today '.
Then you're off with someone whom doesn't cherish you until he lost you. Because.. nvm.

If I walk away, will you even, least try to hold me because I've somehow rooted some importance into you.

or would you just don't care and walk off with him tonight..

Labels : IFs brings you a million routes.

Follow the wind, run it through your mind, all the regrets, be satisfied and move on, unravelling ur life's next chapter. Go.

Good life starts only when you stop wanting a better one.

and my good life starts with you, how bout you?

Confidence, 's something I never lacked of.
But the words that you show, the meaning unrevealed, the overwhelming insecurity, 's like someone delivering a blow right at my heart. That pain of confusion, lost.

am I even important to you to start off with.

Labels : Your priority.

this picture, speaks a thousand words, really.

highest row : Alvin [ dota allstar O_O! ], xiaolong [ the waiter ], john [ ljkk hehe ], andy [ cock fella cum asshole hehe ], jason [ strongest pacer ], ahseng [ rich man ], should be jackson [ panther ], jasper [ power pac ah! ], kokann [ another piston man ], angda [ pretty boy rofl! ], lech [ no link fella ], zhenwei [ super cock fella cum living ghost haha! ].

on the chairs : ah ben [ fbt sexy! haha! ], benjamin [ hmm ? ], dama [ malay girl! ], joy [ chinese girl ,duh! ], weihao [ sighh ], yan an, [ mushroomman/paul ], sean [ SAAA! ], desmond [ no comments totally ], some malay guy.

on the floor yo! : buay [ injured leg man ], pk [ garang boyboy ], ronald [ respectable captain yo! ], enrique [ another, respectable vice captain].

haha all that time..

but yea, look forward.

Labels : memories.

be calm, like the sea and the wind or the drizzle.

like the occasional high tide, the strong winds howling, that heavy droplets splattering on you.
even a combination which makes up a storm.
that leaves you cold, drenched and makes you..

pissed off and clouds your thoughts and judgements.

you're 19 already and you're gonna spend 2 years working. Your work 'll be like a war, the same old things/scenes/routes, but changes in the scenario everyday.
one minute you thought you're safe, the next minute you might just lose your life.

be calm, know what you need to do, protect yourself, following up protect your friends and love one.

no more reckless moves, no more hot headed shit.
wake up from that 'trance' state if u ever get provoked into it, in the shortest time possible.
and make the right move.

Labels : be calm :)

its yet another, hohoho. ;)

christmas eve's .. er.. kinda fulfilling hahaha :X:X. Though camp lifestyle made me 'blackout' while mahjonging. I just collapse on the floor after the game at 3am hahaha.

Anws I'm gonna stress on how stressful I'm gonna get tomorrow.

100++ questions test in 2 hours.

going back to camp tonight and getting out tomorrow. WTH WTH WTH!
serious, like waste time, but haha, 'graduation day' 's coming soon.

I shall state my new year 'want to do' now before I forget!

2009 I wanna..

1)have a healed right knee! so I can chiong once again.
2)be safe cause the on the ground its never safe.
3)learn piano/harmonica [ instruments ]
4)learn sculling/boating aka boat license and drive one/excel in dragonboat/learn martial arts hahaha! [ seasports/sports ]
5)learn my japanese and germanese?!?! [ languages ]
6)hurry up get a car license and drive so i no need to always taxi! :/ [ transport ]
7)be more knowledgeable in interior design so I can help dad decorate the 2 new houses. [ sophisticated ]
8)try out ice skiing/scuba diving/bungee/sky diving if chance exists [ external ]
9)play starcraft 2 and buy all of blizzard's story books/rave books also [ collection/interest ]
10)something that fits into that circuit board ;)

My resolution would be :

I will be more discipline.
I will try to cut down on my rash acts.
I will be less stubborn.
I will not anyhow spend money anymore.
I will scold less vuglarities [ SUMPA ]
I will not be so reckless in sports.
I will try to get closer to my family/godfamily.
I will maybe become less much of a cockster. okay okay, know when to be one.
I will once again, want smooth sailing in my life.

Okay, STUDY TIME, ACCUPUNTURE LATER.

Labels : christmas/new year in adv.

that garden of flowers, which continues, beyond sight.

They said, when there're so many varities, rare, attractive flowers.
Why must u die die stick to one particular S.F.

Then he say, because special mah.
They say, how special, there're like so many other, even more beautifully blossomed S.F.

Then he say, when you like it at first sight, you find that only one particular and special.
Would you give it up even if something more attractive gets to your sight.

He continued, of course not!

Labels: flowers :X

Just for laughs. but really, somehow, its over :D

all the times we've been together, just perished after a person's doings.

Labels : Be crazy, Be yourself :D

you topple and broke my glass, yet you fix it back standing.

It felt like a quarrel.
Then both chatter and laugh through the verbal convo.
It felt like 'Once in a lifetime'
Swear that 'esctatic' was what I felt, those upsetting moments were just washed away.
the drive revives, yet again..
then it all just went back to normal the moment you open ur eyes the next day.
Confused state of mind.
Always there still,for now.
I had 5 words in my mind when I reminsce your words,
Not that I don't know what I want. Vice Versa.
'you're still pending something somehow.'
maybe you're still uncertain, and time will tell? somehow?
Sometimes I feel really tired, I wanna just throw all this 'burdens' inclusive of thoughts, aches[specific? you know what lah], responsibilities, ALL of em at the side of the pavement, sit down, relax for awhile, before carrying em and continue walking on.

Bah!

For whatever it is, my love life, my this weak knee[ HEAL FASTER YO ], my old friends that used to make me laugh whenever they crap, my future..
I just want, smooth sailing for all, not too greedy I guess? HAHA!
I SWEAR, for the firsttime, accupuncture hurts, 3 seconds of immobilization due to needle poked at nerves, somehow causes paralysis, with feelings of electric currents flowing thru your toe. Turban, I thought I was going to die :S

Okay brain dead.
Weekends, I'll see you tmr, BEDTIME, HERE I COME.

Labels : think think think!

mozart in the making.

Haha secret yo! Want to buy someone more patient with me besides my brother, he always run to dota while teaching me how to play piano. WTHHHHH!! I only have weekends to learn, HELLO!

Labels : mozart LAH!

the biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.

An accident :

A knee, twisting 360degrees back to its original position results in..

1)Victim screaming at the top of his voice.
2)Not able to move for quite a period.
3)Waiting at the hospital for 4 hours.
4)Not able to sleep well because that injured leg have to remain straight or bend, and adjusting it will hurt like crazy.
5)Cannot walk at all.
6)Have to limp and depend on crutches.
7)Its a lucky number yes, but, all in all, ' pathetic '.

Lets pray that theres no ligament injury, or the worst case scenario, just a slight, injury.
I don't wanna recourse my entire Basic Training.
I wanna be able to play basketball still.
I wanna be able to run freely still too.
I want, err.. hope/wish/etc, that ahem can visit/support me. haha :X:X

Aiyo, just faster cure lah, mr.rightknee.

Labels: broken knee

when you put out the campfire.

You know its finally and end to all the bondings and everything.
You know that tomorrow will be the day you've finally completed this phase and its time to grow up.
You want these people around you to still be with you and hold onto each other, hoping that they will still be ur friends till you grow old, because they are people whom lived with u, gone through obstacles together, work together, and get punished together for a whole 3months 3 weeks.
But you know, you're a man, and you've to carve out something from your life first, create a family, and then protect em.
These friends will be there, if they're fated to be your friends, like someone you need to rely on or someone that needs you to enlighten to 'grow up'. But heck the future for now, all you want now, is to cherish every moment with em, the remaining 33 days with em, and make a memory to pass out together, as a squad that one will always remember, a group of monkeys/rowdy buggers that one will miss whenever they think bout their NS life, a bonding that's so priceless that one will inscript it and treasure it,deep in his heart, forever.

Lets work hard together, LIMA BULOH!
And damn, i will miss you a hella. sumpa.
Labels : parting is hard, just look ahead young, andy.

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times.. always with the same person. Dinner at bla bla black sheep yesterday to celebrate mr's.. okay.. celebrate sounds wrong, to send mr off to NS. Hope he'll have fun inside lolol.
'HOMEMADE BEEF BURGER', trust me, the burger is bigger than carls junior and mc's mega mac. Super big lah, I gorge on a mc'chicken, that, soft shell crabs, lotsa water, drumlets and I produced something liquified. Super bloated, you can't blame me for eating so much though. The place I am in for weekdays doesn't provide food that palatable.

Oh, while I was on my way, haha, I see this lovey-dovey old couple play ping pong with each other, laughing as they play. Don't you find it, like.. very, cute? Maybe its the wrong word to use but, I find it really rare to see couples still spending time together doing what they like. Imagine nexttime I old already, I rent 1 dragonboat with my partner and we park near the marine barrage and enjoy the atmosphere. Not sure whether if sunset could be seen though. haha, but all in all, this old couple really makes me envy, somehow.

Oh and this really outdated picture. Raffles hotel birthday function. ROFL, mask galore. That place is filled with hotbabes, branded stuffs, cool cars. Quite an experience. Even sitting down infront of the toilet waiting for my friends also got damn cool encounter. HAHAHA :X
Would you cherish someone that does anything for you without complaining, maybe complains abit but still, will you? I will.

Labels : life.

that aftermath
[edit]
[start]
Once upon a time, there stayed a family of 3 with a rascal whom hammers nails into his house's fence whenever he felt unhappy.
He nailed every single fence around his house's perimeter.
And one day his dad found out about his son's doings and taught him a verbal lesson. He stood infront of his dad and listened to the 'chantings' and finally his tolerance cut off. He shouted at his dad, telling him if he removed the nails, everything would be undone already right?!

His dad gave his son the hammer and told him to remove every single nail.
When all is done, he could see the fences with wood splint protruding out, ugly holes throughout the entire perimeter.

Dad said, you see what you've done, for your own selfishness, to ease yourself, without looking at the bigger picture, you destroyed our family's fence.
Let this be a lesson learnt dear son, think before you move.
[end]

rashness brings in the misunderstandings because the truth 's not revealed.
so nexttime pend,plan before you ignite. Whats done cannot be undone, even if it could be, a 'scar' would be inscripted there forever.
I dont mind my stupid acts, as long as my conscience is clear.
Labels : rashness/after-effect.

burn you inferior creep, quit the negative thoughts.

not wanting to be secondary to one.
not walking the 'alley' but able to get to one directly.
not suprised that one day one 'll be tired to even bother saying sorry.
I hate it when mummy hurries me to choose my overseas university. because I can give that up for a special someone.
why am i getting so hard up
but the shit thing, is I have only until next year mid year and I have to make my choice. fuck.
labels : i think its, jealousy.

a true man
even if hes the abandoned,
can endure the 'burn' and walk away holding his head high to..

and..
nextweek, the most hectic week for me, especially that test.
bless me to have the courage and make my mark.

Your flame glows and flickers.

You pend and wait.
You yearn to see.
You want to know.
You know you do not have the standing.
Yet you perservere on.
You don't know if what you're doing is stupid to others.
You only know its something that you feel towards to and want to have.
You just want to see the smile.
But yet another side of you wants something more.
You feel that its kind of impossible.
But you know you can change it and make a difference.
Because even a % near to 0.001, you'll go for it.

So..

You know that the chances are low.
You know you have to give it a go.
You know determination and perserverance will lead you somewhere.
But not to expect too much.
Because you know life's a bet and things are unpredictable
You just want honesty from her.
So you know when to let go, or when to see her smile at you, and you back at her.
And you know, whatever the outcome, you can take it.
Because the truth is something you rather listen to.
And you want to see the smile always

Even if your mind is exhausted.
Even if your knee wants to give up and rest.

You know whats worth to do and whats not.
Go, toughest one.
I know I'm utterly greedy, but, i just miss you abit too much i guess.
Labels : you and your thoughts.

when theres no light at the end of the tunnel.

[ Edit post ]

sometimes, you just feel very uneasy. you want to get it off ur head but it just lingers there. you look at it in a different manner but people of the same species tells you that you're utterly stupid with their reason that holds a higher stand somehow. then you start to get confused.

and sometimes thinking so much really just makes life less enjoyable.

but then again, you still dont feel right, somehow. but afterall, tho sometimes you care bout how others look at you, you just know whatever you're doing is right even if it seems stupid.

and.. its the trust that keeps me hanging on.

labels : wrong. [ okay maybe theres still a dim light at the end of the tunnel ]

Speak the truth, but leave immediately after.

So, my colourblind didn't pull me down on my final judgement. At least I'll get something that I want. Someone I can be, to test my leadership, Go andy, know the damn finishing point, and sprint ;D

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Even tho it seems like some of em have grown up. But words of manipulation just never fails to arouse em. Maybe getting used to those, high end phrases of a sly, you just can't resist the temptation to get hypnotised.

Everytime I see em like that, and even he say don't care, I still can't forget all that me and some 've been through to work this whole thing up and just taken away by one. Maybe thats the real world out that and I've to face it I guess.

Alright, saturday, early morning, time starts to tick away. Woots my father say he buy Iphone then he dont like so.. its mine O_O. Damn wth. hahahahaha!
Your ' dasical bout something ' smile.
Labels : type type type, damn a chore for both brains and fingers.

Character is what you have left when you've lost everything you can lose

I see negative attitudes.
Sigh sometimes things just aren't in your control.

Anyways,
I'm proud to have done my very best this race. It's like I can feel that intensity and that willingness to win within me. To fight like a warrior that never gives up. Definitely proud.

But guess what, we didn't win, which to me isnt such a sad thing anymore hahaha.
Mama said, treat every lost, as a learning experience.

But..
I f***ing screwed up the coxing.
I somehow blame the rudder for being tied too low and cannot be adjusted.
but then again I keep telling myself, if I'm good, then whatever situation, I can excel.

Seahawk leading, still leading seahawk, seahawks leads.. and the last 30metres I have to go off course and made em come in 3rd in the semis not qualifying for the grand nor minor finals.

People say, aiya whats done is done.
People say, you were quite daring to even go down and coxs even its ur first time and regatta arena's kinda hard to cox, many people go off course you know?
People say, learning experience lah, I support you still.

Andy say, ya bullshit, I blame it on my own inferior skills.
*scroll cursor over*
*highlights myself*
*press 'delete'*
*open recycle bin*
*click myself*
*press 'delete'*
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even the untidy you look pretty when you smile, i swear cause it never fails to make my day
Labels : Learnings.

just drive it out, beyond the limits.

..and thats what I'm gonna do tmr. I swear, I'll row till I break and head back to camp and sleep like a log.

Today's attempt was kinda, good, from what I see. My standard still maintained haha :D

My coach enlighten me with lotsa things. [ which i ain't gonna type cause I'm starving ]

My instructor scold me and tell me bout how weak I am and how am I gonna protect the people around me nexttime.

My teammates on the boat keep shouting for drives and push and I always wish I was just abit stronger and be the pillar to support em.

And things are gonna be different tmr.
Many many things will change and I hate to see it but, life's like this. You reap what you sow. So goodluck..

Anyways I think I damn smart, I look downwards and walk, and in the end, I knock my toes onto this protruding metal piece. Turban, now my left foot damn damn pain. Then just I tried to like.. tiptoe with my right foot, then like the bone shifted or something, now the ankle feels, not right, even [ 'clenching'<-- I really dont know what word to use ] my toes got this slight pain.

Oh wells, maybe its nothing, just suddenly pain only. To dinner. I am damn hungry!

For tomorrow, for you, all out. lets go andy.

Labels : I dunno lah, labels are damn troublesome. hahaha.

reads, and laugh at my past deeds

First of all, say bye to 39degrees fever.
I survived afterall, it was a torture though.

Had to sit at the clinic for nearly an hour half, and trust me, that throbbing headache, that pain wasn't nice to endure at all.
I'd rather trade 1000 pushups for that pain, really.

next, to highlight my nick.
I read this sentence from somewhere, " shouted damn loud, infront of everyone, saying : because I love you ".

Damn, doesn't this scene reminds you of things which I had experienced.
Super drama, but yes, memories just pour back the minute I read that sentence, but then, hahahahahahahaha, I never expected people would do the same thing huh! HAHAHA.

Guess I've to write this down even though that period was a sad one. 20 years down the road, I might just view back my previous posts and .. laugh at .. how drama I was. Who knows, I might even be more drama then. This scene, a chilly night, people were walking thru and forth, it was on the roadside, around 20 steps away from a busstop near amk hub. I shouted all these at her, not giving a shit bout anyone around me.

But things just weren't solve and we ended up in this plight.

HEYO, I'm not getting emo or whatsoever, infact im smiling while typing out all of these. I just wanna remember all of these stuffs. They're pages that fills up the chapter of my life. They're, priceless infact. Sometimes, losing something, just makes you learn, the importance, the level of cherish you input, growth in maturity, and some other stuffs.

Alright, I've just recovered, but not giving a damn bout my health, this week, I doubt I'll give a damn bout anything, JUST LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST YO~!

Basketball gogogo!

Don't you want her to concern for you, don't you want her to be like herself, her fun attitude when shes with you. Don't you.

Labels : sick/memories.

I love the tann, but I hate the sunburns.

Yes, thats mutant andy, hahaha so if you still dont know how the f*** I'm looking atm, you can thank miss mak for threatening me with chopsticks in a restaurant and making me look so.. cute.

Haha, today's masters 's kinda cock, but at least i let my team feel back the feeling during competition, that intensity and how fierce the other teams are.

And I'm having sunburns and nothing much to say, so I think I should stop here and do something I wanna do atm :D

REGATTA here I come, please work hard man alumni, you guys just lack the heart and will to win sometimes :\

Takecare fellas.

Labels : write-for-fun.

a little nonsense now and then, is relished by the wisest man.

Alright, this week is a killer week for me. I've been training really hard until i gained 2-4kg. Happy lor, people all say I slim down and stuffs then my muscle abit more obvious, but.. now its not that way hahaha!

Guess hardwork really paid off huh.
When I zoom into the future for abit, I guess I'll really miss NS50 somehow. All the shit attitude/faces/way of doing stuffs. The bonding and everything. It's just 2 months left, time really flies. But from there, is where I grow up to a new level.

And now i'm really having severe cramps from someone's special training. I need support when I walk down/up stairs, but downwards is so much harder :/
Then later still got basketball, mati lah, wahhh, endure ah!

thats it for now I guess, I'm going back to sleep! -10.14am-

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to buy the things she mentioned
He was dedicated by most suckers hated
That girl was fine but she didn't appreciate him
She calls him up, shes trippin on the phone now
He had to get out and he ain't coming home now
Now lets try to forget it that's how he got with her
When he first met her and when they first got together

Yes I know, it sounds like someone. haha.

Labels : just talk.

mistakes are the portals of discovery

Finally, another book out. This week felt really long even though it's only 4 days. I really lost track of time and kept thinking bout book out.

But, honestly, I'm really happy with my own performance and discipline inside.
I really self train like one cockster, alumni, you all turtles, train hard yo!

Met up with my clique for supper. Honestly, I felt really super tired already, but trust me, if you ever get your ass inside camp, your weekends are like.. SO DAMN BLOODY PRECIOUS, you just can't let em go wasted by sleeping, SO! my weekends are gonna be damn packed hehe :D

Tmr's outing with my squad mates, Wonder how fun 'll it be hehe.
Honestly, I see many weird people, meet many, have to tolerate with many, weird people. But somehow, I think we got together as a squad for a reason and my own perception would be, we need each other to build up something that we need for our future.

Okay skip that. Lets talk bout today. I'm like high on 'drugs'. Self-concocted, 'drugs'. It's made up of, family, PSP, computer, mangas, songs, friends, AT THIS HOUR.

I down a " chicken baked rice with extra chicken, rice and cheese " at 9pm, and at 11pm, I had zhichar with nick. Then some indian vomitted due to over drink, wah lan eh, I like want to puke and don't want to look at it, but turban, its one entire.. puddle? Turban, aku almost puke also, luckily I didn't breathe in that shit smell, if not you doctors will be coming to me, keeping my legendary organs as they can be used for various purposes in the future :X

Alright, think I'll need the bed, super long day tmr? :)
Andy, turn 234 , left right left. hahaha.

Labels : weekends

you look at the stars, and hope to find answers.

Sometimes don't you find it weird, intruding so much into a person's life, and claim that its out of concern and everything nice. But that person will **** you back and you'll be like, I really had no other motive besides hoping that you'll be a happy person and stay safe.

Sometimes you want to know how important you actually are to that person, yet at the same time you know you won't get any definite answer and you get vexed over it and ends up categorized as 'sensitive lah you'.

Sometimes you just hope things will go by your way but things just falls, out of place. You try so hard but end up in that really deep abyss, screaming out your lungs, clenching your fist, grit your teeth and in your mind, you're just pissed off with, " why the fuck did I lose it, why did I even attempt such a stupid one ".

I went for pool session with kengsiang/ah yao/ah ben, these are the familiar pple and 2 guys and a girl.
Okay, its been ages since I last touch the cue, and seriously, I played like cock sia. But really, they damn pro and I got owned like ASGHASDHAFAS, totally no comments on my own tard skills. Had supper together at timah's al ameen and now I'm home, on the verge of crashing really hard on the bed and have a goodnight rest.

Before that, I had sea training with e buggers. Nothing much left to say, just perfect your strokes and you're perfect I guess? HAHAHA :D PIA AH ALUMNI, dont throw aku face like away you know.

Sometimes! You wanna ask if, she is treating you nicely, because she don't want to break your heart? Or because you treat her too well and she wants to repay you back thats why shes doing it, cause her concept is, "its only fair". Other than that, you're always secondary to her priorities cause you're really a nobody.

Sometimes you just have too much to ask and you keep yakking on non stop, and thinking non stop, clouding all of your clear/straightforward thoughts, and sometimes, when you ask a certain kind of question, just a " yes, I do " from the opposite party will cure that million questions/thoughts.

will I ever succeed to fit into your realm, I wonder.

Tmr 9pm into camp again. Oh wells, I'm ready to rumble, anytime :D

P.S.
I love lorry rides, when you sit behind and feel the chill as the lorry goes 90km/h on the expressway at 1am. Seriously, the after effect, the numbness on the face and the sudden strike of warmth, really kinda sensational in some way. HAHAHA

Labels : thoughts

Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It's just like Déjà Vu
Me standin' here with you
So I'll be holdin'my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when I find the one that I spend forever with?

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can't give up!
When you're lookin' for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you're holdin' on

Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There's gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

THIS SONG LYRICS AND THE SONG ITSELF, TOTALLY DAMN NICE!!!!!!! :D [ BERENICE MAI HAOLIAN THANKS ]

any fool can make a rule, and any fool will mind it

Man, i miss my god damn hair. Yesterday I talked non stop for an hour plus, while eating, I rather keep talking than care whether my food gets cold. And thats for a firsttime. Haha, normally, I'll eat till I finish before I start talking.

Yesterday I settled something that pains me till yesterday. I showed a very bad side of me. But I really need to release all the shit inside. And I guess I've done it. Getting over it may seem abit tough but.. I'll do it somehow :)

AND BERENICE YOU DONT KEEP LAUGHING WHEN I ASK THAT QUESTION, okay, joke within. HAHAHAHA!

and to make this bitch proud, she indirectly, intro-ed me Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody. Please listen to this damn song, its like DAMNNNNNNNNN nice lah bloody hell. I also repeat non stop, but i repeat for like 1 whole day, whereas she repeat only like half hour. HAHAHA.

and fkfkfkfk, yesterday got avenged sevenfold concert at singapore expo. And my bro gave me jaychou's new album, so im like.. i feel updated? so im happy? HAHAHA

Then next Funeral For A Friend's new album's also really damn nice. Nick, so much for saying I won't like one. My taste like good also one lor.

AND AND!! *catches breath* Wah, this week's manga really damn awesome, I fucking can't wait for next week's upload hahaha!

For now, I just wish to be a happy man, tmr please, I want a full boat for training. Then I sumpa I'll chiong for morning's seahawk and work super hard for alumni and train out a super team. Do me proud please alumni, you cheebyes work hard, we'll reap what we sow :D

Oh cmon, life's just a bet isn't it :D

P.S. - I realised, that I get physically hyper in the noon and close to evening, but after that, i get super hyper, my mouth gets super hyper in the night and midnight. HAHA what a weird person HUH?! Haha, later~ :)

Labels : obstacles/friends/life.

sorry .. is cheap.

I wanna blog bout my life in the police academy, but its restricted so..

All i can say, i look forward for my weekends, but at the same time, to have fun back in camp. hahahaa, life's just unpredictable :)

Bloodyhell, lead ur own life andy!

Labels : life.

the 3 person that everyone'll meet in their lives.

First, you'll meet "Loss", then further on in your path, you'll meet "Regret".
After meeting this 2 person, "Cherish" will come into your life and you'll enlighten.

It's been long since I last blogged. Felt like 2 years even though I was in camp for only like 2 weeks. Life's inside is tough but really fun. I can already feel the changes within me, about how one should react in real life from the teachings from inside.

People say its a waste of time, whereas I think I'm lucky to be born in singapore to make full use of this 2 years, to become a real person.

I suddenly have this rush within me, to write out some thoughts within me.
Like..

Be positive, I'm still young, I still have lotsa time to spend,
even though, 1 year of my life is taken away every 2nd september. So I musn't waste my life away. I'll do things to the fullest, my own way of feeling that maximum satisfactory.

Doing the same things today, with this kind of result..
does not mean that..
doing the same things tomorrow, will be the same result.

Perserverance will bring you somewhere. Somewhere you deserve to be.

OKAY CUT~

I just booked out like yesterday evening and slept till like 12pm today. I'm so not gonna waste my weekend like this man!

Tomorrow's master series/training and back into camp.
Looks like I've to enjoy today to the fullest somehow :D

First stop, basketball. -out- :)

P.s.
I really miss, my friends outside and.

Labels : thoughts/cherish/satisfactory.

but things turn out unexpectedly, in a different kind of smooth.

It's 6.09 am, like 2 hours 21mins more and I'll get my ass into police academy.
I'm like nervous x excited x curious bout this whole new chapter of my life.
People I'm gonna meet, more nonsense we're gonna talk about and bonding.

I'll start learning bout 10pm-5am, I'll start learning bout you and me, I'll bring out that, more matured me within me.

I'll learn new things and evolve I guess?

Just don't evolve till too handsome I guess? LOLOL!

KK, I swear Im nervous, joking to calm myself like, down.

So not myself, but aku gonna like adapt damn fast, then my life wouldn't be so hardup inside :D

to that most stupid yet "quite clever" idiot, I'll like HAHA you like crazy.
HAHAHAHA! Get lost. :P

Okay, time to prepare and.. time will tell. :)

Labels : National service.

to my dismay

I think today wouldn't be a happy day.
I feel like just sitting down at home and cancel the outing, god knows why.
but guess I'll just have to activate that self high within me and have a last good dinner.

Oh wells, just let things come naturally alright.

P.s.
I'll miss you damn badly, but it doesn't makes a difference I guess.

Labels : bad intuition.

When i chance upon that lamp..

I rub it so hard till it told me to say whatever I wished..

I wish..

That Me my friends and my family, will always be healthy throughout their entire life.
Open whatever swimming pool/billard room/jamming studio/painting house/DIY kitchen and whatever nonsense you want also have.
I will have a successful career and earn lotsa money for future needs.
Own a big house and have whatever animals I want and maids/servants to help me take care of my house and family. Honest ones though.
Have my very own instructors to teach me whatever I wanna learn even though the process is hard and it takes time to learn.
Have a really cool car to drive my loved one around even though I still haven't got my license yet. [ HEY I STEPPED INTO BBDC ALREADY THO ]
Have a really great smooth sailing life ahead.
Have a woman whom truly loves me and vice versa.

Side wishes? for now.

You could come by and send me to camp on my first day.
A positive reply when I ask if you haha me.
You could spend time with me often.

Haha I wish i wish i wish..

Labels : wishes.

Inordinate till you look beyond patheticIncase you're like DAMN curious about how I look with my nolongeremohair, it goes something like this. Haha I know I look freaking kiddy, or even ahbeng, but aiya, going in NS already, who cares bout your bullshit and stuffs HAHAHAHA!
I KNOW, YOU'RE ASKING, WHAT IN THE COW HELL IS THAT?! The front teeth were chipped off cause I was choking so they quickly pull it out, and this, was 1 year, 6months ago :D
Super like.. SHARK ATTACK RIGHT. Even I see already I also scare sia. Like?!?! ANDY YOU SURE UR TEETH WAS.. SO SCARY?!? or.. IS THAT.. A lion's jaw? HAHAHA
But fortunately, now, my teeth's all straight and nice! YAY! Like damn long wait lah, but finally finally. No more braces! But now people are complaining that I look cuter with braces? Like.. wth?!

And how was my day? Today, I had a really great time at sentosa, with chunyew, the roughest bball player. Trust me, he noob until he thought hes doing it right and bodyslam,chokeslam, whatever slam, just to stop you. Monster or ??

Then we have wangjie and zhenwei, master of the great wall of super big gulp. HAHAHA, they build like turban, i think got 50-70 of those icons. Super hardcore, I like, gave up and just.. sit down and watch.

Last but not least, we have kengsiang and yan an, the sandmen, they fill up the cup with sand and transfer to our.. final-product-managers. So their effort weren't in vain.

Headed down to basketball and NUS then dinner then home, then like spend 40 over bucks on cab like dont know why? HAHAHA and now my vision is shaking like mad.

Whenever I have not enough sleep, this happens, plus that stupid runny nose which isn't, here at the moment.

Wah, its really shaking like mad, I should head to bed, like.. NOW?

HAHA NIGHTS EVERYONE, today's a great day :D

P.S. If proof were like brought out, chaos would happen, and things will never be solved. But you jolly well know you did it and you know your responsibility, and your fucked up life. Go ahead and act one nothing happen, goodluck in life I must say, you need alot of that

Labels : Alumni/Sentosa/Bball/Stupid people.