Watch the mess from above, and wish to go higher and reach something.

Below, is the stuffs I created, and made a mess out of it..
Above, I want to be a champ, just for once, I wanna carve out something in life.

Something beyond a group of friends' knowing..
something that would make the world roar in honour.

I want to be something that would make everyone be proud of.

Labels : ambition.

I feel malign yet sorry.

Trust me, if you ever read this page...
I only wanted to help, and thats that.

I didn't want to gain anything, maybe I wanted something, just to see you 2 have better relationships and stuffs.

I always told you her smile could keep me up all times, just that smile.

Why would I ever bother to backstab if... if i wanted to help. fuck this shit man.

Labels : maligned.

May Santa make your wish come true~

Howdy~
This post's bout how christmas eve was spent.

<-- That's beer-replaced-with-green tea cans as you can see.

You know what?! I bought 44 bucks of unneccessary items.

Damn pissed or?
Anyways, the day started off with basketball early morning.
Then I headed home and met zhenwei rod and joseph for gym.

I didn't take down jo's "reach for the star" pose.
Really amusing pose but anws, after that, home and off to beautyworld to spend unneccesary money.

At 530pm sharp, the truck came and, holy shit~ They don't accept nets, only cash!?!!


Luckily our saviours, zhenwei, zhihao and oh jiejie came down with a lump sum of cash and we started our BBQ.

Yes, I was swearing, cause they gave 3 packs of ice, 2 packs of charcoal, utensils plates and everything needed. What the hell, really, I wasted some cash, could've done better if I gave it to charity. "jiang zhen de" aka, seriously.

Joseph and I quarrelled bout how many fire castles we should..

build, yea, build and after 3254236742352 years, as you can see from the pictures, zhenwei is trying damn hard by placing alot of fire starters close together.

Yes, reminding me, zhihao was playing with his meteorites, the burnt fire starters all the while. Made us progress damn slow lah! haha!

Zh joy and zj were slackers, trust me :P

I was photographer, so you can't blame me for not doing much.

Oh ya, we filled the whole area with smoke as you can see zhenwei using the styrofoam board spamming his god strength and fanning the pit really hard. Touched right? Yea, he made the whole pit area really stuffy only haha!
Then ken nick and yx came, the NCC boys saved e day with their uber skills.


Yes, they're uber and some are still slacking and..

Joseph's jumping ard the area like some monkey and zhenwei savouring on his BBQ sauce.

He had a quote of the day, which is "in chinese" [ We can eat good food, go swimming, and oogle at hot babes ]

HAHA! In the end, human-lookalike people came down, disappointed eh?

Signature-park's the best condo I've seen till now.

It's bbq pit's in an enclose area and , can't really describe much.

Just feel very good when you're bbq-ing in such a place :)

Thy clock hit 1130, the guardman arrives and orders to leave.

We headed to rodney's house and caught the movie, Saw 4.

True enough, its still gore/horror and stuffs but not as disgusting.

..as before. This time I think the director focused more on technology on the traps instead of the gruesome parts. Kinda boring to be truthful.

They drank, and played the game of truth or dare.
I hate being allergy to liquor. Makes me look like some slug after drinking abit. Sigh?

Had breakfast, an hour sleep, visited my grand papa, and to work.

Oh, hes my only grandpapa left in the world. He was frail, weak, dependable on machines for survival. I felt a sharp..
I mean, really sharp pain when I saw him suffering so badly.

[I was fuming at first, cause I needed to sleep and my parents were scolding me unfilial for not going to see my grandpapa. Well, I planned the bbq and stuffs and if the host were to leave, some stuffs would obv go wrong, so I got pissed off and argued]
Thinking back, he used to be so nice to me, scooping food for me to feast on, playing my favourite chinese chess game with me.

Grandma told me that he loves basketball too and played really violent those days. He bled everytime he played. Now I see him on the verge of going away, I feel, sad yet Im happy, cause he completed his life somehow, it might be a good thing to die cause I don't wanna see him suffer though I wanna be with him through one more new year, just one more chinese new year celebration.

Oh ya, the last pic's bout me jo ming and zh. We took picture with a guy with ear pieces stuffed into his ears and blasting music out from the ear piece and his mouth. Yea, hes snoring and we decided to take photo with him!! HAHA!

Hilarious, much fun indeed.

Ok, I'm dead beat and I've to hibernate. Restoring energy for a better day tmr. Good bye folks ;)

Labels : death/life, christmas eve celebration, friends.

I blame people who invent gates/doors and etc.

why?
Because, after you gulp down 2 litres of fresh milk and a 300ml nutrisoy, the tummyache activates and it the "WASTE" forces its way out.

HAHA. Yes, I made it to the toilet bowl and you know, it felt like paradise.

3 days to christmas eve. and my planning somehow cropped up.
It sucks and now I'm so busy with stuffs and yea, stuffs.

Anyways, gym is so core atm that I'm like going to sleep right now, so, goodnight too all!

Will you still eat mai dang lao with me in the morning?!
Forever and ever, babe?

LOL, I completed a 6 months homework in 2days?!
I tested all my work infront of the teacher and everything was successful?!

Some pawnage or

Then then!! I saw the god damn SEA GAMES people earning the medals and
revealing their prowess and defeating their opponent. Woah, see them like
that,
makes me wanna pump harder during training.

The fire is like burning within me, I wanna fill myself with another level of
power and BURST, then grow long yellow hair like dragonball!

Had some dinner that made me feel like how you stuff an elephant into a hippopotamus<--[wrong spelling?]

And "touchwood"
I ate beef infront of my altar. HEHE, hope I'm still blessed with goodluck ^^.

Oh ya, and my poor and torn shoes have to soak in that water that was send from the cracked open sky. I thought I could go home high and dry. Hope none of you caught a cold, cause I didn't get one when I got soak in the rain for 10mins, I mean the 10mins no shelther walk home ;)

STRONG or?

and and!! baby mutton's phrase was hilarious : "eh vernon, the player below 23 play until so lousy, you go form a over 60 team and play lah! HHEHEHEHE "

almost made me fall of the chair laughing haha!!

OKOK, have the urge.. to rest! byebye!

when the flowers gaze at you..

Credits to kcmx, my masterpiece while waiting for gym work to start.

This is the symbol of honor, pride, justice, commitment of the cwdb!

and yes, its bullshit, its just my very own storyline! :D

haha, guess what?

While I was doing the counter yesterday, I made 6 tomatoes cost $91.00.

LOL, do you believe that? I got so shocked myself too. Cause the tomatoes are by weight and I left my lazy hand there while keying the numbers of the fruits/veggies.

Haha! the lady was shocked or

luckily she wasn't a petty sort and forgave me instantly.

Had a test today, not really a test cause I could go..

Andy : Aye sial lah, what is TFT?

someone : Thin film transmittor.

Andy : HUH?!

another someone : Thin film transmittor lah!

Andy : what what transmittor?!

teacher : Andy ah, aiyo don't ask people, do yourself!!!

ROFL!

I love my ITE life. This teacher, Mr. Pohm has been my form teacher for my entire ITE life.

He gave me 6 hours CIP cause I did a charitable thing by buying from him a correction tape and same goes for everyone in the class. Hilarious!!

Last year, we swept the floor for 5 mins and gained 6 hours CIP. HAHAHA!

Seriously, he even said, aiya andy, come back tmr, I can only give 4 person CIP hours today.

Totally, What the shit?!

Then he even give pple who wrote some characters/letters on their test paper, 60 marks.

Saying , in chinese [ got do can already ]

LOL, how corrupted can ITE get, seriously, im lovin' it.

Today, he opened the lab for us to play lan for 3 hours.

I holler in afew of my friends and we had CS/Dota matches.

Ok, what a day!

Then I had to get sting by the heavy rain omw home.

Kk, thats all, time to game.

[ hmms .. ]

I think I'm missing out on alot of other kinds of entertainment..

and.. losing touch with my once good buddies..

or..

I'm just thinking too much. hehe. ;D

Regrets, the one wrong move.. hurts alot.

This post is about a certain person..
whom forgave me even after my wrong doings.

Not mentioning how much each have done for the other..
today, I feel remorse yet happy, cause thick skin is for the win <-- joke only.

She climbed out of the well which I thrown her into. I fell into my own trap and now, she picked me out of it. I thank you, with all my heart.

Seriously, I want to say this a million times or even a trillion times to you, if I ever get the chance.

I'm sorry.

To my once dearest friend, and going to be again and forever...

Berenice Yip Lijun.

When you're smashed to pieces and still have to go on..thats the spirit

2 hours of sleep I had
Woke up at 3 plus and msn till the called-cab arrived
Had some cabonara and a bottle of green tea for breakfast. awesome.
I mean, i paid 16bucks for the cab fare. Yea, woah! awesome. ;D
Then there were morning conflicts cause pple were late and stuffs.
OK forget bout those stuffs.

THE 21.1KM RACE STARTED

WOAH, damn excited, was screaming like it was another millenium!

Had a nonsensical start, everyone was cramped up together and yea,

from 7 warriors,

we have 2men down due to stomachache and gastric pains issue.
Another 2 went down due to lagged behind?
Left me and another 2.
I then lagged behind at the 13k mark.

Bloody hell? I saw the 10k mark and ran abit faster and was stopping inbetweens alot due to awaiting and stuffs. Almost lost my chip but lucky someone prompt me to go back and get it
Yea, back to the 10k mark, it was only 5k when i ran 1k.

Ok bullshit! Want to buy more knowledge at times like this.

[extra : There was this husband and wife with tags behind em writing , " My wife made me do this --> " and " <--- LIAR " ] hehe!!

then lets fast forward abit, from 10km mark - 13km, I sprint stop and repeat, cause the momentum? the breathing were not consistent at start already, its the only way I believe.

Walking was the only stuff I did. At 15k, some runner encouraged me to run, so the motivated andy started jogging.

AND WOAH, my legs cramped like no tomorrow.

REALLY, SERIOUSLY, TOTALLY.. damn pain!!

I hopp-ed to one side almost immediately and stretched. Medics came and show me some funny looking ointment which i rejected HAHAHA.

Kk, so i completed almost 2/5 of the race by walking and trying to slow jog at times. It sucks when your shorts fibre are cutting ur thighs, ankle knee all hurting me and stuffs.

2 cups of 100plus and 1 cup of mineral water was what I had every kiosk, yesyes, water tank, but my body dehydrated, wasn't pespiring after an hour or so, guess I needed the water.

AND WHATS VERY PRO IS THAT, i wore sneakers to jog. ROFL.
Its for the win man, that pair of sneakers 's been with me for like 5 years, guess it should be in such a big event with me :D

haha, yea i know what you're thinking, andy have feelings for non-living things? lalala~ you happy can already.

Got the medal, dropped dead, pee-ed in smelly cubicles that have "waste" on it, really disgusting
Had 2 rounds of breakfast and off to bed from 1-9pm

My leg muscles are still cramping and to mr lim : " This run thrashes ur leg training 3523523423 times :X

[Actually, im quite satisfied with myself, being able to tahan such a long run, haha! I saw adeline,diana and dilis. Small world uh. 1 tuition friend, 1 primary sch mate and 1 working friend]

Had seafood fried rice that cost $6.60 for dinner O_O
Expensive or..
or flex like mAd? ;P

Kk, have training and sch tmr, need to try to sleep by using the method, counting rachels, she said its effective, well, we'll see ;D

Goodnight!!

Oh ya! I got a new phone again. Please remember to update me your number cause I lost all my contacts, again.

Conclusion for the week -
1) Exercises/trainings : Checked!
2) Eat good food : Checked!
3) Had fun : Checked!
4) Good week? - Yes, got a silver swimming medal and am a 21.1k medalist! Though it was like 2 hours 48mins when I completed it HEHE!!

Have you ever felt like the wind, i mean faster than the wind.

An interesting day to begin with..

it began with, no breakfast. What the fuck?

then followed up with no daily income O_O!!!

and then its 3 hours to work when I work up!

Its 1pm!!

Bathe, talk cock with msn friends, played a round of dota and... zzz its 3pm?
Time flies or..

Ok, had a great time at work, met few familiar faces, and yea, accomplished the " Art of closing a counter ".
Balance showed $0.00.
Sia lah, I think im damn pro lah O_O!

Then saw a dwarf at some lanshop in bukit timah after work, couldn't find her 6 friends and now im home, preparing for the race thats inc in 5 hours time.

Regeneration time~
-out-

P.S. I ran home, and it fucking feels good, when you feel that you've reached another level, in running. When you feel that you're pumped up and can run faster than usual and sustain longer.

holy shit~ ;)

I hate that feeling..

Bad and good news.
Figure it out yourself.

2 years ago, I felt that im a broken puzzle.
I fit the pieces back slowly, then I regained my self confidence and such.
Had a bump on my finger that reminds me of that cruel past.

Today, I feel like a vase thrown down from a 20th storey building.
Broken once again. Someone, something just repeat what happened.

I really didn't want to do it, but just had to pour kerosene onto that flame that was almost gone.
Seriously, they wont even give a fuck about you even if you cried so loud that the calm sea turns into a raging storm.

Once again, I let go off a friend I fucking cherished so much, for years.
To ms.G :
If you ever come to me blog , ever.
I wanna say..
yes, I have a reason, if you remembered the stories I told you before.

May time heal.

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Anyways, my 50m freestyle sprint improved!
by 2 seconds summore!!
Unbelievable! Really!

So for the relay swimming, we got second!
For solo swimming, ok I got 4th, but it was good, to me. 31 seconds!

Silver medal for the win~
beats last year's 2 bronze medals.

Gotta sleep, have to train hard tmr :D

And to part 2, currently 1045pm.

Home sweet home...
Time to lock and load, for gaming!

I tried being a solo cashier for 20mins max, today. :D

Yay on achievement.

Please don't laugh at me if I attend to you whenever you come by.

Rest well!

Wonder when will I meet a difficult customer, hmmmmm...

Alive and kicking .. still!

The week after this, I predict I will fall sick with fever/cough/cold and near the funeral state.

kk, choy!!!!!!!
Touchwood 20 times.

Its 1 hour before work!! Which means I've to go out soon.
Think there'll be a second part to this blog later on at night.

so, stay tuned alright?

*packs afew clothes and buns, tie it up with a piece of cloth, hook it with a stick*
Aye, I'm ready to work.

Enjoy ur day fellas.

Sweet Child O' Mine

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me
of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

~~~~~~~~~

Great song by guns n roses. Loved it again as my shuffle play brought me to it.
DL, buy the disc, get the song from friend.. just get it. Its a beautiful song.

First day of work was fun. Met many pple and some familiar faces.
Hot babes were seen everywhere. I just knew it, I chose the right place to work, feast to ma eyes and so near home. Accessibility to anywhere is so convenient :D

Oh ya, next sunday 21km standard chartered. Confirm mati, please keep me in your prayers that I won't collapse halfway hehehe :)

Off to bed, "sleep" is calling out fer me.

broken and pissed on

Imagine a traffic light, blinking..

16..
15..
14..
13..
12..
11..
10..
-GONE-

Andy was deadbeat after his favourite leg muscles workout, or should I say, hell training. The most avoided but satisfactory = 100% training.

His thigh muscles were cramping and can't even climb/alight stairs. The muscle ache's terrible x1000.

Then at 1/4 of the crossing, the above said happened.
Woah, He shouted/screamed,endure the pain and run as the rumbling of the motors start.

Then he made it, with severe aches as he hugs the post and catches his breathe.

TOTALLY, What the F~

Anyways, went to watch a game torney and headed home.
Tmr's gg my first work day!!
Fri's my swimming training!!
Coming Wed's my swimming compy!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL!? Coach just told me like yesterday?!
I haven't trained for months and.. compy?!?!?

I'm so gonna die.

Good Luck Have Fun man.
Crashing~

Wash my hands off you. I'm getting on with my life.

Advertorial:

Paging to all SAW fans.

Andy might get hold of the saw 4 DVD and will host a venue for pple to watch.
Anyone is invited, if rodney doesnt minds? :D

Saw is a horror/gore movie. Saw 4 is R21.
So if you hate gore stuffs, please you're obliged to not come.
But its something you musn't miss, YOU KNOW, its SAW V!!!!

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Okay, admits I'm a lil high over the movie. Well, I missed Saw III.
That sucks you know :(

Anyways, lan gaming till 5am yesterday. Had breakfast and went home to sleep.
Sorry for oversleeping, was sposed to meet my friends for bballing at 930am.

Lan gaming is so unhealthy, makes me so lethargic and thus.. i slept till 4pm today O_O?

Today's a rotting day for me. Feel like I've slacked too much. Tomorrow's gym will pump me up once again I guess.

I'm out~

Reminder:
Send me a text or something if you're interested in watching SAW. I'll give u e details. Ellis not included. :D

FUCKING FUCKED UP~

Do you believe that life will often be down and out and unlucky at certain periods.

I believe so.

Just yesterday, my brother set our port settings just to make his comp able to host his favourite DOTA game.

Ok, that affected my comp for abit. The net got abit laggy and shit and I got pissed off for abit.

He then say if dont want i reset back lor. After using the comp for so long, does he knows that after reverting back to a normal setting, the comp won't feel the same anymore. I mean thats after I used the comp for so many years, so I hate setting up unnecessary stuffs when my comp is perfectly fine and running smoothly.

Retard x 1.

THEN JUST ONLY, my mum wanted to use my comp just to print her documents cause her old pentium 3 died and her data can only be print out from my comp cause her latest one is in her vista.

OK, I lend her lah, nice guy mah.
Guess what? Now my comp auto hangs, restarts for no fucking reason and she have to spoil my mouse. Ok, maybe I'm just too sensitive, but after coming home , dread tired and bout to "die" from training, leg muscles training summore. I limped home, sweat and tired was how my body's feeling. She have to make me frustrated and fedup x1000!

She mops/sweep the house and have to knock onto my CPU while gaming when i tell her not to. Then now want to use my comp, let you use please use it with care, its very sensitive and she knows it. THEN, she have to throw out this stunt.

I really wanna swear you know, accidentally leaked afew of the 4 letter word out, infront of her and shes crying.

THAT F*CKING PISSED ME OFF.
I didn't even direct to her, its like cursing, just a remark.

And she said, I bought this comp/mouse for you. Ok, I quit the lanning life just because its unhealthy and its better to stay at home and play.

Now, she bought this comp with her/my dad's money. Then take it back lah, things want to ji jiao so much. TAKE IT BACK MAN. I DON'T USE THE COMP LAH, TOTALLY, FUCKED UP DAY to end with.

Sorry for the expletives and such.
I'm out of here, I wanna go run even with these "broken" legs.

I scream, hysterically... not

I'll swear on my first sentence in this blog.
Ok, maybe the second. SOOO~ Fucked up.

Gym IS the place that allows me release the fumes.
The place where I can really be myself.
An arena with warriors fighting to be the strongest.
The training ground where no one gives shit about ur attitude..
A place where I think freedom is and doesn't lets you roam ard freely thinking bout ur personal stuffs.

as long as you think you've achieved it when the final bout comes around.

Once you leave the battle realm
The outside world..

is filled with, people whom like their "face" so much.
pride and honor of giving other pple their very first impression..
So it cannot be ruined.

People whom fight to protect emself [ yea thats true, but one gets over selfish and.. ]
People whom only wants things their way [ never give a thought about others ]
People whom thinks everyone is under them [ too overconfident with their stuffs/looks/fame ]

and they tend to treat the weaker like piss.

I just wanna go to the gym now man. :\
Seriously that small room is considered paradise to me even if theres pain.

Fucked up, once again.

Left or right? or just sit here and settle?

Been a farming week and the benefits will come soon.
Partner the monsterous coach for training.
He's a pervert, yes he is.

why?

Because he does weights that're so heavy and he keep training the same muscle section and what did I get.

I got a sore body.
Skipped the monday exercise so I didn't get to train the upperbody chest nor biceps and shoulders.

But I did the legs, abdomen, back and tricep training.
This wednesday, after the leg exercises, I took a bus home and sat there not moving for 15mins.
Reached my stop, I press the bell, and my legs refused to stand up. I insisted and the cramps came. So 18 years old andy become 80 years old. He had to limp home and grab onto the poles as he walk/got out of the bus. I even spammed the bell so the bus uncle will wait for me. How pathetic >

Then yesterday, was the back and triceps. Now I can't fidget like I always do. It hurts to even stretch :(

Thus, now im handicap, kind of handicap from legs to shoulders.

Oh wells, I'll just pend for the benefits :D

Oh ya , yay I have saw 4 CD. uh oh, its R21 and I can watch! *winks*
Interested members please call my handphone and beg me, PLEASE~

Off to jog ;)

Did you ever wonder?

Everytime you see scenes or replays of people who're dying.
Normally that unlucky guy would just get mocked for his stupidity and say he deserved it.

But at the last moment, when he steps onto that chair and prepares to get hanged to death..

..he smiles..

why?

I started thinking bout this when I was day-dreaming.
IS it because he finally realises his mistake and thinks that death is the only way to atone for his mistakes.

OR, just that he shouldn't die, ugly-ly?

MMM, maybe he saw a illusion, aka a angel and the angel's hand reaching out to bring him to heaven as they always say if u repent, you're forgiven..

OR[again], He found out how corrupted the world can be, giving verdicts and forcing a death just to give the county/town/country a reply so everything can once be normal and people will still think the government is upholding justice as they always are. [as he smiles and wants to die earlier cause hes disgusted by the world's way of upholding justice]

I'm f*cking random I know. I just thought...

Aiya! I go watch t.v. lah.

Would you change, or stay the same?

Remember the times when you're a kid, you get anything and everything you want.
You're like the king and everyone have to bow and accomodate to your wishes.

Never did you know that as you grow, you lose that " power " you have within you.

Everytime you level up, you pick up more responsibility.
Instead of gaining new powers.

One then start to pick on new challenges, new courses that would eat up afew years of your life.
Whether you accomplish it or fail, its up to your hardwork and effort and of course, that bit of luck..
Setbacks then come as they block ur way to success. You never know when they arrive.

When they do, they entrap you and give you negative thoughts and such.

So, would u think positive and work hard once again after a failure.
Or decide to drown urself with liquor and let ur life waste away.

Do you wanna face the world as a loser..

or

One that people knows worldwide when one says a keyword that links to your profession?
You know you know, fame.

Today onwards, I aim to be a better man.
Just can't stay the same.