Hi, ishti and aamir, if you guys are reading this,

Lets be LEDENGARY! ^^ HAHAHAHAHA

when there're no answers to your questions, that feeling just auto-injects into you.
I need to learn to let go, again.

And keep this in mind, 'knowing too much, sometimes, just isn't a good thing'. Besides, where is the trust if you keep thinking that way right.

Wake up.

It's the same thing all over again.

Except this time, it'll be 9 days, 1 month, 1-3months?

I'm worried, my confidence got crushed once, will I be able to handle it again?

Oh wait, what's with again, I'm confident that I can make this work out, my foresight tells me it'll be super hard but I'm gonna keep trying!

Time to be independent even though I really, really have the urge to splurge and call you.

If you ever read this my little ke ai girl, I love you hehehehe.

K BYE~!

okay something's wrong with my blogger.

In the rain It's been a long long time, since I last worked out, approximately 2-3 weeks? I've been struggling and in a way, gasping for help. Yeah, I know, I'm pathetic in a way, always spending extra cash here and there, to get things done. But from all of these, I realized, that I, the vanguard of my family, that in life, you do not take shortcuts, especially when it's things that lead so far, so far into your future. Back to my workout, I had a basketball game, it was only for awhile because the rain and shine kept a cycle until the heavy downpour. I did my best in the game, the floor was slippery, my shoes arent conditioned to play basketball on that kind of terrain, and the trauma about my knee still lingers somewhere in my mind. I want to jump, I want to play like before, I want to be aggressive, I want to do a proper layup in a proper game, I want to pull the ring again, I want to rewind time, I want my operation to be a success, I just want to be normal again. I know, there're people outside whom're in a state worst than me, they're robbed of mobility, verbal communication, sight and many more. But its just a part of me, that wants that adrenaline rush I miss so much, to exert my body, legs, arms, brain power, willpower, to the maximum and 'breakdown' after a shower and a warm meal. Damn, speaking about warm meal, I miss my mom's simple dishes already. Just porridge, that's left over a time, becoming all gooey and having that with my dad's garlic eggs, top grade-thin-crisp-ly-fried-luncheon-meat, nuggets, and the canned pork ribs. Simple, unhealthy, yet heart-warming. I'm always the one doing the first step to get things done. I was striked off twice by you. To be friends is a yes for me, but I really hope, this time, you'll initiate.. If I'm worthy, of your time and effort. Good day readers :)