失败之王

跟自己说过了，不能让对方感到伤心，什么问题都要自己解决，不能带坏消息，只能传好消息，令对方感到开心的好消息。。。

睡不了就把所要的担忧和烦恼都通通丢在这里，丢了如果还烦的话就继续丢，丢到累了就去睡觉。。。

千千万万不能打扰你最情爱的。。。

我真失败。

Pierce to stop the beat

I merely found it weird that I speak to you in Chinese twice and you replied both times in English. 

I just said it felt weird..

And I honestly heard you said something that has got to do with " it's dumb to feel weird ".

Maybe it's the reception,

But right now, what I am left with is

Four stupid fucking walls ( again ), an empty and breaking heart... Seriously.. Waited one whole fucking day at home to spoil your beloved's mood when you finally get to speak to her

and then lose contact w her because there's no wifi there and make yourself feel horrible after..... 

I give up on myself... I don't deserve to even live...

Goodbye.

The construction

In afew hours you'll be gone for work then party then might not be able to hear from you for a week until Friday night / Saturday morning. 

Even the ability to not pick you up and make a presence that I am still revolving around you sucks so badly.

Besides you asking me to go dip my head into water to wake myself up from my stupid thoughts. I just know I still need to make a presence in your heart until the day you wake up finding a need to have me and...

Our melody will be perfectly in sync :)

Negativity out~

Just be confident, be yourself, work out a path, come back stronger, and create a new tune to dance in

Splinter~

I just wanna call you but spamming is so unlike me, makes one looks desperate and needy but yet I want you to spend time w your friends at the same time not neglecting me. But it seems like I'm getting neglected now

Sigh what can I do, should I call once more or just sleep it away and go through the same thing tmr, wait for your texts hoping that you wanna text me? Or initiate a conversation and break that goal that I want to achieve, or want us to achieve..

Now it sounds so noob like its a single person's goal. So stupid sigh... :(

Meh 20hours~

Do I start, or will you?

I hope you're thinking of me from time to time >_<

Waiting is such a pain sometimes even when you have things keeping you busy T_T

And blogging in my own personal space is just more sacred even tho ppl read my blog -.-

Gah不想了！

Simple love~

To accompany you via communication applications,

To accompany you and feel connected w you anytime anywhere,

To accompany you until the time to rest,

Under the same night sky,

Is bliss that is beyond imagination.

~

The love corruption

Despite the rules and regulations,

Even if I have a head start now in this race,

Because of all the odds that I've to overcome,

Please be a unscrupulous and kayu referee/judge, 

And let me finish first in your heart. 

Let me unlock them dreams with you.

The last resort for this situation

Regardless of any or all of the pain and irritation, the confusion, the unresolved, the future..

I just want to be able to spend all my free time with you. 

It's never enough definitely, to last me through another 6 months and all. But, I guess that's all I want for now, I'll satisfy that!

And while typing all these, I wonder about your thoughts all day. 

A little reset

Technically, we are somewhat starting from scratch, 

this time using time to set us straight, 

to nurture and help us understand each other more, 

to let us accept each others flaws and blah

to make sure that the nexttime we take the same walk, it wouldn't be the same ending again.

P.S. looking at all those Taiwan gifts somehow makes me smile, makes me excited to let these 2 years pass by, and at the same time sad that the future is unpredictable.