It is like after what that has happened, I begin to realize, bonds that I create with such hardship can go to waste so easily, except for my bros from secondary school. That bond, is the toughest bond to break.
It's like made of this matter that wouldn't break, and if it does, it rejoins back quickly, so quickly to the point where it doesn't even feel like any damage has been done.
Right now, I am dating this girl. Idk if we're together, she just came out from a long relationship and might be confused and lost as of what she wants and all. I'd say I am certain, that we are having a good time now, because she can lean on me, I can do the same. She grows to speak like me, she grows to stick on to me, even when she is overseas. But I really don't know, how can I get over my trust issues because she has bad guys swarming her 24/7 and she doesn't know the art of defence against such pricks.
I'd say, shes a keeper, but if she's defenceless, what will happen if I leave for melbourne, who is she going to turn to? Most of her guy friends are bastards and shes too nice to all of them because that is how her personality works. There are things which I want but she find it meaningless to show because it is meaningless but to me, it meant something, because of my trust issues once again. I know if I keep harping onto this, I'll be the one that breaks this ying yuan that was brought upon us.
I really hope, I can find a solution together with her, before she gets tired of my stupid trust issues and insecurities.
Nights.
