Don't you worry child

Don't be afraid to fall, cause if you fall, I'll carry you up, hold on to you and continue walking with you. 

If you break into pieces, I'll smelt you and remake you, add different elements into you, and make you even stronger than before. 

Break down your defenses for me, let go of the past for me,

Let me see that smile, lemme hear that laughter, let me sense a happy you, 

Let me have a firm grip of your hands, your unsure yet trying hands, 

And lets walk this together, until you're ready to hold on tightly to me, I'll be the one holding on tightly to you.

Posting in dessert house haha random

I know how scary it is to lose things.

I've lost too much sometimes that I grow numb and give no shit about what I have lost before.

But this time, like every other time but plus additional 100%, I'll hold on to you and not let go :D

Cause you're loreal ( Kay lame -.- )

Thinking thoughts

难道，每分每秒，想着经快reply你，故意推开别人，为了enjoy each other 的声音，废话，玩笑，是错的吗？

就算不是错的，如果看不到你付出一样的effort就是 not trying 吗？

为什么我总是expect这些小小的东西，而觉得如果她不用一样的态度对待我，就不什么爱我？

真的可能看太多happily ever after for

now 的 couple 都天天甜甜蜜蜜，短信来立刻回复，每次都会回答我，wait ah，i reply my gf／bf first。

有些还会说，eh really cannot already, my "partner" is waiting for me. Like they'll literally ditch a bunch of friends just to go speak to their beloved.

But I think all of them are guys making time for their loved ones. Not the other way around. 

And thus, this aftermath that I am absolutely not happy w at all. :/

Make things right c'mon!

Rinse and repeat

Everyone asks me how are things between me and my girl.

I always reply we're good and happy.

But everytime I say that, a quarrel have to happen to us over the phone.

What's worst is that, we are quarreling over the same thing every week.

It's something that is almost impossible to solve. It's like if I demand to take it away from her, I am being a bad boyfriend. If I give it to her, I can't get pass my principles. 

I have to start weighing what is more important.

Definitely, she is more important. 

So I will have to learn to like her for that. 

It's not hard Andy, you just have to get used to it. 

Lying to myself

I hate the fact of you going to those places even if nothing goes wrong that night because one day something might just go wrong, someone might just pop a pill or shit and you'll never know cause the people you know are people that you never knew. 

But I still try and be happy and encourage you to go.

Because I love you.

Even though it always saddens me a bit by a abit...

Chopping down my extra mile.

Option 1 : don't be so crazy, calm em emotions down for her.

Option 2 : make her crazy for you

Option 3 : hold my craziness and emotions for you, and burst them all out when you have the feel to text or call me.

Option 2 & 3 sounds about right for now.

Meh~

想跟你。。。

你知道＂我多么想跟你说话＂。。。

这句话是多么辛苦才能说出来的吗？

过了那么多天，吵了这么多次，我都还有一点尊严，一点男人的尊严要保护。

可是今晚如果不说，我真的不知道几时说才好。

都说了，你也懂了，我宁愿东西自己抗也不要跟别人发牢骚。

可是因为是你，我有什么人身的经验，过程，我都会立刻跟你分享，你有你的命，我有我的，只是因为我把我的命，都revolve在你身上。。。

害到你每天都很烦，

害到你每天都伤心，

害到你天天都要放个假笑容，

害到你需要放掉别的乐趣，

为了我自己的需要。。。

而就是，我天天都想跟你说话。

解脱

这个blog是让我解脱的地方，因为世界上有太多混乱的地方。

每次撕去了一样宝贵的东西，我会只然而然的跑来这里，自己跟自己漂白心中的想法。

就像现在，看到任何＂希望＂我就立刻把握机会，狠狠地抓住。

可是还是to no avail.

我真的不知道该这么办。老天，求你指导。我真的＂不会＂了。

如果你是我，你会了解吗？

被个贱女人骗了之后，往往很多事我都会担心，看不见的东西我跟放不下心情，就好像前面的路是看不见的一样。＂信＂真的是要赚的，而且到现在，我根本都还没证实见到一个能压下我这些幻想的真相。

其实呢，有辆次吧。可是剩下的结局通常都是在吵架。

我又想避免，又想安心，又想陪着你走完着个希望路，和你创造一个没人能达到的欢喜和将来。

爱你真的不容易，尤其是联络不到你的时候。真令人心痛。

拜托你快上线，所以我可以解脱这些反感。

Peaceful yet condescending

It's been long since I come across this crossroad again. Or rather, if u take look back into this life of mine, it just wasn't too long ago.

I abused my rights of getting information just to feed my insecurities, and when I decided to ease the tension between us two, my lightness because the source that cuts the line. 

And I receive a call at this low point of mine which turned the entire situation around.

Am I always thinking too much which creates an unnecessary barrier between people?

Oh wellz, back to the books. ^_^