A clown..
paints his face with many different bright colours, to look happy and cheerful.

A clown..
paints his smile in a way, it never frowns.

A clown..
always grins, but one never knows what it is within.

A clown..
does his best to entertain and humour you, so you'll smile.

A clown..
takes away all your trouble and sadness, and gives you love and happiness.

A clown..
smiles, when he sees your smile.

And after all of these, he'll have to take off his makeup, and one will never know, what's churning and happening inside him.

For I feel like this clown, as no one understands me.
as cheerful as I can be, I always give and bring forth things, feed on your smiles, and at the end of the day, I'm filled with emptiness,all the way, to the brim.

I swear I hate my life, just for this moment.
I'm lost, yet I have to be on track.
I'm lost, yet I have to be steady.

And when I fall, its game over.

Because there's always no support.

That vicious cycle

Have you ever wondered, why do you deserve that particular kind of treatment from that particular person? And why are you applying that to another person in the upcoming future?

grudge? saddistic?

We'll make an example out of it, a certain person named,

lets say, Tom, always bullies John.
John slowly grows a grudge and swore to himself he'll be successful and powerful like Tom so he wouldn't be bullied again.

When he reaches that stage in life, he slowly grows into that state where he becomes like Tom and starts abusing his power, because he wants to get things done so that he wouldn't get bullied by another..

and that vicious cycle repeats.

Would you be the one person, to put that to an end, to break that chain of effect, to be a forgiving person.

or maybe once again, I'm thinking too much?

You shouldn't be a beast..
yet you were born to be a beast.

How fate controls your life just sucks eh.