I hate that feeling..

Bad and good news.
Figure it out yourself.

2 years ago, I felt that im a broken puzzle.
I fit the pieces back slowly, then I regained my self confidence and such.
Had a bump on my finger that reminds me of that cruel past.

Today, I feel like a vase thrown down from a 20th storey building.
Broken once again. Someone, something just repeat what happened.

I really didn't want to do it, but just had to pour kerosene onto that flame that was almost gone.
Seriously, they wont even give a fuck about you even if you cried so loud that the calm sea turns into a raging storm.

Once again, I let go off a friend I fucking cherished so much, for years.
To ms.G :
If you ever come to me blog , ever.
I wanna say..
yes, I have a reason, if you remembered the stories I told you before.

May time heal.

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Anyways, my 50m freestyle sprint improved!
by 2 seconds summore!!
Unbelievable! Really!

So for the relay swimming, we got second!
For solo swimming, ok I got 4th, but it was good, to me. 31 seconds!

Silver medal for the win~
beats last year's 2 bronze medals.

Gotta sleep, have to train hard tmr :D

And to part 2, currently 1045pm.

Home sweet home...
Time to lock and load, for gaming!

I tried being a solo cashier for 20mins max, today. :D

Yay on achievement.

Please don't laugh at me if I attend to you whenever you come by.

Rest well!

Wonder when will I meet a difficult customer, hmmmmm...

Alive and kicking .. still!

The week after this, I predict I will fall sick with fever/cough/cold and near the funeral state.

kk, choy!!!!!!!
Touchwood 20 times.

Its 1 hour before work!! Which means I've to go out soon.
Think there'll be a second part to this blog later on at night.

so, stay tuned alright?

*packs afew clothes and buns, tie it up with a piece of cloth, hook it with a stick*
Aye, I'm ready to work.

Enjoy ur day fellas.

Sweet Child O' Mine

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me
of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

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Great song by guns n roses. Loved it again as my shuffle play brought me to it.
DL, buy the disc, get the song from friend.. just get it. Its a beautiful song.

First day of work was fun. Met many pple and some familiar faces.
Hot babes were seen everywhere. I just knew it, I chose the right place to work, feast to ma eyes and so near home. Accessibility to anywhere is so convenient :D

Oh ya, next sunday 21km standard chartered. Confirm mati, please keep me in your prayers that I won't collapse halfway hehehe :)

Off to bed, "sleep" is calling out fer me.

broken and pissed on

Imagine a traffic light, blinking..

16..
15..
14..
13..
12..
11..
10..
-GONE-

Andy was deadbeat after his favourite leg muscles workout, or should I say, hell training. The most avoided but satisfactory = 100% training.

His thigh muscles were cramping and can't even climb/alight stairs. The muscle ache's terrible x1000.

Then at 1/4 of the crossing, the above said happened.
Woah, He shouted/screamed,endure the pain and run as the rumbling of the motors start.

Then he made it, with severe aches as he hugs the post and catches his breathe.

TOTALLY, What the F~

Anyways, went to watch a game torney and headed home.
Tmr's gg my first work day!!
Fri's my swimming training!!
Coming Wed's my swimming compy!?!?!

WHAT THE HELL!? Coach just told me like yesterday?!
I haven't trained for months and.. compy?!?!?

I'm so gonna die.

Good Luck Have Fun man.
Crashing~

Wash my hands off you. I'm getting on with my life.

Advertorial:

Paging to all SAW fans.

Andy might get hold of the saw 4 DVD and will host a venue for pple to watch.
Anyone is invited, if rodney doesnt minds? :D

Saw is a horror/gore movie. Saw 4 is R21.
So if you hate gore stuffs, please you're obliged to not come.
But its something you musn't miss, YOU KNOW, its SAW V!!!!

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Okay, admits I'm a lil high over the movie. Well, I missed Saw III.
That sucks you know :(

Anyways, lan gaming till 5am yesterday. Had breakfast and went home to sleep.
Sorry for oversleeping, was sposed to meet my friends for bballing at 930am.

Lan gaming is so unhealthy, makes me so lethargic and thus.. i slept till 4pm today O_O?

Today's a rotting day for me. Feel like I've slacked too much. Tomorrow's gym will pump me up once again I guess.

I'm out~

Reminder:
Send me a text or something if you're interested in watching SAW. I'll give u e details. Ellis not included. :D

FUCKING FUCKED UP~

Do you believe that life will often be down and out and unlucky at certain periods.

I believe so.

Just yesterday, my brother set our port settings just to make his comp able to host his favourite DOTA game.

Ok, that affected my comp for abit. The net got abit laggy and shit and I got pissed off for abit.

He then say if dont want i reset back lor. After using the comp for so long, does he knows that after reverting back to a normal setting, the comp won't feel the same anymore. I mean thats after I used the comp for so many years, so I hate setting up unnecessary stuffs when my comp is perfectly fine and running smoothly.

Retard x 1.

THEN JUST ONLY, my mum wanted to use my comp just to print her documents cause her old pentium 3 died and her data can only be print out from my comp cause her latest one is in her vista.

OK, I lend her lah, nice guy mah.
Guess what? Now my comp auto hangs, restarts for no fucking reason and she have to spoil my mouse. Ok, maybe I'm just too sensitive, but after coming home , dread tired and bout to "die" from training, leg muscles training summore. I limped home, sweat and tired was how my body's feeling. She have to make me frustrated and fedup x1000!

She mops/sweep the house and have to knock onto my CPU while gaming when i tell her not to. Then now want to use my comp, let you use please use it with care, its very sensitive and she knows it. THEN, she have to throw out this stunt.

I really wanna swear you know, accidentally leaked afew of the 4 letter word out, infront of her and shes crying.

THAT F*CKING PISSED ME OFF.
I didn't even direct to her, its like cursing, just a remark.

And she said, I bought this comp/mouse for you. Ok, I quit the lanning life just because its unhealthy and its better to stay at home and play.

Now, she bought this comp with her/my dad's money. Then take it back lah, things want to ji jiao so much. TAKE IT BACK MAN. I DON'T USE THE COMP LAH, TOTALLY, FUCKED UP DAY to end with.

Sorry for the expletives and such.
I'm out of here, I wanna go run even with these "broken" legs.

I scream, hysterically... not

I'll swear on my first sentence in this blog.
Ok, maybe the second. SOOO~ Fucked up.

Gym IS the place that allows me release the fumes.
The place where I can really be myself.
An arena with warriors fighting to be the strongest.
The training ground where no one gives shit about ur attitude..
A place where I think freedom is and doesn't lets you roam ard freely thinking bout ur personal stuffs.

as long as you think you've achieved it when the final bout comes around.

Once you leave the battle realm
The outside world..

is filled with, people whom like their "face" so much.
pride and honor of giving other pple their very first impression..
So it cannot be ruined.

People whom fight to protect emself [ yea thats true, but one gets over selfish and.. ]
People whom only wants things their way [ never give a thought about others ]
People whom thinks everyone is under them [ too overconfident with their stuffs/looks/fame ]

and they tend to treat the weaker like piss.

I just wanna go to the gym now man. :\
Seriously that small room is considered paradise to me even if theres pain.

Fucked up, once again.

Left or right? or just sit here and settle?

Been a farming week and the benefits will come soon.
Partner the monsterous coach for training.
He's a pervert, yes he is.

why?

Because he does weights that're so heavy and he keep training the same muscle section and what did I get.

I got a sore body.
Skipped the monday exercise so I didn't get to train the upperbody chest nor biceps and shoulders.

But I did the legs, abdomen, back and tricep training.
This wednesday, after the leg exercises, I took a bus home and sat there not moving for 15mins.
Reached my stop, I press the bell, and my legs refused to stand up. I insisted and the cramps came. So 18 years old andy become 80 years old. He had to limp home and grab onto the poles as he walk/got out of the bus. I even spammed the bell so the bus uncle will wait for me. How pathetic >

Then yesterday, was the back and triceps. Now I can't fidget like I always do. It hurts to even stretch :(

Thus, now im handicap, kind of handicap from legs to shoulders.

Oh wells, I'll just pend for the benefits :D

Oh ya , yay I have saw 4 CD. uh oh, its R21 and I can watch! *winks*
Interested members please call my handphone and beg me, PLEASE~

Off to jog ;)

Did you ever wonder?

Everytime you see scenes or replays of people who're dying.
Normally that unlucky guy would just get mocked for his stupidity and say he deserved it.

But at the last moment, when he steps onto that chair and prepares to get hanged to death..

..he smiles..

why?

I started thinking bout this when I was day-dreaming.
IS it because he finally realises his mistake and thinks that death is the only way to atone for his mistakes.

OR, just that he shouldn't die, ugly-ly?

MMM, maybe he saw a illusion, aka a angel and the angel's hand reaching out to bring him to heaven as they always say if u repent, you're forgiven..

OR[again], He found out how corrupted the world can be, giving verdicts and forcing a death just to give the county/town/country a reply so everything can once be normal and people will still think the government is upholding justice as they always are. [as he smiles and wants to die earlier cause hes disgusted by the world's way of upholding justice]

I'm f*cking random I know. I just thought...

Aiya! I go watch t.v. lah.

Would you change, or stay the same?

Remember the times when you're a kid, you get anything and everything you want.
You're like the king and everyone have to bow and accomodate to your wishes.

Never did you know that as you grow, you lose that " power " you have within you.

Everytime you level up, you pick up more responsibility.
Instead of gaining new powers.

One then start to pick on new challenges, new courses that would eat up afew years of your life.
Whether you accomplish it or fail, its up to your hardwork and effort and of course, that bit of luck..
Setbacks then come as they block ur way to success. You never know when they arrive.

When they do, they entrap you and give you negative thoughts and such.

So, would u think positive and work hard once again after a failure.
Or decide to drown urself with liquor and let ur life waste away.

Do you wanna face the world as a loser..

or

One that people knows worldwide when one says a keyword that links to your profession?
You know you know, fame.

Today onwards, I aim to be a better man.
Just can't stay the same.

Do you prefer the light, or the dark and stuffy?

When was the lasttime I felt like winning so much that I have this great hatred for losing.
It's november the 3rd. A day when I lost again. My next big competition would be Inter-ITE/IVP swimming competition. I wanna be the champion for once. Not just a champion. A champion that would should that particular association, that I'm not just a sucker at that sport, I'm someone you have to put in all ur damn fighting spirit and cow strength to defeat me. How I wish that would come true. hmmmm... i wonder...

I ran, ard the whole dark and ulu and eerie ngee ann. [ard 8plus going 9, jogging btw]
K lah, at such moments , OFTEN-LY, my stupid brain starts imaginating. So you know what i'm thinking of.

Sprint for 5mins I think, could be lesser. All I could hear was my heavy breathing and hoping nothing's following behind me.

OK, stupid andy and his imaginations. Had dinner at al ameen at 1030pm. Zhihao was kinda on time this time. Congratulate?

Oh ya, why is my pathetic injuries acting up again. Keeps aching non stop. Wonder what will happen to my knee if I run the 21km. Lets pray nothing happens ok? hehe.

Hmm, thats about it at the moment.

I don't know how to end this blog man
Goodnight i guess!!

p.s. MCR concert for the win! :D

Want to buy more luck.

Why are there such people in the world?
Just to win, they give you that kinda attitude and spit at you.

Got fourth placing just now at the heats.
First was 1mins 39seconds.
2nd's the Assh*les that spit on us at 1min 40.93seconds i think
3rd's at ard 1min 41.22seconds.
4th's us at 1min 41.75seconds.

This is bullshit you know?!
We banged onto second placing , seahawk's boat.
This time wasn't like the previous rounds. We whacked em, we're so close yet. Zzzz

Thats my final dragonboat race. Its over though.

Was a great accomplishment, though I didn't accomplish much? haha.

Anyways, grats andy to freedom. Now its time to get a job and move on with another chapter of life.
Besides, I may continue dragonboat. Just to keep fit and maybe join competition as a club member. Hehe.

Life's unpredictable, ain't it? :D
Just hope things will come true the way I predict it!

Supper in 6 hours. gone~