Buckle up!
Blast the music!
Lets party and move on towards the future!!

If you're blinded by friends that supports you blindly.
Then you'll get blinded and influenced by their words and not look at things in a bigger picture.
They'll say things and miss out some points and make it totally logically my fault and when you try to defend saying about the past, they'll tell you things like, the past is the past, don't even look back because they're worthless when everything starts from scratch, from the day we started, that is the past, the base that build up a strong relationship till ..
Who knows,
Maybe they've been through much more than me, but I definitely have a clearer picture to what is happening.

But regardless..

Whatever I've done, even if you don't appreciate it in the least, all the bad and good stuffs and stuffs that're good and you deem it bad because you're blinded to a certain extent..
I'll still love you, and my doors will always be opened for you.

I've never ever regretted loving you and everything I do is always for you.. you always come first in my heart.

P.S. theres still alot alot alot of things I want to show/tell you, but you already deem it past and you don't want to see me ever again. Sigh :(

I've done it, I've tried, but you're blinded by anger and hatred.
You never calm yourself down and look at things in a simpler form.
I never calm myself and keep being so rash and impatient.

Guess we're both never meant to be. If you're together with that person right now, I wish you 2 all the best. It's kinda demoralizing to know, my first got stolen by my previously best friend, and now my second, got stolen by a female? Totally wtf, but if that makes your life feels better, and if you ever read this..

I was like this, from the start, I go the extra mile, and I go to the extreme to always do things for you. But when you went to the extreme to break up with me when I'm alone at Canada, I can only try back the same way, to come back and mend this thing, but at first there was no logical reason, just a love faded and you want to be single and not controlled.

As I said, if it's true you're with another girl right now. I hope you made the right decision and have a great life ahead.

To : The girl whom I put my entire effort into doting and planning for both of our future, and failed because of a reason, only she knows, and I never ever, get enlighten.

Suddenly when the flashbacks occurs while I was bathing.
It brought back to that day when I first met her, that very talkative girl, whom keeps asking for discounts with another girl. I noticed that thing on her lips immediately, and heard so it was her birthmark. The way she smile was always very cute, and I got attracted to it almost immediately.

The few dates I had with her, at jurong point and I forgot where. The movie , Night at the museum 2, was what started the dumb dumb.
Suddenly that surge of ' heartache ' just ran through me again. Was it really dragonboat that brought us our r/s, and dragonboat that pour it away.

I shower, i ponder, i wonder.
Is it really me, that just ain't good enough to start off with..