operation means wad?
means take knife, cut cut my leg only, CUT CUT ONLY~~

I'm so not supposed to type this, but well, its for my own recollection afterall.

To my dear friend,

Remember once you told me,
'I think after dragonboat and ITE life we won't be friends anymore already'
Remember we 3 always gether eat sushi, play lan, dragonboating.
Remember my irritating ' nickelback - rockstar ' sms ringtone?
Remember your singing.
Remember the first day you told me bout ITE simei's dragonboat trainings,
And remember I came to you when you and him wanted to go join soccer, to pull you to stay in the team.

But after it appear, conflicts between us just appear and now, I think your sentence.. came true.

'I think after dragonboat and ITE life, we won't be friends anymore already'
well...

To me,
Romance means..
To go beyond the boundaries..
To do something for that special someone..
And make her happy.

ANY OBJECTIONS?! HAHA

when setbacks hit u real hard.
when the badluck rolls continuously in your everyday life.

either you stand up and fight back, find another route to achieve back your ' calm waves '.
or you withstand the 'attacks' and wait for things to change for the better.

okay, diahorrea.
-gone-

well done, 's better than well said

a clear heart and mind, allows a better vision and correct judgement.

Alright, to the hospital to get my appointment and get crippled temporary, gogogo!

/edit

Operation here i come!!

Poker is really damn fun. Especially when you use all ur emotions to trick the person.
And especially when MY emotions are so fake HEHE :X

okay, time for checklist :
1) Bathed, check.
2) Cool down already, check.
3) Tired, check.
4) Still craving for poker, check.
5) Tired??!?!? , double check.

K nights, I have night shift tmr, better rest well :D!

Today wasn't an attempt.
Today is referring to 11/2/09.
Today is referring to 930pm - 1030pm
Today I tried to fulfill my final wish.
Today that lil wish is fulfilled.
Today I should be contented.
Today I walk off with no hesitation, but alot of regrets.
Today I think I did the right thing.
Today might be the lasttime I get to see you.

cause..

After today, I don't know when will I be able to go to that mall, stand and wait, ride the same bus, walk till that usual spot with you anymore.

So today, I think, I am contented to a certain extent.
And may that contented feeling stay perm so I won't be so hardup like an addict without his drugs.

Today, is over. Face it, tomorrow's gonna be a harsh day and so will the rest of the days be, getting harder as it goes by, level difficulty increases as you grow and gain more experience. Obstacles harder to cross, setbacks harder to overcome.

Soldier, GOGOGO!

Yes, thats the ACL, the most important ligament in the knee.
And yes again, mine's torn..zzz



And so 's my meniscus, wasted already.
Fuck sia, I really felt damn depressed, why tear sia zzzzzz
Lasttime chiong so hard also never tear, must tear because of snatching one stupid rebound.

The doctor looked at the screen, and cancelled partially, and told me its completely torn.
Sigh, after my mom sign the papers next week, im going for operation. I still wanna chiong my life summore, and without the operation, in 5 years time my knee will become like a 50 year old man's knee.

The really sad thing is, I won't be able to walk for a period again, as in freely.
Wont be able to take driving cause leg no power to step? HAHA! Okay, im just trying to cheer myself up.
Can't row dragonboat again. FAT LIAO LAH NABEI!~
Cannot do evening jogs and I really wanted to plan night cycle with my clique one, now cannot again. Turban :/

Do you know how impt this pair of legs are to me!
Fuck!

I feel, that im like, stucked in this bloody tornado.
Don't know how to get out.
Don't know my next move.
Dont' know whether if i should choose this or that.
Don't know what is the right choice.
Don't know if I should know or don't know.

Bloody tornado.