you trust the wrong man, you get the wrong outcome.

He whom says he don't really care, will suffer the wrath of his own doings.

He whom betrays, will get betrayed.

He whom, trusted "HIM", will learn from his mistakes.

He whom felt foolish, will learn to forgive and forget.

He whom is so childish and have no responsiblity in life, will get no fruit, or he will, a rotten fruit this life.

Yes sup yo, thats my brother, the breakdance kid yo! He really fuckingly, suprised me when he did those moves. From an idiot that plays dota, goes school, have band CCA, dont like sports..

He started doing all these crap infront of me, okay, not crap but, cool moves, expected from the asshole's brother yeah. Fly higher, brother!

I'm gonna start learning from him from today, totally awesome, TOTALLY~

Labels : betrayal/breakdance/brother.

the fastest heartbeat..

that makes me can't get back to bed.
not because of a nightmare.

But because i was dreaming of me, saving someone as a lifeguard role.
this particular scene was a bedok, I dont know why im there.

Then this person just fell into the water while rowing, Shouted " HELP, call 995 ", while running to the point where SDBA always puts the scoreboard.

What I last remember was, I have to save this person and..
I woke up when I plunged into the water, in the dream of course and




trust me, at 5am, my heartbeat was terok, now only terok divide by 2, still quite terok.
gotta get up and get ready for work!

Labels : dreams/heartbeat-rate

SERIOUSLY~~~~

JOHN YOUR TAGS ALL RHYME, GOOD START

BUT..







FUCKED UP ENGLISH AND NONSENSE SONGS
FOR THAT..






YOU 1 MAN ROW 1KM, ABOVE 1MIN, YOU CAN GO SUCK CHUNYEW BALLZZZZZZZZ

Labels : tag reply ;)

no longer soft, I've grown up and I'm proud.

I read words. I see that they interact.
I'm happy, really really happy.
I'm superbly glad that..
"A" promised my request.
If we could talk once again, I'll definitely not screw up that friendship again.

Oh wells, that picture without me, 's successfully drawn out..
And I smile with no regrets.

Labels : happy.

stagnant thoughts, until they get out.

sometimes, you have to get out of this thing that you've been staying in for a period of time and look at things in different point of view, from there..

then you'll realise, why didn't I think that way before!

Labels : diff-pov's.

I twirl and whirl..

with the tools that the creator gave me.
with my hands/brain/mouth..
I try to amend all the stuffs that made wrong.

To see things/people that I once cherish, to be happy once again, will make me happy.

I'll redraw that picture of everyone, but this time, without me in it.
I'll bring people that I once "messed around"<--HAPPY NOT ZOE..
with, together again.
This time I won't be soft hearted and wait for people or hear people pulling me back.

I draw a new route, and I walk away, forgetting all the tears/pain/happiness that I've once acquired.
Go forth andy.

Labels : amend.

The next chapter, new story, new climax..

I've been getting abit stressed up with the new environment im going to adapt with.
The incoming National Service.

Maybe its this kinda stress that makes me talk things out very straightforwardly, wanting to say out everything before I leave, for a period.

I never realised that this might be the upcoming stress that would occur in me till I found out, JUST, after reflecting abit while walking that long and drag-gy road back home.

Wonder, will I change friends, will the so called brothers be gone because I'm missing in action due to national service. Will my life change 360degrees and all of my mindset and principles all changed due to maturity?

Sigh, sorry to all I've "talked sense" to.
Sometimes, it may seem to make me abit arrogant and stuffs, but I think thats just me, for now.

OH! And I was thinking back bout all the cartoons I loved since young.
Bikermice/Streetsharks?/Bomberman B-Daman Bakugaiden/Iron man/Dash! Yonkuro/Beyblade/Pokemon/Digimon/Double Dragons/Cooking master boy/Zoids. Ah, they really do bring me back lotsa memories, and time sure flies.

Even though I'm still into animes like Katekyo Hitman Reborn!/One piece/Bleach/Naruto/Eyeshield 21/D.Gray-man/Claymore/Zatchbell.
Guess it never ends uh? :)

Labels : stress/arrogance/memories.

Rather than to sit and wait, I take the next step..

Sometimes patience isn't really my virtue.
Although I can really wait for some stuffs somehow.

But now, I've decided to make the first move, to do things my way, to make pple benefit, my way.

At least I feel better off when I see the smile come back once more.

To sacrifice, to ask for favours, to put down that pride with an ending result of what you want to see, is what that makes you feel relief, even if theres still this tinge that makes you want it back for you to dote and shower your love on, you have to be hardhearted and try ur very best to ignore.

Only then, you will know you've done the right thing, and haven't let yourself down.

Labels : yourveryown-guiltyconscience.

Men, and their ambitious plans to make a better world..

Did you guys know, that, last week, US shot a beam to draw an asteroid. Because they want to use the asteroids to invent new stuffs, new technology, which is a good thing and too, might not be a good thing.

Because if it fails.. you get doomsday.
If this coming sunday, when the second beam is released and the world ends..

I wonder will it be too late for her to keep her promise to start a conversation with me.
Even if its just " Hey " , or even better " How have you been " , It would really make me over the moon.

Put down all that pride and ego and do not be afraid of the pain that would come back and take some time to subside. To have something, is better to have nothing.

When all is done, there won't be such a thing as " its never too late ".

I've already put down my pride and tried all means to talk, with no avail of course.
Time never waits for you. You cherish whats infront of you if you want to live in bliss.

Labels : doomsday/sunday/awaiting still.

this is how men should live and be.

I ponned training today, thinking that I should give my body a break.
I slept at 10pm yesterday and woke up at 12 today.
14 hours flat of sleep, awesome, but my body still feel weak all over.

Decided, headed down to the bball court to relax my muscles and soon, average china players whom think they're really pro came down.

So yea, in the end I played really rough. You know the conclusion, I didn't get to relax my muscles, instead I chiong. I had 3 really pro players in my team.
We lost after the 5th match with a score or 6-7. The china pple purposely said 0-0 start. Turban, we're like leading 4-1.

I manage to score 2 though, cause I really dont know how to play box defence.

But this isnt what I wanna type in my post today. Its this..

A friend, called Timothy, hes flying off to UK to get a degree for law.
I was really shocked you know, like, a good player, a good friend whom's always there to help/talk when you're at the bball court, is leaving to another place, and coming back only after 3 years.
Its that parting feeling that sucks, even though we're not really related, just basketball accquaintance, but our bond when playing basketball was really strong tho. He taught me to play box defence and firm stand for defence while in the 5 games. I'll remember his teachings and show him that I've learnt well when he comes back from UK, that, timothy, I promise I'll do it, and I do it for you. Be prepared for a stronger andy when you're back.

Its like men of the past, they travel, for their own benefit, and settle down only when they find their love one, or they accomplish their goals. They meet new people, some become brothers, or friends to travel along, and they'll help each other, even though they never knew each other's character really well. The trust among them, stay really strong and whenever they part, they treat it as a new start of their journey, to become more sophisticated, more learnt in different professions that they pursue, and make their mark somewhere.

For me, after hearing that hes leaving, I felt a sudden " lost of friend " feeling. I think I'm really weak somehow and I wanna scream it out.

But I'm going out now so I'm not gonna type so much already
A new phrase for myself, be stronger and move on andy.

I wonder, after army, how would I think, how would I react to things. If my dad ever throw me to overseas for afew years to get my degree, will I leave for a new future, to upgrade and come back a more useful person,

or would there be a certain person in spore, whom would say" hey andy, stay in spore, for me ". I wonder ..

Oh wells, life's unpredictable.
I'm going out..

Labels : parting/friends.

I have to try to keep ignoring, even if it shatters.

When I do things, fucked up people get angry. Things like talking to someone.
What in the cow hell is happening, I mean, why god created such stupid men.

Labels : retardsoftheworldunites.

that reflection, that picture in the mirror, that speaks a thousand words.

I have a friend, whom met people that're two faced, people that are so fake, he trusted em and in the end, when he realise their pretence, he got turned off, completely.

Sometimes, people tell him things indirectly..
like, friends.
Then doubts like..

what friends..
who are those friends..
will they affect that goal I am trying to achieve?..

flows into his brains and they're stucked in that brain-maze.
And when he dug out the secrets, he gets pissed off but he tries his best to not do a shit bout it, cause its none of his business to begin with, even though, yes, it'll affect part of his future, depending on the outcome..

Hes so stupidly/silly-ly,-devoted, he gambles and hopes to see a light, that small ray that brought a moment of bliss, will be shut away and he'll go back to square one..
but still hoping, that that light would shine again, and shine forever.

He told me, he never felt as pathetic as before.
But he also said, its just the beginning and its so tough.

I look at his tired eyes, and tell him, then live life happier and not be tied down by such stuffs.
and strongly reminded him that, what will be, will be. Life ahead's filled with mystery, every path you take will give you a different surprise and learnings.

He smiled, and walked away from that picture.

Anyways, today I went to NUS to play bball.. super random and fast change in topic i know.
Darn it man, my left knee and right ankle's screaming so badly but I still continue playing.
Oh, and I met weishan, whom took a bus from one side of NUS to come find me, so i should be honoured, turban. I TREAT YOU TO A MEAL LAH OKAY?!

haha, thats all for now i guess, signing off.

-Asshole, Andy-

Labels : "fakers"/thoughts/injuries

I never did give them hell, I just spoke the truth, and they thought it was hell.

Sometimes, upon hearing the truth, you breakdown, you want to get to the bottom of the matter, you feel damn f*ckedup, asking what's life about.

But what I like to hear, is the truth, so I can change from it, even though it hurts sometimes.
I hate, people whom beat bout the bush, or keep things from me, even though its for my own good.

People are just trying to make emself not get stucked.
and making me sit here asking why, zzz.

Labels : truth

The more you sweat in peace, the less you bleed in war

8th september, andy release a new stunt.
It was so hardcore that many said its like in the movies, like jackie chan.

Even i think so hahaha! ;)

He spent 53 bucks just for a morning, on taxis. Duper crazy i know. But there was a purpose within.
At least its well money spent, he thinks.

But talking bout 9th sep, today, he drank that 1.5 litre of green tea and played full court bball.
Thanks to that, he lied on the situp bench nearby his house from 8pm and slept till 840, cause it just felt too uncomfortable, the feeling of vomiting.

The full court was fun anyways :D
Especially when you sprint barefooted due to consecutive fast breaks.
Ah, basketball, brings back the drive in you sometimes.

To bathe!
Later~

P.S. I'm serving army on 7th october, damn it, please miss me HAHAHA!

Labels : basketball, confession, national service.

Sometimes, patience is the key.

I waited for years for this day to come.
I never expected us to turn out this way.

Damn, all that warmth and satisfactory.
Really, to think my hardwork paid off, somehow.

I still wanna be a wimp and cry, to cry out all these happiness I have.
To realise, that good things do happen, if you dare to perservere.

TODAY, 06/09/2008, IS A DAY I'LL NEVER FORGET. I FINALLY MADE A FRIEND, THAT I LONGED FOR, FOR DAMN 6 years and 9months, just estimating tho.
Thanks for accepting me, Miss.Huang.

Labels : Friends.

When the time never stops..

.. producing memories for me.
Whether if its happy moments, awkward moments, moments of intensity, curiosity.
I love all of it, cause thats how life should be.

Thanks for spending my birthday with me.
From..
Rachel..AND THE BALLOON. HOLY COW, THANKS HUH?!
to rodney/weiming/zhihao..dildo, WTF?!?
to simin jeannie.. yes i know, nexttime we'll go for " chicken & co/beef & co/pork & co "-.-!!
back to rodney/weiming/zhihao/kenneth/joel..with supper till 1.30am.

really. its time to grow up. shouldering responsibilities and knowing what to keep/let go.
it was a fun 18th. here comes 19th.

Goodluck Have Fun, andy.

Mest - Jaded, yes its a repost, of this song. But this song brought me to know this clique, honestly. :)

There's a time and place, for everything.
There's a reason why, certain people meet.
There's a destination, for everyone.
What's the explanation, when we're done?

All the summer nights spent wondering;
So many questions asked, but no one's answering.
Would it be okay if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong?

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.

Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Where times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, we'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

I'll never forget the places we've been, you and i.
Our lives are slipping away.
Don't want to let time pass us by, byyyyyyy...

[Benji]
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years.......spent, so faded and wreckless,
Not sorry, and I'll never regret...
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

I love the lyrics, and I want to dedicate to everyone out there.
Never ever give up on life, due to a setback.
For my case, i almost gave up due to a r/s. But after thinking, maybe, a heartbroken period, is a positive thing, maybe she came into my life, to make me stronger.
Maybe she'll be my friend once again.

I dont know what will happen next, but I'll never regret these years spent so faded and wreckless, of my own doings.

TOWARDS THE FIRST DAY OF 19TH!
Time to sleep, its fucking 5:34 AM!
NIGHT!

Labels : positive/birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY LOW GUO HAO !!
19 years old lor, walau old jiao.

Ahahahahhahhahahahahahaha you know who i am right heheheheh i know you love me like damn long time (mariah carey is me) hahah!

OKKKKKKKKK ENJOY :D

XOXOXO;
RACHELKOHSHIYI :D hahahahahahah now you know who i am.

I work hard through life, and now I level, yet again.

Yes, this post is obviously, bout my birthday.
I am just really touched by the people ard me, those that I put my trust in, those friends that I cherished, remember my birthday and everything.

TO JOHN ONLY ---> YOU DONT COME " MAKE ME HAPPY " with YOUR DICK, I'LL FUCKING REVEAL YOUR IMMATURE CHEST MUSCLES LOLOLOL!!

Okay, advertisement over.

I wanna dedicate this post to everyone whom wished me for the first 1 hour.

Karlyn - Yes, i know, its kinda impossible for us to meet up now, one day we will, but yes, thanks a trillion, dearest overseas friend :D

Rachel - Thanks like no tomorrow, PLEASE HOR, YOU GIVE ME PLUSHIE TMR, I'LL DING-ZHUO one _ (your lovemate) PLUSHIE FOR U!

Weishan - Mercel :X thanks ah, but you'd better meet me for a meal soon, before army.. I DONT CARE~ AND PLEASE LEAVE UR MSN SECONDARY NICK LIKE THAT FORAWHILE MORE :D

Joseph - You're like the second, slow like for 2seconds, when the other person on the line said first.
But yea, thanks bud.

Nicholas - Hi orgasm, thanks alot even tho you were more interested in you're number what whom wished me HAHAHAHA.

Zhihao - Master of handsigns, same goes to the 3 of you from the clique, thanks alot.

Berenice - you were on the dot, 1 hour , so ure in. AND AND, where can buy ur hairstyle? :X

Sandra - THE ONLY CW MAIN TEAM PERSON, but honestly, thank you alot, :)

Elaine - OKAYLATHANKS, OKAYLABYE.

Simin - OEI PENTIUM 1, I WANT MY MOUTH TO SMILE TILL CRAMP, DONT SHY THANKS :D

Okay lah, after counting, theres only like 10.
But it already made my day :D

*bows* thank you all



ALUMNI, YOU THINK I FORGET YOU ALL AH?!
You all are like OVER EARLY, OVER SPAM ME ON MSN. Super thanks lah, but reminder to john again, dont immature u buttbrain HEHE!
AND AND, GOOD TRY ON TRYING TO MAKE ME GET FACECAKESMASH, YOU NOOBS GOTTA TRY HARDER ROFL~!

Resolution:
1) I promise I'll be more matured from now on, but when it comes to jokes, please let me limit break thanks.
2) I will control my temper and calm down to look at things more clearly before I start making judgements.
3) I will be a good alumni captain, and follow ur learnings, mr lim :)
4) I will still of course, cherish those friends, that never gave up on me, forever.
5) I will be a good son, good person, and make sure friends/family wont suffer, because of me.
6) I think 5 resolution points is enough, okay, maybe theres a last one, I'll never give up in life ever again, never ever lose confidence in myself. I swear. That should be all :D

Labels : birthday, 19th, resolution.