Clean slate

Whatever the past, just gonna wipe it clean. New page new chapter, new life. 

The day before my final stressful paper.

Every time I flip back the pages that we once had.
I smile and laugh at the conversations that we once shared.
The pictures were awkward or were smiley.
Everything was so peaceful and happy.

Until I flipped it to its final chapter.
Where all I am left with is dismay.
Anger hatred and whatever it is, with your words ringing and lingering in my head.
Building new memories with another while telling me " who says that I am happy ".

What a disgusting taste to end this book with.



Fucking hell, failed one paper, lucky can special consideration.. zzzzz.

The inner rage

Doing things with another guy and telling yourself that you don't love the other already.

Contain, my rage, contain

Don't haunt me. Just go away

Clairvoyance

Monsters are real, ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.

I've had many past girlfriends to be fair.

Some of which that did not end well.

Some did.. well sort of.

I've dated many. I've been hurt plenty.

I've been cheated and faced the scenario head on with many heartbreaks and whatnots.

But what makes it so different this time.

Because this time I loved her, more than anything in the world.

Cause after being hurt from my second relationship, I've never been able to commit properly.

And knowing me, when I commit to something, I really put my entire heart soul and mind into it.

and when it backfired..

I plummet down to negative.

Fuck off.

Please just don't reopen my wounds anymore.