Flow, thoughts flow. I just need to pour out these feelings somewhere. Currently I'm having four subjects to cope with, and I can only do well with 2. The other 2 subjects happened to be engineering math and physics which, are subjects that I love but I can't seem to fall in love with them. It's because I have never done grade 11/12 or equivalent, A math and JC math/physics. I swear, I'm suffering right now, everything just seems like a blur to me now. I can just skip classes and give up on these subjects. I've been going to lectures, doing revision, going to student learning centre where there're tutors to help me, watching online tutorials, asking for help from friends but, its just too much for me to catch up. Yes, I know, it sounds wimpy that I give up so easily, just 2months into the course. But tell you what, the tests have been flooding in, every week there're blogs to post to your lecturers, and the lectures never seem to slow down. It keeps going faster and faster, building up faster than I can catchup. There's so many things I want to do.. join a surfing club, be competitive in dragonboat, skydive, club, get a job and work, get a car and drive long hours and scream with friends.. and mend potential friendships. Gah, time to grind the books.