Friday, July 27, 2012
If one can cry for him and not for you.
If one can break your heart and not your heart.
If one can reject you and not him.
Then this August to september when he comes over and stay w her.
One have no right to interfere and be angry or whatsoever. Because it doesn't matter anymore.
Then that person is not worthy of your love and I won't try to hold on. And what's the past, is the past. For 好马不吃回头草!
If one can break your heart and not your heart.
If one can reject you and not him.
Then this August to september when he comes over and stay w her.
One have no right to interfere and be angry or whatsoever. Because it doesn't matter anymore.
Then that person is not worthy of your love and I won't try to hold on. And what's the past, is the past. For 好马不吃回头草!
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
Never wanna be a failure anymore
Throughout my life, I realize I've accomplished nothing to make my parents proud. Let's talk about something big, something worth talking about, like for example, results.
PSLE : 200/300
My mum was really happy when I told her the first digit was "2".
She was really worried when I got like 167/300 for the prelims and hired every other private tutor for me just to get me into a better school.
O levels : 29 points.
By then, from a prestigious primary sch, I've ended up somewhere even more "prestigious", the first president school, Yusof ishak sec. I was in express all the way np, was good in some subjects but never hardworking enough to pull up my grades. Getting arrogant once the teacher praise me and stop revising work was my forte. Ending up as one of the last few in the report card was a common thing for me too. So with 29 points, I ended in higher nitec, ITE Dover.
ITE Dover GPA : 2.8
Mum forced me to retake my Os thus I didn't really care about ITE studies. The last year I scored exceptionally well but that's all my GPA could go to. Found my new love in ITE, dragonboat. Spent almost my entire 2years in it and neglecting my parents and all, though they've been supporting me so hard and well, trying to tell me what's important and what's not. Yet I went for passion when I could research on how to shorten my study route, which is, overseas studies.
NS Rank : private
Tore my ligament, went for operation, made my parents worried again. No rank, can't make my parents proud. Bring home low income due to lousy education certificate and this stupid injury. Got office hours, had a girlfriend. Everyday after work would be either girlfriend or dragonboat coaching. Then again, I left my parents to their own, like I'm the worst child ever.
Overseas studies : Canada : stopped halfway.
Due to a certain reason and I wasted my parents money, effort and time to get me into that school and going to temples to pray for me and all.
Melbourne : failed my first semester
Cause I am from ITE, my math and physics aren't that strong to start off with and uni bombarded me with calculus. I couldn't take it and dropped to foundations.
Right now I'm in degree. 1st year 2nd semester.
And thinking back, I've only been making my parents worry about me. I've never done anything to make them proud of me, to be able to flaunt in front of others that, their child, is someone successful enough in any phase of his life that would make people envy them. All I've done is making them worry for my own sadness and pain, even about my relationship stuff.
I'm sorry mummy and papa, like damn sorry. I've been letting you guys down over and over again.
I promise I'll really work my ass off, and give you guys the best life you can ever think of, in the near future. If you ever read my blog, I want you to stay healthy, and ready, for me to pamper you 2.
I love you two.
PSLE : 200/300
My mum was really happy when I told her the first digit was "2".
She was really worried when I got like 167/300 for the prelims and hired every other private tutor for me just to get me into a better school.
O levels : 29 points.
By then, from a prestigious primary sch, I've ended up somewhere even more "prestigious", the first president school, Yusof ishak sec. I was in express all the way np, was good in some subjects but never hardworking enough to pull up my grades. Getting arrogant once the teacher praise me and stop revising work was my forte. Ending up as one of the last few in the report card was a common thing for me too. So with 29 points, I ended in higher nitec, ITE Dover.
ITE Dover GPA : 2.8
Mum forced me to retake my Os thus I didn't really care about ITE studies. The last year I scored exceptionally well but that's all my GPA could go to. Found my new love in ITE, dragonboat. Spent almost my entire 2years in it and neglecting my parents and all, though they've been supporting me so hard and well, trying to tell me what's important and what's not. Yet I went for passion when I could research on how to shorten my study route, which is, overseas studies.
NS Rank : private
Tore my ligament, went for operation, made my parents worried again. No rank, can't make my parents proud. Bring home low income due to lousy education certificate and this stupid injury. Got office hours, had a girlfriend. Everyday after work would be either girlfriend or dragonboat coaching. Then again, I left my parents to their own, like I'm the worst child ever.
Overseas studies : Canada : stopped halfway.
Due to a certain reason and I wasted my parents money, effort and time to get me into that school and going to temples to pray for me and all.
Melbourne : failed my first semester
Cause I am from ITE, my math and physics aren't that strong to start off with and uni bombarded me with calculus. I couldn't take it and dropped to foundations.
Right now I'm in degree. 1st year 2nd semester.
And thinking back, I've only been making my parents worry about me. I've never done anything to make them proud of me, to be able to flaunt in front of others that, their child, is someone successful enough in any phase of his life that would make people envy them. All I've done is making them worry for my own sadness and pain, even about my relationship stuff.
I'm sorry mummy and papa, like damn sorry. I've been letting you guys down over and over again.
I promise I'll really work my ass off, and give you guys the best life you can ever think of, in the near future. If you ever read my blog, I want you to stay healthy, and ready, for me to pamper you 2.
I love you two.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
How the universe connects
Met at 10 in a spicy country
Same place for exchange studies.
Fall in love and 's tgt ever since the first meet up.
Tell me about fate.
是你的就是你的,跑不掉的.
Same place for exchange studies.
Fall in love and 's tgt ever since the first meet up.
Tell me about fate.
是你的就是你的,跑不掉的.
Puppet skills
It's hard to master. But once you do it right, you move them towards what you want them to be and everything just seen like its normal, like it's fated.
Though it may seem like a lonely world you are living in. At least, you can make one move on, even if it harms your reputation but it doesn't matter.
Repetitive scenes will tire one out until one decides to give up on something not as important though one wants to keep it with oneself, and time will gradually make one forget everything, one's sadness, mistakes, selfishness and you.
Though it may seem like a lonely world you are living in. At least, you can make one move on, even if it harms your reputation but it doesn't matter.
Repetitive scenes will tire one out until one decides to give up on something not as important though one wants to keep it with oneself, and time will gradually make one forget everything, one's sadness, mistakes, selfishness and you.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Lies
EVERYTHING, LIES!
Your words say something, your actions another.
Done and over.
Once again, I've put in something real, to receive something that cannot be held on.
Your words say something, your actions another.
Done and over.
Once again, I've put in something real, to receive something that cannot be held on.
Vent
Every motherfucking piece of shit on blogger.
I can't sleep. No mood for school. NOTHING!
Why do you have to ruin me. WHY
I can't sleep. No mood for school. NOTHING!
Why do you have to ruin me. WHY
真令人失望
You said you love me.
You kept telling me to wait and give me hope.
You made us feel like a couple, doing everything that a couple does.
Before I leave you said you love me and all.
You don't wanna think about it when I pop the question.
Do you know how painful it is to not be able to tell the world I love you?
And you expect me to STFD and watch things unfold.
And you say I'm being very mean to you. Why not you tell him about everything we have done together and see how that cunt reacts? Then you'll know who is more mean to you and all.
You just don't know how much you've hurt me.
Even though I still want to..
but..
F this shit.
I'm done w r/s stuff
You kept telling me to wait and give me hope.
You made us feel like a couple, doing everything that a couple does.
Before I leave you said you love me and all.
You don't wanna think about it when I pop the question.
Do you know how painful it is to not be able to tell the world I love you?
And you expect me to STFD and watch things unfold.
And you say I'm being very mean to you. Why not you tell him about everything we have done together and see how that cunt reacts? Then you'll know who is more mean to you and all.
You just don't know how much you've hurt me.
Even though I still want to..
but..
F this shit.
I'm done w r/s stuff
Saturday, July 07, 2012
The goodbye process
Is never easy. Let's start by hardening the heart.
I really don't know if I should be happy or not.. That you can slowly let me go, or rather, suddenly let me go just like that.
It's just really sad to know that 我原来一点都不大重要。只是没有他的时候你才把我当宝，他一出现我就变成草。
But I guess.. It's really time, to face it. To face the facts and drop all hopes.
I really don't know if I should be happy or not.. That you can slowly let me go, or rather, suddenly let me go just like that.
It's just really sad to know that 我原来一点都不大重要。只是没有他的时候你才把我当宝，他一出现我就变成草。
But I guess.. It's really time, to face it. To face the facts and drop all hopes.
Thursday, July 05, 2012
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