Throughout my life, I realize I've accomplished nothing to make my parents proud. Let's talk about something big, something worth talking about, like for example, results.
PSLE : 200/300
My mum was really happy when I told her the first digit was "2".
She was really worried when I got like 167/300 for the prelims and hired every other private tutor for me just to get me into a better school.
O levels : 29 points.
By then, from a prestigious primary sch, I've ended up somewhere even more "prestigious", the first president school, Yusof ishak sec. I was in express all the way np, was good in some subjects but never hardworking enough to pull up my grades. Getting arrogant once the teacher praise me and stop revising work was my forte. Ending up as one of the last few in the report card was a common thing for me too. So with 29 points, I ended in higher nitec, ITE Dover.
ITE Dover GPA : 2.8
Mum forced me to retake my Os thus I didn't really care about ITE studies. The last year I scored exceptionally well but that's all my GPA could go to. Found my new love in ITE, dragonboat. Spent almost my entire 2years in it and neglecting my parents and all, though they've been supporting me so hard and well, trying to tell me what's important and what's not. Yet I went for passion when I could research on how to shorten my study route, which is, overseas studies.
NS Rank : private
Tore my ligament, went for operation, made my parents worried again. No rank, can't make my parents proud. Bring home low income due to lousy education certificate and this stupid injury. Got office hours, had a girlfriend. Everyday after work would be either girlfriend or dragonboat coaching. Then again, I left my parents to their own, like I'm the worst child ever.
Overseas studies : Canada : stopped halfway.
Due to a certain reason and I wasted my parents money, effort and time to get me into that school and going to temples to pray for me and all.
Melbourne : failed my first semester
Cause I am from ITE, my math and physics aren't that strong to start off with and uni bombarded me with calculus. I couldn't take it and dropped to foundations.
Right now I'm in degree. 1st year 2nd semester.
And thinking back, I've only been making my parents worry about me. I've never done anything to make them proud of me, to be able to flaunt in front of others that, their child, is someone successful enough in any phase of his life that would make people envy them. All I've done is making them worry for my own sadness and pain, even about my relationship stuff.
I'm sorry mummy and papa, like damn sorry. I've been letting you guys down over and over again.
I promise I'll really work my ass off, and give you guys the best life you can ever think of, in the near future. If you ever read my blog, I want you to stay healthy, and ready, for me to pamper you 2.
I love you two.
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