start getting used to..

independence
solo lifestyle

because..

I've to be outta spore for 4yrs :) high chance atm.

For the mahjong lovers. You know what kinda 'win' is this yeah?

It's the damn hard, 13 yao

And I did it. holy shit, I zhi mo almost half of it at the early stage of the game.
Super high, until now 5am, I just come home, still high LOLOL!
damn lucky OR WAD

I swear to you, my heart beat like crazy everytime i pick a new tile.

Kk, must sleep, tmr got outing. Nights! :D

Engineering or Law

HCNY btw :)

[Edit]
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Even my dad says so, the CNY atmosphere just isn't there anymore.
it just seems so dull somehow.

hmmm

Final Fantasy VIII Squall Leonheart
Cool huh :D [ just being random ]

I need just a lil boost to my confidence to continue my route
because I am not giving up but im just too tired.
I have a mixture of..
1) I dont want to care anymore.
2) But I still am partially worried.
3) Still wanna show my concern.
4) And still gonna harden myself like metapod
5) But always fail to do so.
Save me yo. I'm drowning in this pool of, emotions.

Mest - Drawing Board

I can recall only this one time
This kind of control the girl had on my mind
I've fallen deep, I can't get out
I've never acted this way before

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but she won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before

Feeling alone, and she's on my mind
Try to erase all the pain from that time
She's breaking up, and I'm breakin down
Now I'm headed out of this fucked up town

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but the band won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before in your head

So love me, so I can be myself again
Now hate me, so things seem normal in my head
I'm trying to break away this ball and chain
So hate me, so things seem normal in my head
Things seem normal in my head

I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day, but she won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words youve heard a million times before

In your head
I am dead

next chapter of life. gogogounder that shimmering light
that angelic look you have
melts my heart and weaken the legs
despite whatsoever movement you do
have a grace within somehow
I tried to reach out, but you were always drifting further
to something else
things are too early to say
you may turn back
or go and never come back

'like letting go my favourite golden arrowana into sungei buloh [ OKAY UNWANTED PHRASE ]'

I'm utterly cornered right now.
My career wise, I have no base and I need to work hard to get somewhere.
Money 's seriously very impt, but how.
I need to plan out my route, to carve out that success route of mine.
stress you know, with my colour deficency and my machine gun mouth which talks alot of logic, I have 2 routes to choose. HMM HMM!!

anws, i've passed out. hurray. hehe
and my flame for you still's burning, so too bad :P

like the sun moon and stars, watching over you unconditionally.

Life route's rather bumpy and rocky recently.
Guess I'd need to becareful bout the choices I make hmm.

Well I've to go for CNY shopping.
Just updating, Thursday's my POPO!!
Hahaha!! Hurray :) Finally out of camp!

And I am still here, pending and watching out, for you.

dishonesty

my x-ray eyes.
my interrogation techniques.
my own instincts.
my sense of security.

tells me that you're truthful.
doubting you, was the stupidest mistake ever.

UNWANTED POST

If I hadn't appear in your life, would you be much happier?
If I hadn't do stunts in your life, would you be better off living an easy life with none of my stupid suprises.
If I hadn't come and pick you up after whatever you have, will you 'breathe' easier?
If I hadn't told you I love you, would you treat me as a fool all the way.
If I didnt attend the blind dates, would you ask me out at all.
If I always give in to him, would you want it that way?
If I throw away my pride just for you, will you even care?

I wouldn't even give a f to try so hard, regardless on expletives, money expenditure, prioritise free time for you, if i didn't even cherish/treasure you.

All I get is, ' at least I met you for dinner today '.
Then you're off with someone whom doesn't cherish you until he lost you. Because.. nvm.

If I walk away, will you even, least try to hold me because I've somehow rooted some importance into you.

or would you just don't care and walk off with him tonight..

Labels : IFs brings you a million routes.

Follow the wind, run it through your mind, all the regrets, be satisfied and move on, unravelling ur life's next chapter. Go.

Good life starts only when you stop wanting a better one.

and my good life starts with you, how bout you?

Confidence, 's something I never lacked of.
But the words that you show, the meaning unrevealed, the overwhelming insecurity, 's like someone delivering a blow right at my heart. That pain of confusion, lost.

am I even important to you to start off with.

Labels : Your priority.