Hesitation

I typed, and backspaced.

Thoughts flowed into me, if she wanted me all along, she would have looked for me even after that.
Or should I consider time for recovery and stop being so demanding?

I typed and backspaced again.

I realize that even if I were to ask her that if you still want to talk to me, it would be me forcing her to talk to me.
It would be forcing.

I typed and backspaced yet again.
And I tell myself, it is pointless. I suddenly realize that I should stop hoping even, I should believe what everyone say and that this is over.
But I know inside me, I still love her so much that as long as she forgives me, I can still fight for her. I just want that mofo out of the pictur firste.