The wind blew me a message~

Before getting to my self-reflection

I want to whine about "it".

My operation was done without making me fall asleep, just numb.

Hows that! 4 @#$% teeth removed at the same time, same area.

Eyes covered, the operation started.

Violent tools were used for the wasting of my gums and extracting of those 4 bastards!

My head was like.. headache? and its throbbing.

Its just not a good feeling.

[To ellis : You lucky they make you sleep before operating]

The numbness wear off after 10mins and..

I SWEAR-ED infront of bro and mum. The pain was excruiating [ spelling correct?! ]

and it last for 3 hours before the pain subsided.

Bleeding still, till now, 327am, already 12 hours and it haven't stopped.

Been spitting,swallowing,mixing food and drinks with blood..

Well, my blood's yummy :X

Anyways! Self-reflection.. AGAIN~~

I sat at a corner and think.. twice? thrice?

I always find it such a waste to give up..

Not even a meteor shower, tsunami, typhoon could make me confirm my final decision

As I read her blog

she pends for the guy's message.

Well, I hope this guy brings her happiness to her life.

It ain't some "WAH, Andy Hero siaa" thingy..

I'm always the one initiating..

and short replies were given

[I admit, without her, I wouldn't come up with so much silly ideas, write such mushy stuffs, plan on how to suprise her, look for flowers that suits her name and laugh at my own creative-ness and thoughts on how to please a person]

But its just that clinging on makes me feel so miserable..

so, I find it no point and my decision is made..

I place this burden down and carry on with my journey.

Maybe someday, I'll come back and find it..

But definitely not anytime soon..

I let it all go~

[Joanna, if you see this,thanks for enlightening me. To you, it may just be some crap advice that you give me. But! To me, they're words of wisdom. Haha, I owe you one ;)]

This time, I do things for myself, for my future..

Whether I can get .... back or not..

I let fate decide.

Previously, I do things, due to movtivation and inspiration that comes from the thought of her whenever I'm stuck.. [ Haha! Shes sucha GREAT IMPACT on me ]

But this time, I'll use my wits and determination to subdue anything that comes in my way.

[My friends : Maybe you guys can just stop bringing up her name, its much appreciated]

Big fat world out there, Here I come!

The nurse at the dental clinic's pretty :X

TEEHEE!