Will I, in the end, study in spore after NS, or go overseas?!
Anws, tmr will kinda be a big day for me, new intakes coming in. Gotta be a firm coach and start off with a good speech. HAHA!

And, in 3 more months, April season, will be my first year as a coach for CWDB. I wonder How will I fare for this up coming june race.

Damn, getting all excited LOL

Since I've time now, I shall blog for abit before I sleep.

Kinda guilty MC-ing so much nowadays. But the truth is I really got thing to MC what. Haha hope my bosses don't purposely pick on me.

Anyways, its a whole new year, and I'm turning 21 this year.
I still gotta work on what do I really want for my career. Maybe landscaping. HAHA! Thats just what my father tell me to try out. Maybe I'll give it a goal since my brother's gonna pick up law studies.

Well, CW's been a headache for me, a real headache. Guess I need to cut away all the ties I have w the rowers when 5pm hits every mon and wed. This way then the team can have a tad bit more disicipline and a whole lot easier for me to coach.

KK, this is what I actually wanted to type right now.

To my friend, Tan Xue Yao.
I still haven't got over what happened to you.
I still don't wanna believe it actually happened to you.
But it did but I am still.. living in self denial at times.
Sometimes I just wish we could've spent more time together, our whole CW pioneer batch.
But still, we actually still, have a sense of belonging in CW. Our whole pioneer batch, I mean most of it lah.
So, heres my resolve, you, rest in peace and hurry up reincarnate into another family and hint me or pioneer CW pple that you're alright and safe, WHILE I, will do this, cause its the only thing that its related to you and me and the rest of us. I will bring up CW's name, and let it etch in everyone's heart that CW is strong, and will be even stronger. I will not fail this time as a coach and you, rest in peace.

Thats all I have to say, needa crash. Takecare all pioneer CW pple, we will meet again. :)

why..
the tinge of irritance, when you answer the call.
why..
that doubt and questions when you hear my questions.
why..
my concerns are nothing but irritance.
why..
you have to always explode so quickly before accessing the situation.

why..

Life's just a spin huh. You never know what's gonna happen after that.

Its always like that isn't it.

you can't find someone to appreciate your whatever you wanna show off.
you will find another to let him/her notice it.
you chance upon a particular person.
you let him/her blend into that interest you have.

Then you piss another one off.

Then things will become so dark.
Lies cover one after another.
Is it wrong to be truthful sometimes.
My whole life I've been entertaining people.
And now i just got fucked entertaining another.

fucking hell, I shall take a day to calm myself I guess.

The asshole has let all his readers, if he ever had any, down.

Just couldn't get into the mood nor have the time to blog even.

Recently life's just.. been abit hectic and I have this ' I wanna laze at home and do nothing ' attitude going around me. I don't know why, maybe its just the end of the year was spoilt due to the holidays secondary school/ITE gave me.

Fishing's been my new hobby nowadays. It gives me a thrill, not a cheap thrill but a thrill thats always carved within me whenever I see the tip of the rod shake or even a big pull. But it dies down if the fish didn't get onto the hook but oh wells, theres always another chance.

Okay if you ever get to see me, please dont complain how disgusting my leg is, nor how ugly the pimple on my nose is. The pimple on my nose happens every end of the year, its like the 3rd time already. Wtf, how I wish it would go away so I can regain the handsome me.

And the disgusting part bout my leg? Its the mosquito bites I got from woodland checkpoint vicinity and Ubin fishing. I have at least.. AT LEAST 40 bites on my legs and hands. Tamade, and brad/mh got nothing. I tanker or what sia LOL.

Life's pretty much the same for me besides the additional hobby.

I am still a coach for my dragonboat team.

I am still working at my base.

I am still stressed bout what I wanna do after 9 months = ORD.

I got my driving licence already :D

I am getting fat because my knee wouldn't heal and theres so many things I can't do just because this fucking knee always start to pass intel to me, telling me its in pain and should stop doing whatever I'm doing.

I miss playing hardcore basketball.

I miss swimming sprinting with freestyle.

I miss jumping around crazily without any fear of my knee giving way.

I miss sprinting and jogging around freely.

Sometimes I wanna live in denial and wish that time will turn and my knee ligaments never tore.

Sigh, theres just so much I still wanna do but this obstacle is blocking my every next move.

Am I just blind not to see another route open for my future.

Or am I just plain suay.

Okay, time for the last part of my blogging session.

Of course I wouldn't forget my girlfriend, my dear, my love.

I still wanna go out with you and watch movie/fly kite/picnic/play basketball/dinner.

But let me get over the laze within me.

I love you my girlfriend :)

p.s. dont hate my hobbies leh >< HAHA *hugs*

her face never fails to make me smile huh? :)

The pictures will do the talking. Most of it I mean :D

Yepyep, I'm summoning kites, its a spell my I learnt at Wudang Sect. Kite-summon. ;P

Yep, my love prepared for me, fried rice for the picnic :D With alot of food and my favourite .. ROAST PORK KEKEZXZ

Most dope picture I'd say :D

Okay, I think my face's damn fail here ROFL

My girls celebrated with me for my birthday :D Everything here 's from 26th october till recently, 28th september. Sorry for the lack of updates, I'm so busy with my life I can barely manage my health/friends/lovelife/family. DAMN, I need sunwukong to teach me how to 72 bian bian bian!!!!!!

Ps. I shall post it here too, Happy Birthday Love, damn belated one on the blog although I did wish u face to face right on 12 :P!

Pss. Sentosa, lets gogogogo! :D

Psss. the road beyond will be tough, lets hold hands and move through it.

Pssss. TP on 12/11/09! WOOOOOOOOO 1 SHOT PASS LAI AH MAI BANG!

BRB, bathe time :D

28th August
Fish & Co, seafood platter for 2, but I ate 1 1/2 O_O!!! Too bad the prawns ain't that fresh, if not I can see zhong chun mei :P! HAHA

That's my epic face for that day..
And so did love. HAHAHAHA!! Hilarious, I love this picture so much now it's my deskstop wallpaper! :P!! HAHAHA!

29th August

Went to my love's place after work at kallang and accompanied her to shopping. Went to eat Big O and I had some 'dirty rice' that cost 15 bucks O_O! 3 pieces of duck meat and fried rice with mushroom. TIO CONNED OR WHAT!! HAHAHA! But the mudpie was good, rum and raisin. hehe. Well, experience > money :D

Waited for crystal to end her work and continued shopping, send her home, then my turn to go home :)

30th August

Same old routine, just that this time, it's damian's birthday. I felt a sense of.. accomplishment you know, when I see him really really happy when people give him presents and have dinner with him. He keep going around telling people how happy is he today, even though a birthday is just another day, but.. you know, that tinge within me, just feel so good :)

SO DONT ALWAYS SAY I BULLY DAMIAN, I TAKE CARE OF HIM ONE OKAY!

But I kinda regret not going to play lan with him. He was kinda sad I guess, but think he'd forget everything once he start the lan session. HAHA!

lets skipp.....

2nd September

Quote ' I feel the same breeze, walk the same route, breathe the same air, and now it's twenty, one step towards adulthood, losing my teen life, as the burden on my shoulders get heavier. '

Took leave today and slept till a good 11am :)

Met my love for dinner at mayim, with alot of gay pictures so I ain't sharing it here. MAYBE SHE MIGHT POST IT AT HER BLOG, so yeah.. -.- HAHA!

Then headed over to take my team, it's kinda depressing to see the numbers, guess it's just the exam period. Haha. But the girls actually turn up, some of em, with a cake to celebrate my birthday. I'm really touched and suprised. Forgive me if I said I'm not, because someone's presence really spoilt it mahhhhh HAHA!

But yes, thanks alot, I never had a birthday suprise, with so many pple celebrating my birthday for so many years. It made me .. felt younger, even though I leveled up O_O!

But training ain't gonna slack cause today's my birthday.

I still gave em trainings that're so tough that they were screaming their asses off just a few hours ago in the gym.

I decided to go coaching, regardless of it's my birthday. Because I'm 20, I should know where my priority is, my responsibility, to train up the team, that's under me. No matter how I try to slip away from work to go down to coach, I'll do it, because fate brought em to me, so I will, and I MUST do my best, to give em the best.

Honestly speaking, not all of em are of A class calibre sportsmen. All of em get injured so easily by all the weights and exercises and some of em, no matter how hard they push, they just can't get it right. Some of em, 'this is not me being mean' is abit slower and repeating the same things over and over again sometimes just can't get into their mind, some of em, no matter how much I motivate em, they just can't show me their firepower and their will to do better and better.

So what, I'm their coach, so no matter how hard things might be for me, no matter how many times they repeat the same mistakes like cannot focus during training, cannot absorb my words, cannot produce out an inner beast, cannot train the way I want em to train..

I will always do my best to lead em, my way.

Remember what I always say to you today, if you guys ever read my blog.. ' people have 3 or more years to prepare, we only have 1-2, the only way? to your LIMITS every training, and when the coach never gives up on you, you do not, NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF '

Time to rest, goodnight world, I'm 20 years old WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, TAMADE OLD ALREADY LAH!!

P.S. I really want my team to win, under my coaching, not because of fame, but to earn that feeling of satisfactory.. the feeling that I can lead people to victory, people that come from different places, to become as one, and inscript it into their hearts and minds, that this part of their life, is the most memorable, to me and to them..

P.S.S. I love you SIM YANYI! You really made my day. love you muchmuchdeepdeepmanymany :D

P.S.S.S. I hope my dad will buy for me an Alienware CPU and a new router and upgrade my internet speed and buy me a car once I pass my driving lessons. :P

P.S.S.S.S. Okay I know I'm damn loh soh, IM 20!! Time to be more responsible in everything that I do.

One of my fantasy, my adrenaline, my motivation, my concentration

That's his mom when he won the finals, though we didn't see his mum yesterday when he won again. He didn't seem very happy but yeah.. I hope his mum's fine :D

Presenting..

My idol.. n.Die_jaedong.

Current team : Hwaseung Oz

Current status : the player with the youngest age, using 1 and the half years to chase up the legend SlAyErs_bOxEr. A legend in short.

Game played : Starcraft
Occupation : Pro-gamer.

APM ( Action Per Minute ) : 600 + maximum = 1 second 10clicks/keyboard movements.

Race : Zerg

Recent league won : OSL , 22/8/09, Champion.

Andy's respect for him : utmost.. forever respectable.

My speech :

Not that I am a childish geek/nerd that plays computer games or whatsoever. It's just that this feat.. that these ordinary human can do.. is really , beyond godlike -.-

I wish I can be something like that..

And seriously.. he amazes me everytime he comes back from a slump, aka a loss streak that never stretches beyond 4, his face will be totally different, focused, eyes on fire, you can see him frowning as he play, those eyes of his, the attitude of his, is something that everyone should learn and apply in every aspect of their life. Never give it up.

To training, *salutes jaedong*

LEE JAEDONG FIGHTING!

P.S. Im his fanboy.

P.P.S Because he've done something that alot cannot achieve. :)

P.P.P.S This is not a boyfriend-snatcher compared to dota :P!

28th July

Met love at Vivo with her stuck at Macs doing something secretive, so.. I also went to do something secretive, it's kinda last minute, getting her a card/coach :P/and what she wanted afew weeks back, don't know whether if she was prompting me for that sunflower, but yeah, I got it hahaha!!
Ahem ahem, lets start..
It's me and love's day out after work/school. Oh oh, I forgot, happy second anniversary to my love :) [ sorry man, the post's kinda late, like .. 5days? O_O! ] Haha!! Now now, lets take a look at the first epic pictures of the skillful photographer, andy low guo hao! Yesyes, that face look damn yau gwee right, eat only :X HAHAHA!

Idk why I did that, maybe I just love the present she bought me?! Bah, I love anything she buy for me :D

Dine over at sushi tei, the noodles suck, the udon's okay? the tempura's nice! the chawanmushi's better, but of course, we must never forget that!!! THAT CLAM!! Hotate 's the best right love? *winkwink* :P
OKAY, IF YOU GOT COMMENT ON MY EYES PLEASE KEEP IT TO YOURSELF OKAY?!
[I hope you love the presents and enjoyed your day dumdum :)]

31august

Love came over and see doctor with me to get her 'bai nian cure bu liao' the illness, cured :P

Haha, told her the doctor's good, feel her pulse only, he can just say all her synptoms out. Then we headed home, I bathed and we went over to play pool. Wooooo!!

Kena penalty for not bringing my card = 2dollars.

Dear sign up for card = 2 dollars.

Why of all places I choose this kind of place need membership one -.-

Haha, right, you guys just look at the picture..

Understand right? NEVER.. NEVER EVER GIVE SIM YANYI ANY .. whatever objects?! When she loses/unhappy, she'll hit u with whatever she have.. thats a snapshot before I got hit by the cue and almost got 1 eye blinded. O_O

Violent.. damn damn violent O_O!!
But that noob actually drawed with me 2-2!! Pro or what ^_^ HAHAHA!

Well, long day tmr again, work and training. Time to hit the bed.

P.s. I love you dumdum :)

P.s.s Please takecare of your back and health.

Night fellas.

Yesyes, after 7 x 7 = 49 days of hard trainings, even tougher than dragonboat, I taught out a legendary basketballer, even less tanned than kobe byrant, even more shorter than kobe bryant and even more noisy than kobe byrant, because of her whines, HAHAHA but yea.. we present you.. I mean, Andy's coporation presents you :

Yes, SIM YANYI, No.26, pro basketballer, very violent also O_O. why? cause she like to throw ball at me, her coach, at my right knee summore!! O_O!

AIYO! Tell you how many trillion times already, shoot ball that time, the hands with the fingers, just press down only, why.. what is that finger work over there, very fail you know O_O
And you know what ladies and gentlemen? she gave me an excuse going : cause dancing that time my fingers must always like that. AYE AH BANG LA DEY, WE BASKETBALL EU KNOWSXZX? NO DANCE DANCE LA NAAAAAABEHHHHHHH HAHAHAHA!!

OKAYOKAY lets cut short shall we? We'll end her basketball training with this last photo right below us *winks winks* The worst shot of the day, jump with 1 leg, land with 1 leg, dunno why the other leg must shootup? then the finger-work.. SIGHHHH NEXT~! HAHAHA!

the coach and the student, both very satisfied after the training, me satisfied with her excuses and she satisfied cause she thought she can use her dance excuse to cover cover for her very ' Beautiful finger-work-while-releasing-the-ball ' technique!

LOLOLOL :X okay.. enough of bullying this fella O_O.

Oh wait, I'm not done yet. I have this friend, named pak. He played basketball with me since.. I think 3-4 years back I guess. Just came back from dunno which country after furthering his studies elsewhere.. yeah..
He just became my girl's new bestfriend? O_O HAHAHAHAHAHA :X:X
He is the guy whithout the top and like slanting backwards one. Yan's new bestfriend KEKEKZXZ
GOODNIGHT, tmr got work and please please, forgive me for my broken english, I don't feel like talking... properly today :P

In the midst of getting cured :)
yes yes, very painful when he put on the spot that accidentally triggers the nerve or something that sends a flow of shock and burn throughout your whole body.

Maybe this is why, I am so 'crazy' at times, bye bye liquor, I am self-high :P

This is a start, although it kinda sucks, but here I come D60, you'll be my first collection hehe :D

Time to save up.

Now to begin my blogging.

In time, we see the past unwind..

Jokers trying to joke at every single thing, making emself really.. a serious bad joke.

Deluding themself and trying so hard to make themselves look new and good.

Talking without a single clue sometimes what they're talking..
I pity em, not that they can't stand up proper.. but how can they face reality in the outside world. Maybe they can survive with that ??/hr but I guess they're forever worth that amount.

And...

It's really time for me to change for the better. To give her and me a better life, to start prospecting in what I really want in life even though I still have totally no idea after O levels.

Time to up up and upgrade!

and dig up where my talent lies, jiayou!

D, takecare yo! :D

This post is to backtrack even more.

First of all, fuck my laziness and over confidence, make me fail my FTT evaluation only.

But it helped me reminisince my past when i headed over to CDANS for lunch.
Remembering the time when I was fat and chubby and learning swimming survivor course from my instructor, gary with 2 lifeguards over there, one's called the facial man and other, looks very robust to me since I was young. Everytime after training I will go to eat my favourite chicken wing, definitely, and fish fillet and go into the airconidition-ed play ground and play with my cousins. We'll do that until my brother and my cousin's sisters finish their trainings then head off for zhi char, it's a every sunday routine.

Just now when I went back, I din't see gary, but I saw the robust lifeguard, he stared at me for awhile then i said ' hello hello '
HAHA , he actually remembered me somehow, you know how long I haven't been there? 6 years, damn it sure is a long long time ago. We chatted for awhile then my meal came. Taste like 6 years ago I'd say. Then I bought a fillet haha! After that I went to find the facial lifeguard, haha! He too remembered me, saying, ' you're the fat fat chubby chubby guy always with your other partner one right! ' haha but..

he ask another questions really fast .. *takes off his shades* ' I old already right '.

Damn, 6 years and he really age alot alot man... time really flies huh.
Remember thats when I started learning swimming, and started my vuglarities. I scolded fuck daringly, thought it was damn bloody cool and guess what, gary heard it me. He asked me to stand on top of the stand where those competitive swimmers stand to get ready, but I had to stand straight and cross my arms and pull my ears. No more swimming lesson for me. Felt damn paiseh, but I guess thats where I develop my super thick skin :P
I also remember he always flirt with all the aunties. I hated him for that you know.. but at the same time, inspired to be a lifeguard from him. Cause he always look really cool, wait, I mean, a man whom can glide among water, survive on the water, independent .. 's a cool man :D
Maybe thats where I developed my seasports fetish and now.. I was ITE west's swimming team, winning 2 silver and 1 bronze, and currently a dragonboat lifeguard.

Damn.. what memories, time really flies uh. hahaha!! So nostalgic!

This is a post, to backtrack some stuffs.

Guys and girls from CW..
From those whom's leaving the team..
To those who're staying to build up the team still.

I, as a 2 month old coach, am really proud of all you.

From the girls, sacrificing their every bit and mince of energy to drive out all that they have..
from newbies as they joined in mid april or was it late april?
from joining as a sport and never knowing that this sport is so competitive..
To what I'm proud of, the bloodline of ' never give up, push it all out '.

As for the guys, I seriously am proud of you guys, I never knew your strength and determination was there. Seriously, your boat flew at the start and was leading straight for almost 500m?
Additionally, I gave you all a new kind of starts that I seriously/honestly, planned it out last minute. You guys actually did quite well with zairong, a coxswian that never rowed since i dont know when and don, puny fella but still gave his very best.

Seriously, <-- I know I've been using this word like alot of times but.. I am proud, very.
And if you don't mind, lets start chapter 2 of our life, our next aim, regatta, together, our new journey begins, our new story unfold :)

This may suck but , I still think I'm not that good as a coach so..
I promise I'll do better as a coach, promised.

To my love, happy 1st :)

After meeting love at my house, giving her a 'never gonna forget 1st 'gifts'', we headed down to causeway for dinner at jack's place. She said I'm stupid by lighting the candle when theres a light besides us. EH BUT, LOMANTIC LOMANTIC MAHHHHH HAHAHA!

Went over to arcade, but with no pictures, and a broken down HOUSE OF THE DEAD 4 #^@#$%$#^&@#%. Always wanted to play that with that dumdum.

So we played hmm, 2 rounds of daytona, 2 rounds of guitar hero and 1 mini virtual rider. HAHAHA. Brightened her day I hope?!?

I hope I gave her a great memory to keep for that day :)

NEXT~!

SDBF 's over. Kinda disappointed in the team's result honestly.
From the old people's stubborn mindset to the lack of drive.

Honestly, I'm quite happy for kokann, he finally got what he wanted. But haha, oh wells, thats that. Just a small part of it.

And whether if we're merging or not is up to him, mr lim already gave the green light. hmm, we shall pend. :D

Oh wells, I GOT QUARANTINED FOR 3 DAYS JUST BECAUSE I WENT TO SEE DOCTOR AND HE EXCLAIMED..

Doc : " WHAT YOU WORK AT BRANI BASE, I'M GONNA GIVE YOU 3 DAYS MC "

Andy : " But i really okay, just want a day rest and some medicine to cure my phlegm and mucus "

Doc : " Ya, like I'll believe " LOLOL WTF!!

Staying at home and craving like an addict for youknowwhat is such a torture!

I shall go bathe!!!

I'm like a really happy boy you know why?

Stopping when one feels the danger of getting into a further danger, makes me more confident of allowing more, more freedom, more.

Thats one of it.

And the other?
Lets just phrase it this way, honesty and trust 's involved.
Thus, I'm a happy boy :D

Cmon CW, work harder, race's coming YOOOOOOO!!!!

P.S. stupid weather, makes me have dry throat, painful when swallow, bad cough, phlegm! Please go away all of you, illness-es!!!

Sidetrack ( also ) : please be okay :(

P.S. my knee hurts, both now. FUCK.

IF you'd know your love's life will end at the age of 40, if you knew that you'll become a lonely fella after 40, with 3 kids and you have to bring them up and slog for another 20 years of life, would you 've fallen for your other half in the first place.

I would've, because its called true love, and those who oppose my thoughts are deemed shallow.
Because they just don't understand the concept, of love.

I'm thinking, that my life ahead 's gonna be a fruitful and enjoyable one hehehehe :D
All those regret, all those guilt, all those past, are gonna be converted into scars and tattoos, and stay on that side of my life..

Now, here goes nothing~! I'm coming for you, new life :D!