Immaturity.. kills.
My post has nothing to do with the title.
The past few days has been a really headache for me, thinking and stressing over lotsa stuffs.
But now, I'm really a happy guy, letting go of everything that I should.
I'm creating all the goals that I want, and keeping all the friends I have, those that are worth it.
The only obstacle is " the way to attain the goals " , nothing else.
September, will be my next step to a new chapter in life.
Forgive and forget those that offended me.
Remember, doesnt mean that a breakup, is a bad thing andy.
Don't forget that concept in life.
He/she might become my buddy once again, but, time will do the telling, guts and thickskin will bring people to a new level, forget the pride of ur own, put it down, and earn respect/trust.
Thats what I've to say :)
AND TO MY ALUMNI FUCKERS..
MONDAY IS A SUPER HAPPY DAY I TELL YOU HAHAHAHA!!!!
IF YOU DO CHECK OUT MY BLOG, PLEASE PEND FOR MONDAY, EVEN AH LIM WILL SMILE LIKE FUCKING NO TMR I TELL YOU HEHEHEHE!!!!!!
Labels : esctatic :D
Friday, August 29, 2008
The brittle-ness, of my heart.
She said, its a sooner or later thing.
She gave me the you deserve it feeling.
She showed me that she could live better off without me.
She made me a fool of this part of my life.
She really made a man cry.
She opened up to everyone else, EXCEPT ME.
I really wanna wreck havoc, somehow. But I dont know how.
Maybe, I'm gonna do this... even if the world hates me. I will do it..
She said, its a sooner or later thing.
She gave me the you deserve it feeling.
She showed me that she could live better off without me.
She made me a fool of this part of my life.
She really made a man cry.
She opened up to everyone else, EXCEPT ME.
I really wanna wreck havoc, somehow. But I dont know how.
Maybe, I'm gonna do this... even if the world hates me. I will do it..
Thursday, August 28, 2008
At the icecream store..
I threw away that icecream, cause it brought pain to my teeth.
Got attracted by a new flavour and doubts of whether it'll satisfy my likings occured.
It's like just after a few weeks when this thing came about.
I ponder over it, wondering if I should like..
go all out and try it.
or spend more time, researching before taking the next step.
Some people play it safe, some people gamble.
I do both, and most of the time, i do it right.
But when it comes to such stuffs, I get all messed up and flustered and confused.
Please, someone just help me. I really wanna give it a try, again.
Labels : courage-loss.
I threw away that icecream, cause it brought pain to my teeth.
Got attracted by a new flavour and doubts of whether it'll satisfy my likings occured.
It's like just after a few weeks when this thing came about.
I ponder over it, wondering if I should like..
go all out and try it.
or spend more time, researching before taking the next step.
Some people play it safe, some people gamble.
I do both, and most of the time, i do it right.
But when it comes to such stuffs, I get all messed up and flustered and confused.
Please, someone just help me. I really wanna give it a try, again.
Labels : courage-loss.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
I've yet, to walk through that storm..
continuing from the title..
but I'm current surviving on a piece of plank, that might not stay afloat or ensure my safety long.
At this part of my life, flashbacks like..
xiaopang and me, trying to keep team members in the team as we need a whole of 20men rowers.
Enrique jasper shengde, trying so hard to bring people into the team, after a year's wait.
Ronald, blending into everyone's life, asking why about their attendance and boosting their morale.
Zhenwei and Ahben always the joke in the team.
Xueyao was kinda MIA if i remember right, but he surely did scare me when i saw his tattoo for the firsttime, i knock onto him while rowing. hahaha!
And.. vermon, whoms a guy with too much commitment, but he still tries his best to come down, although mr lim is a kind of guy too much for him to take it.
Maybe its just too much ego within and one expect the upper level to understand his situation. But when u join a certain organisation, everyone expect you to do your best and bring up the team, not to just do it as a leisure hobby.. Because there're people within that worked so hard just wanting to win that medal/trophy/honour/glory/pride, that doesnt even cost a cent and doesn't helps ur future, but its a sense of satisfactory, that only some will understand..
Waiting for the chosen ones, are not easy, but why one doesn't wants to strive to make himself the chosen one , and do people proud..
Why wimp and hide and gain glory.. totally, the faggot way.
Anyways...
Then we got a bunch of potential but most aren't chosen ones.. a bunch that now, is gone..
Forgotten the roots, and never asked, why did he give up on us.
Lost the balls to stand up and plead him back to teach.
Went blindly, thinking that there's a new entrance to our future,
Got too obessed, never pondering why.. why.. was there this entrance.
The man, whom teaches, people to be independent, was too much for some people's ego to take.
It's either hes too childish, or he loves to run away from problems. [ If you couldn't take such remarks, why joined in the first place? , for your own benefit? for your own selfishness? for your aura or they call it that SEH that you're a dragonboater? ] Don't fuck with me over such cock.
Yes, I'm not saying doing that is wrong. But its wrong in my perspective. You can stand by ur side and argue ur rights, but let me tell you, in life, to attain this kind of understanding, is very easy. It's just whether you want or not. Whether you can open up to all these stuffs and feel what I've felt.
Of course, who doesn't wants to get praised.
But if you worked so hard and people scold you, you get so fedup and pissed off.
Why? My only reason is, you're fucked up, you're not working hard enough or smart enough.
Directly saying, you lack brains. Oh shit, I've gone overboard here. Time to stop this bombard.
Back to the subject, I've not really wasted these life in that sport.
I've learnt many things, things that I'll need in life. and found valuable people that will be part of my life, trustworthy people, that I'll rely and depend on, for now..
I did wonder, why did i go through dragonboat..
Is it because i love water sports?
or because i needed this mental power
or both,
cause my future, will require alot of such power, cause its really a tough road ahead, like..
my beginning, yes, its a storm ahead, I lost my boat, I'm on a plank, I'm panting heavily, I've a death ripple coming my way, that burns off everything that comes, into microscopic molecules. Ahead, the sky is dark but still visible, the typhoon's pressures, a glimpse of hope, even if its 0.0001% of success rate, I'll swim to that island, to keep my life, and carve something out, this life.
This life, my goal, my aim, its all gonna be at that island, I'll swim there, I'll pick up whatever thats useful to me and this life, I won't falter, I promise, giving up, is never an option anymore.
This life, andy, you'll push it, till u break, and force urself to wake, till u succeed.
Labels : awaken.
continuing from the title..
but I'm current surviving on a piece of plank, that might not stay afloat or ensure my safety long.
At this part of my life, flashbacks like..
xiaopang and me, trying to keep team members in the team as we need a whole of 20men rowers.
Enrique jasper shengde, trying so hard to bring people into the team, after a year's wait.
Ronald, blending into everyone's life, asking why about their attendance and boosting their morale.
Zhenwei and Ahben always the joke in the team.
Xueyao was kinda MIA if i remember right, but he surely did scare me when i saw his tattoo for the firsttime, i knock onto him while rowing. hahaha!
And.. vermon, whoms a guy with too much commitment, but he still tries his best to come down, although mr lim is a kind of guy too much for him to take it.
Maybe its just too much ego within and one expect the upper level to understand his situation. But when u join a certain organisation, everyone expect you to do your best and bring up the team, not to just do it as a leisure hobby.. Because there're people within that worked so hard just wanting to win that medal/trophy/honour/glory/pride, that doesnt even cost a cent and doesn't helps ur future, but its a sense of satisfactory, that only some will understand..
Waiting for the chosen ones, are not easy, but why one doesn't wants to strive to make himself the chosen one , and do people proud..
Why wimp and hide and gain glory.. totally, the faggot way.
Anyways...
Then we got a bunch of potential but most aren't chosen ones.. a bunch that now, is gone..
Forgotten the roots, and never asked, why did he give up on us.
Lost the balls to stand up and plead him back to teach.
Went blindly, thinking that there's a new entrance to our future,
Got too obessed, never pondering why.. why.. was there this entrance.
The man, whom teaches, people to be independent, was too much for some people's ego to take.
It's either hes too childish, or he loves to run away from problems. [ If you couldn't take such remarks, why joined in the first place? , for your own benefit? for your own selfishness? for your aura or they call it that SEH that you're a dragonboater? ] Don't fuck with me over such cock.
Yes, I'm not saying doing that is wrong. But its wrong in my perspective. You can stand by ur side and argue ur rights, but let me tell you, in life, to attain this kind of understanding, is very easy. It's just whether you want or not. Whether you can open up to all these stuffs and feel what I've felt.
Of course, who doesn't wants to get praised.
But if you worked so hard and people scold you, you get so fedup and pissed off.
Why? My only reason is, you're fucked up, you're not working hard enough or smart enough.
Directly saying, you lack brains. Oh shit, I've gone overboard here. Time to stop this bombard.
Back to the subject, I've not really wasted these life in that sport.
I've learnt many things, things that I'll need in life. and found valuable people that will be part of my life, trustworthy people, that I'll rely and depend on, for now..
I did wonder, why did i go through dragonboat..
Is it because i love water sports?
or because i needed this mental power
or both,
cause my future, will require alot of such power, cause its really a tough road ahead, like..
my beginning, yes, its a storm ahead, I lost my boat, I'm on a plank, I'm panting heavily, I've a death ripple coming my way, that burns off everything that comes, into microscopic molecules. Ahead, the sky is dark but still visible, the typhoon's pressures, a glimpse of hope, even if its 0.0001% of success rate, I'll swim to that island, to keep my life, and carve something out, this life.
This life, my goal, my aim, its all gonna be at that island, I'll swim there, I'll pick up whatever thats useful to me and this life, I won't falter, I promise, giving up, is never an option anymore.
This life, andy, you'll push it, till u break, and force urself to wake, till u succeed.
Labels : awaken.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
This time, with absolute prediction and accurate precision..
I've seen people, who were once closed to me, drifting, and they never looked back.
I've tried to hang on to em, ask em whether if they'll flutter back, and they said maybe.
Now, I prefer to let em go, and seek out new friends.
Even though the long years we've been connected, its hard to let go, but it shall be done.
This push, I'll only carry those that will bring me through this phase of life, and the future they'll be kept deep in my heart, from..
today on.
Labels : friends.
I've seen people, who were once closed to me, drifting, and they never looked back.
I've tried to hang on to em, ask em whether if they'll flutter back, and they said maybe.
Now, I prefer to let em go, and seek out new friends.
Even though the long years we've been connected, its hard to let go, but it shall be done.
This push, I'll only carry those that will bring me through this phase of life, and the future they'll be kept deep in my heart, from..
today on.
Labels : friends.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Pouring water onto my flames, and walk away pretending..
I have a sudden urge to give up..
Think this push, is a waste, honestly.
Even though life's still filled with many promising futures for me, that i strongly believe.
But the negative side overwrites me.
Really, brought up that smile and that character within me, with all my might.
But the moment I let go abit, I burn out.
Wheres that enthusiam..
All the hardwork that I put in throughout my years just vanished, within days after months of fruit.
Cornered is what I feel..
The moment I let go of it, they die on me.
Sometimes, so much for placing em priority in my heart, when they go on with their own life, their words are never trustable.
They never tried to look back, even if they did, they just feel too lazy to initiate.
They will dare to say they've thought about it, but actions are what we dont see.
Now, its not just them stabbing a knife right into my heart, but..
Me myself squeezing my own heart, gritting my teeth, clenching my fists..
With one side of me telling me to just go all out and burst the heart, and live somewhere else happier and better off without all these thoughts..
or..
To let go of that pain, a man will attain enlightenment if he passes through this stage. One will feel learned, and overcome such events in the future easily, without falling once more, and complete this life..
This life that only the strongest/smartest will live through it all, enjoyable-ly.
and for my attitude, I aim for the strongest/smartest, even though I know my limits, I'll break that limit and fight this life's obstacles.
For now, FUCK THIS WORLD, BACK TO THE OLD FUCKEROO I WAS, AND..
Labels : giving up, not.
I have a sudden urge to give up..
Think this push, is a waste, honestly.
Even though life's still filled with many promising futures for me, that i strongly believe.
But the negative side overwrites me.
Really, brought up that smile and that character within me, with all my might.
But the moment I let go abit, I burn out.
Wheres that enthusiam..
All the hardwork that I put in throughout my years just vanished, within days after months of fruit.
Cornered is what I feel..
The moment I let go of it, they die on me.
Sometimes, so much for placing em priority in my heart, when they go on with their own life, their words are never trustable.
They never tried to look back, even if they did, they just feel too lazy to initiate.
They will dare to say they've thought about it, but actions are what we dont see.
Now, its not just them stabbing a knife right into my heart, but..
Me myself squeezing my own heart, gritting my teeth, clenching my fists..
With one side of me telling me to just go all out and burst the heart, and live somewhere else happier and better off without all these thoughts..
or..
To let go of that pain, a man will attain enlightenment if he passes through this stage. One will feel learned, and overcome such events in the future easily, without falling once more, and complete this life..
This life that only the strongest/smartest will live through it all, enjoyable-ly.
and for my attitude, I aim for the strongest/smartest, even though I know my limits, I'll break that limit and fight this life's obstacles.
For now, FUCK THIS WORLD, BACK TO THE OLD FUCKEROO I WAS, AND..
THE REAL HELL BEGINS TOMORROW.
Labels : giving up, not.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Like a tree without leaves and branches
I fucking hate to cry.
Crying is really for the weak.
Men should shed blood.
But I keep sheding youknowwhat.
Fucking andy, quit being a sissy and stand up like a man.
Who told you its a bad thing, wheres that mentality. WAKE UP~
Labels : down and out.
I fucking hate to cry.
Crying is really for the weak.
Men should shed blood.
But I keep sheding youknowwhat.
Fucking andy, quit being a sissy and stand up like a man.
Who told you its a bad thing, wheres that mentality. WAKE UP~
Sonic Syndicate - Enclaved
We are uninvited guests
in this melancholy world
and soon you learn
that the only thing worth to treasure
are the people that actually care
then why are there still tears in your eyes?
So I'm trying to teach you something
but you turn away
so I'm trying to show you the path
but you'll walk astray
I would cross the seven seas
just to get to you
I wouldn't sleep a thousand nights
to give what belongs to you.
The token of all I was
I traded for my escape
to see a new horizon
and my burden finally rests now
In the depths of it's water grave
but the waves of the river will always remember.
Forever isn't long enough
in the company of you
my heart will always beat your name.
Labels : down and out.
Friday, August 08, 2008
I want reciprocate.
*Breathes in*
Here goes my story for today..
One day..
A farmer found a pig in the forest, and he took really good care of it.
Then one day he found a cow and whenever he treat it well, it gave him back milk.
And wondered, why didnt he reap what he sow, cause the pig cleared his assets while the cow always return him a bottle of milk for his income.
Then he thought, should he let go of the pig, cause the cow would sustain his life, alil longer.
Labels : story.
*Breathes in*
Here goes my story for today..
One day..
A farmer found a pig in the forest, and he took really good care of it.
Then one day he found a cow and whenever he treat it well, it gave him back milk.
And wondered, why didnt he reap what he sow, cause the pig cleared his assets while the cow always return him a bottle of milk for his income.
Then he thought, should he let go of the pig, cause the cow would sustain his life, alil longer.
Labels : story.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
One reason I don't drink is that I want to know when I am having a good time.
Yes yes, introducing, the latest favourite machine of mine.Effect? It makes you thighs look bigger, nah, and you have a strong base for rowing dragonboat :D You know you know, firm base = excellent to every sport.
Anyways, today, I did 5 pieces of 20kg each side, super... happy?! The satisfactory is ABCDEFG LAH! I'm looking forward to wednesdays from now on man :D hehehe.
My own quote of the day, the brain is a very impt factor in life. Take note, people out there!
Labels : Leg press
Sunday, August 03, 2008
The only thing to do with good advice is to pass it on. It is never any use to oneself.
Jack Neo's latest show, Money not enough 2 's what I'm gonna write about today.
It's.. never fails on the comedy part, and of course, the touching part is always there to make everyone cry.
Honestly, I almost cried, held back only. The part where its about filial peity.. the part where, when the mom dies, then one starts to regret and everything, really really reflect on us singaporeans.
My grandfather just died recently.
I was damn sad, but I couldn't cry. I've gotta be strong, cause my dad cried, due to certain reasons.
My uncle aunties, those son and daughters of my grandfather, came back, some cried and stuffs.
Yes, of course they went emotional and stuffs, losing a dad, that always forked out for their living and they didn't do the same.
If I'm not wrong, throughout my entire 19 years of life, they didn't spend a single cent, on every restaurant outing we had, every important event we had, and TRIED to visit my grand parents during chinese new year only. Every single thing, utilities, tax and everything, my dad was forking out. Then when grand pa passed away, they came back and cry.
For my judgement, they confirm regret, but only to a certain extend. Really..
My post today, is for you people, to start to cherish your parents. They raise you up, without a complain, yes, they scold you or swear for some, but they still bring you up don't they. Please, at the end of the day, you're still their flesh and blood.
Love your parents, show em you do :)
Labels : parents/love
Jack Neo's latest show, Money not enough 2 's what I'm gonna write about today.
It's.. never fails on the comedy part, and of course, the touching part is always there to make everyone cry.
Honestly, I almost cried, held back only. The part where its about filial peity.. the part where, when the mom dies, then one starts to regret and everything, really really reflect on us singaporeans.
My grandfather just died recently.
I was damn sad, but I couldn't cry. I've gotta be strong, cause my dad cried, due to certain reasons.
My uncle aunties, those son and daughters of my grandfather, came back, some cried and stuffs.
Yes, of course they went emotional and stuffs, losing a dad, that always forked out for their living and they didn't do the same.
If I'm not wrong, throughout my entire 19 years of life, they didn't spend a single cent, on every restaurant outing we had, every important event we had, and TRIED to visit my grand parents during chinese new year only. Every single thing, utilities, tax and everything, my dad was forking out. Then when grand pa passed away, they came back and cry.
For my judgement, they confirm regret, but only to a certain extend. Really..
My post today, is for you people, to start to cherish your parents. They raise you up, without a complain, yes, they scold you or swear for some, but they still bring you up don't they. Please, at the end of the day, you're still their flesh and blood.
Love your parents, show em you do :)
Labels : parents/love
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
To achieve the impossible dream, try going to sleep.
Simple, work hard and you'll see the light, at the end of the tunnel, but for my version, at the end of the highway, wah, invent INVENT ONLY HUH!!
Say hey to miss wriggly/crazygirl. she abuses me alot today. Haha please help me calm her down, deeply appreciated. LOLOLOL :D
Labels : motivate
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Hope is necessary in every condition
Recently, I went out with my clique superly often. Guess it was really fun to hang out with them once more, after really sucha long time. They and their crap that you can just laugh non-stop.
They've been singing, what if I had a million bucks.
Honestly, if I had a million bucks..
I would..
-use half of it for proper investing for future income/and invest in papa's business also.
-keep 10% for safety purposes
the rest of it would be..
-invite monks from every temple to sit in the mrt and chant for a whole day and lock joy and kaisin inside with me :D
-send 20 geylang chicks for john and jeffery to share hehehe.
-hire 1 instructor to train me to row 20knots a second.
OK NEXT~
-refurnish* my life, upgrade my computer, buy collectables that I want, rear fishes.
-try out every restaurant in singapore/go overseas with dumdum.
-get a bicycle for easy transportation.
-learn everything that helps me in my future
Today, what kenneth did at his competition was really very daring. Even though it was their firsttime in a competition.
I don't like to tell people things to make em feel better. I only want people to realise how they can do better and the rest depends on emself.
Sometimes, I think my sucha-ass character pisses people off, well, thats just my style.
Lastly..
I feel neglected, somehow.
Maybe its just a temporary feeling, thats why sometimes, having too much spare time and thinking too much is really, infuriating. Don't think, SLEEP.
Labels : neglected
Recently, I went out with my clique superly often. Guess it was really fun to hang out with them once more, after really sucha long time. They and their crap that you can just laugh non-stop.
They've been singing, what if I had a million bucks.
Honestly, if I had a million bucks..
I would..
-use half of it for proper investing for future income/and invest in papa's business also.
-keep 10% for safety purposes
the rest of it would be..
-invite monks from every temple to sit in the mrt and chant for a whole day and lock joy and kaisin inside with me :D
-send 20 geylang chicks for john and jeffery to share hehehe.
-hire 1 instructor to train me to row 20knots a second.
OK NEXT~
-refurnish* my life, upgrade my computer, buy collectables that I want, rear fishes.
-try out every restaurant in singapore/go overseas with dumdum.
-get a bicycle for easy transportation.
-learn everything that helps me in my future
Today, what kenneth did at his competition was really very daring. Even though it was their firsttime in a competition.
I don't like to tell people things to make em feel better. I only want people to realise how they can do better and the rest depends on emself.
Sometimes, I think my sucha-ass character pisses people off, well, thats just my style.
Lastly..
I feel neglected, somehow.
Maybe its just a temporary feeling, thats why sometimes, having too much spare time and thinking too much is really, infuriating. Don't think, SLEEP.
Labels : neglected
Friday, July 11, 2008
People ask for criticism, but they only want praise
I know its really late to post all these, but , yeap, never too late :DThats the whole of CWDB, I'm the only alumni rower inside, the ancient rowers went off without me? :(
Joking, yeap, thats us.
Joking, yeap, thats us.
These are the guys, with the ancient seniors, 4 of us :DA really nice and decent pic.
And the non-formal shot, LOL! I shouldn't have started this kind of shot. Non-formal shot = run to the camera and have ur face inside only LOL! Now every non-formal picture always like that -.-! LOL funny tho!
Prize presentation, super finally uh! :)
LOLOL ignasia and her shit drawing, still dare to tell me its cute O_O
Thats my Darbelle :) the... *cough* naturally cute one, AHEM AHEM!!
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I've got to go soon so I've to cut this really short.
To ALL CWDBs, these are my thoughts. If there're any enquires, please let me know, I hope they don't sound too harsh :D
I think we people lack adaptability, motivation.But we dont lack hardwork, in the wrong way. What I want to say is, we need to think, then work towards it, and seek understanding before moving on, don't just hardwork blindly get it?
Everyone wants to rush through training, hoping that it'll end as soon as possible. Okay, who doesn't, but at least give your all out, don't just endure thru the exercises we give you, but force through it to gain better results, you know?
We can improve by :
1)Challenging each other is also a healthy way, but a friendly challenge of course, we can improve by that way too.
2)Setting goals like within this time period, I must be able to do this amount of weight or such.
3)Motivate your friends but don't over motivate, remind em to be self motivated, cause you have your own training, you can't possibly look out for everyone, everytime.
After being the CW alumni captain, i found out the responsiblity of a captain, even though its a small team. I understand how much stress a captain's handling, but everytime we tell you people to be discipline and work hard to make things easy for the captain and vice, you guys nod without actions, or maybe we don't realise. But lets put it this way first, you guys don't prove it through actions yet.
What I think a captain's role is :
As a captain, he have to push really hard so as not to be a bad example to the rest, he have to take care of all of our attendance and needs. He will chiong all the way to prove to you guys that he can do it. But if you people prefer to flock in your own group and just endure through the training, instead of setting goals, striving to be better every training, coming regularly and everything, we'll very fast burn out and die.
I hope all of us can be self motivated and push hard, for the sake of a better team. Everyone have a part in the team, don't they.
Over and out. Am late for work.
-Harshly pointed out by Andy, the ancient rower-
Labels : Discipline/Right Direction/Love.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
No one can earn a million dollars honestly.
Many things happened to me recently.
Riverbanks flooding the shore everytime the thoughts were there.
During the 7 years wait, maybe I tried to upgrade in my every aspect , not to the best, but at least to what I can be.
But the 7 years wait turned out to be a foolish wait, as a snake can never love a rat.
Loserfied since early ages, things are always done, to my best extent.
I really tried to be the best circuit board that will fit any component within.
But now the component rejects my status cause it believes it can't function with me.
Lorry to the face, was the first felt.
Katana through the heart, was second.
"King of the hammer" straight at AHEM, third.
Lastly, the feeling stay on like leeches.
-For Fuck Sake-
Anyways, to my recreation coxswian test in about 3 hours time. Had a headache closing up to a fever yesterday, slept at 10 to cure it all.
OH, please come down chinatown to support me in the chicken rice eating competition.
First prize's 2000, so I'm assuming 1000 for second and 500 for third as they said there's 3500 of cash and prizes.
Woah thinking about it, excited already. It's next saturday, 5/6/7 pm.
ROOT FOR ME THANKS!
-out-
Labels : -----------
Many things happened to me recently.
Riverbanks flooding the shore everytime the thoughts were there.
During the 7 years wait, maybe I tried to upgrade in my every aspect , not to the best, but at least to what I can be.
But the 7 years wait turned out to be a foolish wait, as a snake can never love a rat.
Loserfied since early ages, things are always done, to my best extent.
I really tried to be the best circuit board that will fit any component within.
But now the component rejects my status cause it believes it can't function with me.
Lorry to the face, was the first felt.
Katana through the heart, was second.
"King of the hammer" straight at AHEM, third.
Lastly, the feeling stay on like leeches.
-For Fuck Sake-
Anyways, to my recreation coxswian test in about 3 hours time. Had a headache closing up to a fever yesterday, slept at 10 to cure it all.
OH, please come down chinatown to support me in the chicken rice eating competition.
First prize's 2000, so I'm assuming 1000 for second and 500 for third as they said there's 3500 of cash and prizes.
Woah thinking about it, excited already. It's next saturday, 5/6/7 pm.
ROOT FOR ME THANKS!
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Thursday, July 03, 2008
Your theory is crazy, but not crazy enough to be true.
I had the weirdest dream just.
Immediately i woke up and now, i wanna write everything down.
It all happened after I just bought my starcraft 2 game. <-- its not out yet.
I played, enjoy every bit of effect and fantasy within.
Then its late and my brother was studying, trying his very best to concentrate because he too wants to play this game.
But because I forced him to study, finish his homework before play.
I told him too bad, its 12am already, go sleep, when he just finished his homework and wanted to touch my comp.
So he went to bed with a very sad face and me, thinking that its for his own good.
Next morning, I see my razer lachesis, my 129 bucks mouse filled with scratches.
I just woke up you know, my temper's like crazy. In an instant, I looked for my brother and hes happily shaking his leg and watching teevee. I asked, did you spoil my mouse. He just replied, I only went use your comp and play starcraft 2, how I know will spoil huh?!
I went on nagging and he took out his latest headset, which he scrimped and saved a buck or 2 everyday to buy it. His very first item that he bought himself, and covered his ears, blasting music just to ignore me.
My blood boiled, literally, I snatched away the headset and threaten him to break it.
His facial expression changed for abit, to abit scared, but still he tried a smug or smile which I couldn't differentiate. I was using force trying to break the headset, at the same time, telling myself not to do it, stop stop stop.
It ended off when he said, this thing very hard one, cannot break.
Summed up all my strength, I broke it and threw it on the floor.
Thought that I could buy a new one for him again, as I had some savings, I never realised that this will affect his life throughout. His very first selfsavethenbuy item. He opened the door and ran out, and thats a firsttime too. I felt this pinch at my heart and the regret came in almost the next moment when he turned his back on me and ran away.
Then i woke up.
That heart-pinching-sensation woke me up one.
Anyways, I know, I'll treat my brother well from today onwards, this dream taught me well.
Labels : teachings.
I had the weirdest dream just.
Immediately i woke up and now, i wanna write everything down.
It all happened after I just bought my starcraft 2 game. <-- its not out yet.
I played, enjoy every bit of effect and fantasy within.
Then its late and my brother was studying, trying his very best to concentrate because he too wants to play this game.
But because I forced him to study, finish his homework before play.
I told him too bad, its 12am already, go sleep, when he just finished his homework and wanted to touch my comp.
So he went to bed with a very sad face and me, thinking that its for his own good.
Next morning, I see my razer lachesis, my 129 bucks mouse filled with scratches.
I just woke up you know, my temper's like crazy. In an instant, I looked for my brother and hes happily shaking his leg and watching teevee. I asked, did you spoil my mouse. He just replied, I only went use your comp and play starcraft 2, how I know will spoil huh?!
I went on nagging and he took out his latest headset, which he scrimped and saved a buck or 2 everyday to buy it. His very first item that he bought himself, and covered his ears, blasting music just to ignore me.
My blood boiled, literally, I snatched away the headset and threaten him to break it.
His facial expression changed for abit, to abit scared, but still he tried a smug or smile which I couldn't differentiate. I was using force trying to break the headset, at the same time, telling myself not to do it, stop stop stop.
It ended off when he said, this thing very hard one, cannot break.
Summed up all my strength, I broke it and threw it on the floor.
Thought that I could buy a new one for him again, as I had some savings, I never realised that this will affect his life throughout. His very first selfsavethenbuy item. He opened the door and ran out, and thats a firsttime too. I felt this pinch at my heart and the regret came in almost the next moment when he turned his back on me and ran away.
Then i woke up.
That heart-pinching-sensation woke me up one.
Anyways, I know, I'll treat my brother well from today onwards, this dream taught me well.
Labels : teachings.
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