this picture, speaks a thousand words, really.

highest row : Alvin [ dota allstar O_O! ], xiaolong [ the waiter ], john [ ljkk hehe ], andy [ cock fella cum asshole hehe ], jason [ strongest pacer ], ahseng [ rich man ], should be jackson [ panther ], jasper [ power pac ah! ], kokann [ another piston man ], angda [ pretty boy rofl! ], lech [ no link fella ], zhenwei [ super cock fella cum living ghost haha! ].

on the chairs : ah ben [ fbt sexy! haha! ], benjamin [ hmm ? ], dama [ malay girl! ], joy [ chinese girl ,duh! ], weihao [ sighh ], yan an, [ mushroomman/paul ], sean [ SAAA! ], desmond [ no comments totally ], some malay guy.

on the floor yo! : buay [ injured leg man ], pk [ garang boyboy ], ronald [ respectable captain yo! ], enrique [ another, respectable vice captain].

haha all that time..

but yea, look forward.

Labels : memories.

be calm, like the sea and the wind or the drizzle.

like the occasional high tide, the strong winds howling, that heavy droplets splattering on you.
even a combination which makes up a storm.
that leaves you cold, drenched and makes you..

pissed off and clouds your thoughts and judgements.

you're 19 already and you're gonna spend 2 years working. Your work 'll be like a war, the same old things/scenes/routes, but changes in the scenario everyday.
one minute you thought you're safe, the next minute you might just lose your life.

be calm, know what you need to do, protect yourself, following up protect your friends and love one.

no more reckless moves, no more hot headed shit.
wake up from that 'trance' state if u ever get provoked into it, in the shortest time possible.
and make the right move.

Labels : be calm :)

its yet another, hohoho. ;)

christmas eve's .. er.. kinda fulfilling hahaha :X:X. Though camp lifestyle made me 'blackout' while mahjonging. I just collapse on the floor after the game at 3am hahaha.

Anws I'm gonna stress on how stressful I'm gonna get tomorrow.

100++ questions test in 2 hours.

going back to camp tonight and getting out tomorrow. WTH WTH WTH!
serious, like waste time, but haha, 'graduation day' 's coming soon.

I shall state my new year 'want to do' now before I forget!

2009 I wanna..

1)have a healed right knee! so I can chiong once again.
2)be safe cause the on the ground its never safe.
3)learn piano/harmonica [ instruments ]
4)learn sculling/boating aka boat license and drive one/excel in dragonboat/learn martial arts hahaha! [ seasports/sports ]
5)learn my japanese and germanese?!?! [ languages ]
6)hurry up get a car license and drive so i no need to always taxi! :/ [ transport ]
7)be more knowledgeable in interior design so I can help dad decorate the 2 new houses. [ sophisticated ]
8)try out ice skiing/scuba diving/bungee/sky diving if chance exists [ external ]
9)play starcraft 2 and buy all of blizzard's story books/rave books also [ collection/interest ]
10)something that fits into that circuit board ;)

My resolution would be :

I will be more discipline.
I will try to cut down on my rash acts.
I will be less stubborn.
I will not anyhow spend money anymore.
I will scold less vuglarities [ SUMPA ]
I will not be so reckless in sports.
I will try to get closer to my family/godfamily.
I will maybe become less much of a cockster. okay okay, know when to be one.
I will once again, want smooth sailing in my life.

Okay, STUDY TIME, ACCUPUNTURE LATER.

Labels : christmas/new year in adv.

that garden of flowers, which continues, beyond sight.

They said, when there're so many varities, rare, attractive flowers.
Why must u die die stick to one particular S.F.

Then he say, because special mah.
They say, how special, there're like so many other, even more beautifully blossomed S.F.

Then he say, when you like it at first sight, you find that only one particular and special.
Would you give it up even if something more attractive gets to your sight.

He continued, of course not!

Labels: flowers :X

Just for laughs. but really, somehow, its over :D

all the times we've been together, just perished after a person's doings.

Labels : Be crazy, Be yourself :D

you topple and broke my glass, yet you fix it back standing.

It felt like a quarrel.
Then both chatter and laugh through the verbal convo.
It felt like 'Once in a lifetime'
Swear that 'esctatic' was what I felt, those upsetting moments were just washed away.
the drive revives, yet again..
then it all just went back to normal the moment you open ur eyes the next day.
Confused state of mind.
Always there still,for now.
I had 5 words in my mind when I reminsce your words,
Not that I don't know what I want. Vice Versa.
'you're still pending something somehow.'
maybe you're still uncertain, and time will tell? somehow?
Sometimes I feel really tired, I wanna just throw all this 'burdens' inclusive of thoughts, aches[specific? you know what lah], responsibilities, ALL of em at the side of the pavement, sit down, relax for awhile, before carrying em and continue walking on.

Bah!

For whatever it is, my love life, my this weak knee[ HEAL FASTER YO ], my old friends that used to make me laugh whenever they crap, my future..
I just want, smooth sailing for all, not too greedy I guess? HAHA!
I SWEAR, for the firsttime, accupuncture hurts, 3 seconds of immobilization due to needle poked at nerves, somehow causes paralysis, with feelings of electric currents flowing thru your toe. Turban, I thought I was going to die :S

Okay brain dead.
Weekends, I'll see you tmr, BEDTIME, HERE I COME.

Labels : think think think!

mozart in the making.

Haha secret yo! Want to buy someone more patient with me besides my brother, he always run to dota while teaching me how to play piano. WTHHHHH!! I only have weekends to learn, HELLO!

Labels : mozart LAH!

the biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.

An accident :

A knee, twisting 360degrees back to its original position results in..

1)Victim screaming at the top of his voice.
2)Not able to move for quite a period.
3)Waiting at the hospital for 4 hours.
4)Not able to sleep well because that injured leg have to remain straight or bend, and adjusting it will hurt like crazy.
5)Cannot walk at all.
6)Have to limp and depend on crutches.
7)Its a lucky number yes, but, all in all, ' pathetic '.

Lets pray that theres no ligament injury, or the worst case scenario, just a slight, injury.
I don't wanna recourse my entire Basic Training.
I wanna be able to play basketball still.
I wanna be able to run freely still too.
I want, err.. hope/wish/etc, that ahem can visit/support me. haha :X:X

Aiyo, just faster cure lah, mr.rightknee.

Labels: broken knee

when you put out the campfire.

You know its finally and end to all the bondings and everything.
You know that tomorrow will be the day you've finally completed this phase and its time to grow up.
You want these people around you to still be with you and hold onto each other, hoping that they will still be ur friends till you grow old, because they are people whom lived with u, gone through obstacles together, work together, and get punished together for a whole 3months 3 weeks.
But you know, you're a man, and you've to carve out something from your life first, create a family, and then protect em.
These friends will be there, if they're fated to be your friends, like someone you need to rely on or someone that needs you to enlighten to 'grow up'. But heck the future for now, all you want now, is to cherish every moment with em, the remaining 33 days with em, and make a memory to pass out together, as a squad that one will always remember, a group of monkeys/rowdy buggers that one will miss whenever they think bout their NS life, a bonding that's so priceless that one will inscript it and treasure it,deep in his heart, forever.

Lets work hard together, LIMA BULOH!
And damn, i will miss you a hella. sumpa.
Labels : parting is hard, just look ahead young, andy.

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times.. always with the same person. Dinner at bla bla black sheep yesterday to celebrate mr's.. okay.. celebrate sounds wrong, to send mr off to NS. Hope he'll have fun inside lolol.
'HOMEMADE BEEF BURGER', trust me, the burger is bigger than carls junior and mc's mega mac. Super big lah, I gorge on a mc'chicken, that, soft shell crabs, lotsa water, drumlets and I produced something liquified. Super bloated, you can't blame me for eating so much though. The place I am in for weekdays doesn't provide food that palatable.

Oh, while I was on my way, haha, I see this lovey-dovey old couple play ping pong with each other, laughing as they play. Don't you find it, like.. very, cute? Maybe its the wrong word to use but, I find it really rare to see couples still spending time together doing what they like. Imagine nexttime I old already, I rent 1 dragonboat with my partner and we park near the marine barrage and enjoy the atmosphere. Not sure whether if sunset could be seen though. haha, but all in all, this old couple really makes me envy, somehow.

Oh and this really outdated picture. Raffles hotel birthday function. ROFL, mask galore. That place is filled with hotbabes, branded stuffs, cool cars. Quite an experience. Even sitting down infront of the toilet waiting for my friends also got damn cool encounter. HAHAHA :X
Would you cherish someone that does anything for you without complaining, maybe complains abit but still, will you? I will.

Labels : life.

that aftermath
[edit]
[start]
Once upon a time, there stayed a family of 3 with a rascal whom hammers nails into his house's fence whenever he felt unhappy.
He nailed every single fence around his house's perimeter.
And one day his dad found out about his son's doings and taught him a verbal lesson. He stood infront of his dad and listened to the 'chantings' and finally his tolerance cut off. He shouted at his dad, telling him if he removed the nails, everything would be undone already right?!

His dad gave his son the hammer and told him to remove every single nail.
When all is done, he could see the fences with wood splint protruding out, ugly holes throughout the entire perimeter.

Dad said, you see what you've done, for your own selfishness, to ease yourself, without looking at the bigger picture, you destroyed our family's fence.
Let this be a lesson learnt dear son, think before you move.
[end]

rashness brings in the misunderstandings because the truth 's not revealed.
so nexttime pend,plan before you ignite. Whats done cannot be undone, even if it could be, a 'scar' would be inscripted there forever.
I dont mind my stupid acts, as long as my conscience is clear.
Labels : rashness/after-effect.

burn you inferior creep, quit the negative thoughts.

not wanting to be secondary to one.
not walking the 'alley' but able to get to one directly.
not suprised that one day one 'll be tired to even bother saying sorry.
I hate it when mummy hurries me to choose my overseas university. because I can give that up for a special someone.
why am i getting so hard up
but the shit thing, is I have only until next year mid year and I have to make my choice. fuck.
labels : i think its, jealousy.

a true man
even if hes the abandoned,
can endure the 'burn' and walk away holding his head high to..

and..
nextweek, the most hectic week for me, especially that test.
bless me to have the courage and make my mark.

Your flame glows and flickers.

You pend and wait.
You yearn to see.
You want to know.
You know you do not have the standing.
Yet you perservere on.
You don't know if what you're doing is stupid to others.
You only know its something that you feel towards to and want to have.
You just want to see the smile.
But yet another side of you wants something more.
You feel that its kind of impossible.
But you know you can change it and make a difference.
Because even a % near to 0.001, you'll go for it.

So..

You know that the chances are low.
You know you have to give it a go.
You know determination and perserverance will lead you somewhere.
But not to expect too much.
Because you know life's a bet and things are unpredictable
You just want honesty from her.
So you know when to let go, or when to see her smile at you, and you back at her.
And you know, whatever the outcome, you can take it.
Because the truth is something you rather listen to.
And you want to see the smile always

Even if your mind is exhausted.
Even if your knee wants to give up and rest.

You know whats worth to do and whats not.
Go, toughest one.
I know I'm utterly greedy, but, i just miss you abit too much i guess.
Labels : you and your thoughts.

when theres no light at the end of the tunnel.

[ Edit post ]

sometimes, you just feel very uneasy. you want to get it off ur head but it just lingers there. you look at it in a different manner but people of the same species tells you that you're utterly stupid with their reason that holds a higher stand somehow. then you start to get confused.

and sometimes thinking so much really just makes life less enjoyable.

but then again, you still dont feel right, somehow. but afterall, tho sometimes you care bout how others look at you, you just know whatever you're doing is right even if it seems stupid.

and.. its the trust that keeps me hanging on.

labels : wrong. [ okay maybe theres still a dim light at the end of the tunnel ]

Speak the truth, but leave immediately after.

So, my colourblind didn't pull me down on my final judgement. At least I'll get something that I want. Someone I can be, to test my leadership, Go andy, know the damn finishing point, and sprint ;D

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Even tho it seems like some of em have grown up. But words of manipulation just never fails to arouse em. Maybe getting used to those, high end phrases of a sly, you just can't resist the temptation to get hypnotised.

Everytime I see em like that, and even he say don't care, I still can't forget all that me and some 've been through to work this whole thing up and just taken away by one. Maybe thats the real world out that and I've to face it I guess.

Alright, saturday, early morning, time starts to tick away. Woots my father say he buy Iphone then he dont like so.. its mine O_O. Damn wth. hahahahaha!
Your ' dasical bout something ' smile.
Labels : type type type, damn a chore for both brains and fingers.

Character is what you have left when you've lost everything you can lose

I see negative attitudes.
Sigh sometimes things just aren't in your control.

Anyways,
I'm proud to have done my very best this race. It's like I can feel that intensity and that willingness to win within me. To fight like a warrior that never gives up. Definitely proud.

But guess what, we didn't win, which to me isnt such a sad thing anymore hahaha.
Mama said, treat every lost, as a learning experience.

But..
I f***ing screwed up the coxing.
I somehow blame the rudder for being tied too low and cannot be adjusted.
but then again I keep telling myself, if I'm good, then whatever situation, I can excel.

Seahawk leading, still leading seahawk, seahawks leads.. and the last 30metres I have to go off course and made em come in 3rd in the semis not qualifying for the grand nor minor finals.

People say, aiya whats done is done.
People say, you were quite daring to even go down and coxs even its ur first time and regatta arena's kinda hard to cox, many people go off course you know?
People say, learning experience lah, I support you still.

Andy say, ya bullshit, I blame it on my own inferior skills.
*scroll cursor over*
*highlights myself*
*press 'delete'*
*open recycle bin*
*click myself*
*press 'delete'*
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even the untidy you look pretty when you smile, i swear cause it never fails to make my day
Labels : Learnings.

just drive it out, beyond the limits.

..and thats what I'm gonna do tmr. I swear, I'll row till I break and head back to camp and sleep like a log.

Today's attempt was kinda, good, from what I see. My standard still maintained haha :D

My coach enlighten me with lotsa things. [ which i ain't gonna type cause I'm starving ]

My instructor scold me and tell me bout how weak I am and how am I gonna protect the people around me nexttime.

My teammates on the boat keep shouting for drives and push and I always wish I was just abit stronger and be the pillar to support em.

And things are gonna be different tmr.
Many many things will change and I hate to see it but, life's like this. You reap what you sow. So goodluck..

Anyways I think I damn smart, I look downwards and walk, and in the end, I knock my toes onto this protruding metal piece. Turban, now my left foot damn damn pain. Then just I tried to like.. tiptoe with my right foot, then like the bone shifted or something, now the ankle feels, not right, even [ 'clenching'<-- I really dont know what word to use ] my toes got this slight pain.

Oh wells, maybe its nothing, just suddenly pain only. To dinner. I am damn hungry!

For tomorrow, for you, all out. lets go andy.

Labels : I dunno lah, labels are damn troublesome. hahaha.

reads, and laugh at my past deeds

First of all, say bye to 39degrees fever.
I survived afterall, it was a torture though.

Had to sit at the clinic for nearly an hour half, and trust me, that throbbing headache, that pain wasn't nice to endure at all.
I'd rather trade 1000 pushups for that pain, really.

next, to highlight my nick.
I read this sentence from somewhere, " shouted damn loud, infront of everyone, saying : because I love you ".

Damn, doesn't this scene reminds you of things which I had experienced.
Super drama, but yes, memories just pour back the minute I read that sentence, but then, hahahahahahahaha, I never expected people would do the same thing huh! HAHAHA.

Guess I've to write this down even though that period was a sad one. 20 years down the road, I might just view back my previous posts and .. laugh at .. how drama I was. Who knows, I might even be more drama then. This scene, a chilly night, people were walking thru and forth, it was on the roadside, around 20 steps away from a busstop near amk hub. I shouted all these at her, not giving a shit bout anyone around me.

But things just weren't solve and we ended up in this plight.

HEYO, I'm not getting emo or whatsoever, infact im smiling while typing out all of these. I just wanna remember all of these stuffs. They're pages that fills up the chapter of my life. They're, priceless infact. Sometimes, losing something, just makes you learn, the importance, the level of cherish you input, growth in maturity, and some other stuffs.

Alright, I've just recovered, but not giving a damn bout my health, this week, I doubt I'll give a damn bout anything, JUST LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST YO~!

Basketball gogogo!

Don't you want her to concern for you, don't you want her to be like herself, her fun attitude when shes with you. Don't you.

Labels : sick/memories.

I love the tann, but I hate the sunburns.

Yes, thats mutant andy, hahaha so if you still dont know how the f*** I'm looking atm, you can thank miss mak for threatening me with chopsticks in a restaurant and making me look so.. cute.

Haha, today's masters 's kinda cock, but at least i let my team feel back the feeling during competition, that intensity and how fierce the other teams are.

And I'm having sunburns and nothing much to say, so I think I should stop here and do something I wanna do atm :D

REGATTA here I come, please work hard man alumni, you guys just lack the heart and will to win sometimes :\

Takecare fellas.

Labels : write-for-fun.